I'm often sad
It's really bad
It's like my brain attacks me
Whenever I feel content
It's like my soul just smacks me
Leading me to contempt
Curled up in the corner
Contemplating counterproductive
Concepts
crippling me to my core
What a bore
She says
Yawning in indifference
Emotionless
In violent inference

After all this *******
I turn and ask you
Why?
How?
And
What the **** do I do now?

My life is a pit
Of pity
And self loathing
So much so
I constantly fall
For wolves
In sheep's clothing
My mind is mirror
Cracked upon it's surface
Living in constant fear or
Numb
More or less
My heart is sand
Ground into dust
Feeling so bland
With no one I can trust
Or at least that's how it seems

My will is vibranium
Strong and indestructible
Absorbent
And so invulnerable
I rise
Ready
To meet my fate
As once again I gaze
Into the face
Of heartbreak

Are we dead?
Is this life?
Is it just in my head?
All this strife
All this hate
When the white house
Is the kremlin
Are any of us safe?
It is evident
That our president
Is failing
It is obvious
That he's oblivious
To how obnoxious
He really is
Can we remain
The same
Underneath
This giant name
Who plays our country
Like a game
Bringing on this heavy rain
Every day my mind is strained
Our international face so often stained

But wait you say
Let your anger stay
Let it drift away

Give him a chance

Wait no another

Wait no one more

How long do we have to wait?

How many chances does it take

Until our patience breaks....

My mind is electric
Eclectic
Thinking about nothing
Reacting
Redacting
Thoughts that are unpleasant
I am awake
But wishing to go to sleep
I am alive
And running from this herd of sheep
Do you know
Where we can go from here?
Can see
What we are to be
Locked in
And shackled by our fear?
Break away
And claim
Your everlasting gleam
Frolic fondly, fantasizing
Faintly while forgetting yourself
In a dream
I know
This one
It's pretty deep
Good night reader
Im going to sleep...

So let your mind dance
Entranced
Enhance your perception
Advance your selection
And
Grasp what you want
Rise
Enticed
And try to be whole
Wander
While wondering
Fondly
Take control
And hold on to life
Because life
Is a wonderous thing
Now think
What does that mean?
That question seems to be
Right now the biggest ******* thing
You know what it means to me
**** it you all mean something to me
Why must we fight
About whats right
And who has the right to live
We know this ****
Move on you *****
We've all mattered all along
The world is always changing
And we must follow suit
Always and ever evolving
Learn from what we've been through
Take a hold of destiny
And write our stories anew
These thoughts of mine
Are strange indeed
I've forgotten where we're going
Oh well
**** it
I'm out.
The rest is not worth knowing

I'm sorry I'm not better....

Forgive me, I'm trying so hard....

My life is rebuilding....

Ever so slowly...

I will never hate you...

No matter the torture...

I wish I had been better...

I am a loser...

Clawing my way up...

Please stop the hate...

Please stop the punishment...

******* it, I'm sorry...!

Please forgive me...

I'm trying...

So ******* hard...

To hate you...

But I can't....

In the dark
I lie awake
Wondering
I see her face
And start pondering
With her
I feel my eyes stop wandering
Sweetly singing
Serendipitous songs
Swaying silkily
Into sleep
Insomnia
It keeps me up
And thinking
The time I'm wasting
My mind is racing
And I can't make it stop

But maybe I don't want to
The wind is whispering
Waiting willfully
Watching, wavering
Wistfully woeful
Yet wonderful

Time is not guaranteed
Life is full of danger
And what ever doesn't **** you
Makes us a little stranger

Its not so bad though....