Have  you  unknownly unzipped
a  dress that was not intended for your body?
I am  in your torturous embrace
embroidered with unkind words
delicate  lace made of  wild suggestions
I  wish   the  ***  wasent made up
with lies and fantasies
I could never fulfill
a time consuming  mainstream
woven  into your  manly mind
Turning  my  bone into plastic

I'm a little bit terrified that I'm
A real life
Manic pixie dream girl.

What if I only exist
To help others
Find their place in this world?

What if I'm doomed
To float in and out
Of depressive episodes?

Never having actually
Done much of anything.
A depthless side character

In my own life.

Do you ever feel like
You suddenly don't belong anymore?
Like you used to matter in someone's life,
But now you just exist there?

And I'm here
Sitting alone in this dark park
And the only thing on my mind
Is how sad I am,
So sad I can't even cry.
So sad I've become numb
So sad, I don't even know what's going on
And I'm sad, once again,
I'm depressed.

My mind is an ocean
And I'm drowning

I smoke too much
But that's because I want to get rid of
The taste that you left in my mouth

When I was with you
None of the heartbroken love songs made sense
Now that we went our separate ways
That changed as well

Cigarettes help me forget
The taste of your lips on mine

Another day
Another cigarette
Another lump in my throat

I'm not the same as I was before
But I know what I was like with you

I was happy, scared, sad
Confused, cheerful, mad

Now, I don’t feel anything