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clair de lune 6.9.25 (7:13 pm / 19:13)
i never knew how lonely it could be
to sleep alone
i never knew how scared i would be
it’s pathetic, i know

but i’ve known you all your life
and you almost all of mine
i never knew how afraid i’d be without you

last night i held the moonlight in my hands
letting it drip through my fingers
and watching your empty bed

last night i read a ****** mystery
and then stayed up
you were not there, you were not sleeping with me
like my guardian angel

i never knew how much i could want you back
my moonlight

playing: r.e.m. by ariana grande
hehe idk im sad i know
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sadness 6.9.25 (7:04 pm / 19:04)
sitting   h e r e
in the dark
i can feel her presence
sadness is a strange all consuming friend.
she takes all of your time
she feeds off of your happiness

i know how this goes, this is how it is with me and friends
but
this is something else

she sits by your side while you cry in the unlit room
she brushes out your hair and whispers nonsense in your ears
until you stop breathing hard
and your heart stops beating fast

until you stop breathing
and your heart stops beating

sadness will not stop you when you drag razors across your arms
sadness will not care when you hold her, she will not hug you back
but at least she won’t be afraid
at least she’ll never leave

she holds out your hand
for you to take
and she crushes your fingers
pushing you back down to the ground

sadness is a fickle friend
but she’ll always make sure you’re never alone

playing: yours by conan gray
tw: self harm, depression
it has been days since I last talked to you
it's been very freeing
not having to worry about saying
the wrong thing
and being too much
or not enough
I could never be just right for you
there was always something wrong
with me or what I did or said
it's so freeing not talking to you
being ignored or forgotten
I am free now that I'm no
longer trapped in the shackles
disguised as love and kindness
that you gave me
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bleedingink
I will lose myself
if it means you can have it all.

I will give everything
if it means you will smile again.

I will, I will, I will.
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Nobody
<3
so many words in the english language
but i can't even get close to finding the right ones
to describe how i feel about you
I want to be the dandelion
growing in between the cracks
in the sidewalk
living in spite
of everything trying to
**** it
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Lyle
no matter how many times we say it
or how much we mean it
those people will never understand
that being a sad person
doesn't make you a bad person
that there doesn't need to be
trauma
there doesn't need to be
a reason
sadness is a feeling
it's not just a reaction
can't they see?
can't they see that only a person with so much hurt
and so much pain
can drag scissors across their arm?
can press that
blade
down on their SKIN
until it rips and blood beads
and mingles with tears of desperation
how can they not see that
there doesn't need to be a cause for the crippling
depression?
I can
because I feel it too.
sometimes you just need to be sad
so the happy days feel all the more brighter
everybody feels different
what might be a small ordeal to someone
might be the world ending to another
you
aren't
a
bad
person.
you
are
just
a
sad
person.
so please please please
throw away those awful blue things
you know what I mean
you don't need that reminder
please please please
put the sharp things away
not for me, for you
wear your scars
they are
tally
marks
of
the days you have overcome
you don't have to be ashamed
if people want to be ashamed for you
that's
their
problem
they are yours
they are all the reminders you need
of how
beautiful
and strong
and resilient
you are
because you keep fighting every
single
day
and that's more than I can say for most.
I will never stop caring.
I will never stop being here.
so please
let
your
world
BEGIN
everyday.
The days will hurt
Nights will sting
but you must never forget
how happiness sings.
Please.

I hope you know this is for you. Stay strong. You've got this. I'm always here for you.
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