i have lost the beauty of life
everything is in black and white
every sound is nothing but static
war, violence, and all other impurities
they take what is beautiful, and tear it apart
what has happened to this world?
what has happened manners?
what has happened to all the smiles?
this world has become so ugly
i have yet to see the beauty in what we are becoming
a world where no one says hello to a complete stranger
just to be kind, please and thank your are words of the past
this ugly place is not one i want to call my home
i shall not see true beauty until i have found a place
a place where war, and violence are not tolerated
i refuse to take part in a world where **** is tolerated
a place where a woman must scream FIRE because she knows
if she yells for help no one will come to her rescue
a place where children are bought and sold as if mere toys
a place where one believes they have no chance
to make a future for themselves
until i find a place where courtesy is not uncommon
i shall see nothing but black and white

eyes closed, mind open, dreaming of a place
a place where no judgement is cast upon one another
somewhere where there are no problems
no one is ever let down, and there are no imperfections
a place where everyone is high on life, and nothing else
a place where a favor is paid with a smile
a place where everyone is greeted with warm words
somewhere where everyone is beautiful
because they are who they are
no one is ever anything less than what they dream to be
a place where all your dreams become a reality
a place where all you need is a little faith, and determination
a place where love thrives, and there is no such thing as hatred
somewhere where there is no war, just peace
eyes open, mind open, and i'm still dreaming

jealousy is a poison, it is a killer
it fills people, it fills them with hatred
it attaches itself, and never lets go
it crawls into your heart and soul
and tears you apart inside and out
it makes you hurt yourself, and those around you
jealousy is something we all experience
it is something that we have to fight
it is something that hates to loose
it turns even the best people into monsters
it drives you to do the impossible
drives you to do things
you wouldn't normally do
it drives you crazy
jealousy is something we all try not to feel
it is something that no matter how much
we try to contain it, at one point or another
it is going to shine through, and take over
take over our mind and soul
turing us into rage driven sociopaths
jealousy is there, inside us all
just waiting for the perfect moment
waiting for the person, item, or object
that it will latch itself onto turning us
turning us into something we are not
turning us into greed

I sit here looking at the clock
reading every minute
the count down has begun

Only a few more days
a few more days
before I step out of my comfort zone
into a place where I do not belong

I try to think of ways to stay here,
to stay where I feel safe
I try to convince myself that it will be okay

That little voice in the back of my mind laughs
it tells me it will not be okay
my mind debates as i try to trick myself into believing
all I want to do is believe

Believe that everything will be okay