I can't tell you
How many times
My mind
Finds
The end
Looks mighty friendly

The world is painful
Its cruel
Am I strong enough?
What does this feeling fuel?

My mind watches
As a bullet rips through my brain
And blood stains my walls
And I'm left as a shell

But then.....

I picture
My sister
Finding me

My niece crying

My ex dropping to her knees
From the phone call

The paramedics covering my face

And my daughter's smile....

And I cry.

I cry because the end of your life
Brings pain to everyone you've loved
And every life you've touched

I would rather bear my pain
And carry on

Then hurt the ones I love

And so I kept on living.....

I am sullied
I am broken
Though they are whispered
I hear the words you've spoken
So open
Your heart
Unshackle
Your mind
Bring forward
Your art
And relish
These times
I find
With rhyme
I fly
Inside
But I hide
Unbearably shy
I see you
And wonder......

I've seen it all
Nations rise
While empires fall
And I realize
We're nothing
If not small
My soul
Has watched
And waited
Wearily
Wrestling
A restless mind
I find
There will always be time

And my soul endures

The passage of decades
Which become centuries
And centuries
Become millennia

And still my soul endures

I have popped up in history
Too many times
For me to mention

The common
Correlation
Correcting
This cosmic
Chaos
Cautiously
Catering
To a cannibalistic
Consciousness
Corrals me in contempt

But I'm content

I know and remember my lives
All of them
I see their memories
And I see their deaths
I see their enemies
Whenever I take a breath

I see monsters
And ravens
In my dreams

I feel those personalities
Pushing at my seams

A claim like this
I know
It's bold
And I will always endure

As the Millennium soul...

I see beauty in her face
Eyes glistening
Full of grace
Shyness apparent
In time and space
This life or a variant
There's no time to waste
Everything is in flux
Rocking my core
I want a taste
Of what
I'm not sure
My hearts are beating
Pulsing
Pure
In your eyes
I watch as a star is born
The magnitude
Of your gaze
So much larger
Than my box
We close the door
Wave good bye to the past
But this is no end
My friend
Let the adventure begin.

Zoom
Clank
That sound you hear
When trying to cause fear
And doubt
Within me
You threaten
And tease
Torturous
And ******
Tremendously tactless
Terror
Zoom
Clank
It goes again
What is that sound
You're hearing
You're fearing
It's an omen of what's to come
I have always been patient
Can you say the same?
Your patience is similar
To how you love.
It's fast, and burns bright
A shooting star
It felt so right
But I realize
You've done this all before
The only difference is
This time you have the ultimate weapon
You have my daughter
You will not be forgiven
You will not be apologized too
You are the embodiment of poison
But beware
My power has risen
My future is clear
Vast are my choices
I am no longer scared
Zoom
That's a bullet
fired by you
Clank
That's the bullet
Striking true
You fire your guns
But I'm bulletproof

I'm writing a letter
And you know why
Dreadful demeanor
In a dastardly disguise
My pain an endeavor
Of your corrupt design
Take hold of my collar
Tear me from the rind
You are beautiful
And tragic
And I still wish
You hadn't left me behind

You knowingly hurt me
That's okay
I understand
I'm hard to live with
Sometimes


But you use her as a weapon
In a one sided war
I have no desire to fight you
A pathetic notion
I'm sure
Because underneath the anger
I just want what we had before

You put in effort
Over the years
To paint an unfair picture
To tweak everyone's ears

I really don't comprehend
Why it's so important
To tell the world I'm terrible
When I want them to know
You're Wonderful

I'm sure you think I hate you
I'm sure you'll never read this
Here's hoping that you do

I forgive you
For everything you've done
Everything you've said
And I apologize
For all the same

Please stop the slander
Please stop the hate
You say i'm a villain
While I think you're great

I feel like I'm trapped
Lost in a prison
With nothing

Nothing

But a vision.