when I lay there in the ground
don't cry
don't wonder what you could've done
just don't

I don't want a celebration of life
or a funeral

I want someone to lay me 6 feel below
and pretend I never existed

the world was better before I came into it

I've lost so much
I've lost my Biological family to drugs
I've lost my best friend to suicide
I've lost myself
I've lost hope
I've lost everything that matters

Where's God now?
Now that my world is crumbling
And my hands are shaking

I keep thinking that I can make it
That I can be the first on in my Biological family to go to college
That I can do this...but what if I'm wrong?

What if I haven't proved them wrong
But I've showed them how much they were right?

I am nothing... I never will be

Honestly I don't know If I will make it...
I'm going to try, but what if trying isn't enough?
What if I do all I can, but I still sink into that hole in my chest
And people only start to care when I'm gone

If I take that knife or that gun
And I leave...

I'm done
Done with it all
The void in my heart
The hollowness in my chest
The fear in my mind
Can you just see
I'm done

Is it possible to hate your own birthday
Because you know that on that day
You'll be older than she ever was

I saw you cry
I heard you weep
I smelled the rain
I touched the mud
I tasted the salt

There's a boy that I like
He's honest and true
I only wish he could like me back

Give me a minute to process
the thought of you leaving

The melody, rhythm, the words
I could be lost in a song forever

They are hard to find...So when you do find them don't let go....

I'll love you until you give me a good reason not to.

I come lurking in the shadows. You may see me through the eyes of an abuser, thief, liar, murderer, you may even see me in your reflection. Most people run and hide from me, as if they are afraid . Yet I am nothing to be scared of. I will be your friend when your time comes. I will play for you a video tape. On that tape images your life will flash before your eyes. and you will see who the real monster is.

They said I'd never be enough
They said I'll only mess things up
Look who proved them wrong.

How many people will scroll past my poems and never stop to look at them?
How many times will I send someone messages and they never read them?
How many days will I give all I can and people still leave me unread?

"Hey it's me, and I know you probably don't want to hear from me right now. That's okay I'll keep this short, but I wanted to say sorry. I guess that you never really know what you have until it's gone. I miss you and I hope you're doing okay. Anyway call me when you get a chance."

They say home is where the heart is
that's why my heart belongs to you

Eventually everybody will know the name of Jesus
Either it be now or the day that he returns to take his people home
All will bow before the king.

Have we met like this before?
You and I
Side by side
It seems we've done this before
A time or two

I'm done trying to be kind to you, when you make me so angry

That one boy who pressured me into telling him I liked him
Now is mad when I finally decided I was done lying about this
I don't like him, In fact I kind of felt bad for him
I felt like the only way to be friends was to be more than friends
It made me uncomfortable lying to him
So I told him I won't be friends with him anymore
Then he tried manipulating me into a relationship
Using the Bible against me

Is it just me who goes through this??

I know you feel like giving up
hold on
You have people rooting for you!!

Sometimes we feel like we aren't worth anything
Yet we are
We are worth so, so much
I promise

You are a child of the king
The Lord has made you in his image
You are loved beyond measure
You are seen
You are forgiven
You are wanted
You are created with a purpose

You are so much more than this darkness
Keep going, you've got this!

You may think that you have reached the end
Trust me I've felt that way before too
But you are unfinished
You still have work to do here on this earth
You haven't reached the end in fact
You've just reached the beginning

Remember me when I was happy okay

She rises with wet hair as she turns around. The night sky full of bright stars is nothing compared to her beauty. The light in her eyes is all he notices, he can't look away. He needs her, and he needs her soon. She doesn't even try to wipe away the water dripping from her face. He slowly strides through the water right over to her. He places his hand on his lower back and he leans in. He whispers "I love you." As soon as she says it back the memory fades.
He opens his eyes and realizes he's back in his nursing home, without her.

Something you can never get back.

There is nobody for me
At least not for now
I'm honestly not ready
to Love someone again
After so much has happened
I want to be alone

I've learned to loose
I've learned pain
But I've also learned that I still have some
I still have some who love me
I still have a few who've stayed

If you ever should have to choose
choose what makes you happy

If ever you should have to leave
Leave with a purpose

If ever you should have to try
Do your best

If ever you should cry
Don't let anybody hear

If ever you're sad
Pray

The weather outside is scorching hot
So the water feels amazing
The grass has gotten greener
The wind blows cool air
The summer's heat is still way to hot though

Me: Why can't I give up and just let go?
God: I have a plan for you here.
Me: I just don't understand.
God: You will see in time what I have in store for you.
Me: when?
God: When the time is right

I'm so tired of this world
I'm so tired of trying
Why can't I give up

If it's meant to be
Maybe it will be
it's not
I'm glad it's not
You have to accept that

I've reached the end
I'm done

As we look up from the ground we lay
We see the sight of a bright gray
The clouds above us
They look so sad
They look like they
Have just gone mad

I don't know what I want
I don't know exactly how I feel
I don't know what to do

All I know is I want you to be happy
I don't want to hurt you

I'm scared

Sometimes it's easier to cry
Then to tell you how I feel

Sometimes it's easier to lie
than to tell the truth

sometimes it's hard to smile
When all I want to do is sob

I realize that "sometimes"
is all the time

Take me there
to my home
Down that old gravel road
Where the trees line the path
And the cows mow the grass
oh bring me back
to the place I use to live
To the home that made me, me
Take me down the gravel roads
And let me feel the breeze
let me hear the buzzing of the bees
let me go back home
please, please, please

I keep trying to express how I feel
But I fear I am doing a terrible job at it

I couldn't do it even if I wanted to
But if I could
If I had the nerve to
I would

I want to be far from here
I don't care where I go
As long as I am away from my problems
Yet I cannot leave without creating more issues
I am full of problems

I hate the way I am
I hate how I love to quickly
And leave so easy
I hate that I complain
I hate that I'm not enough for myself
I hate me, I hate me, I hate me
I hate me so so so much
Why do I have to be like this
I'm stuck

I'm terrified that one day I'll make a stupid choice
A choice that will change everything
I'm scared to the point I'm shaking
I feel trapped
I feel empty
I feel so much that I need to let go
Please help me
I'm begging you

Is there somebody out there who cares?
I feel so alone and I'm scared.
Please somebody help me.
I don't know what to do
I feel trapped.

People need to start using this word more lol

I'm scared of loving  
because of you

I'm not sure what I want
In someways I know for sure
In others I'm afraid
I know I have a choice
I just don't wanna make the wrong one
I feel so many things
But I don't know anymore
I'm just confused

I saw the sun rising
I also saw the sun set

Like every good day
It has to end

life is always gonna knock you down
You've got to stand tall
You've got to stand your ground
cause if you don't
who knows where you'll be