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Krusty Aranda Dec 2013
For months I thought it was your love I needed to keep me alive.
Recently I found out I was wrong.
It is your hate which gives me life.

Every piercing word you've said.
Every attack towards me,
it gives me strength.
It gives me joy.
It gives me everything I lacked.
FUN!

I feed on your hate towards me,
so please, baby, hate me.
Hate me!

Sharpen your words so they pierce even further.
Make your thoughts sting me, and leave me bleeding.
I know you like it, and so do I.

Hate.
Hate.

Hate me!!

Forget about the love!
Such a weak feeling, waiting for the wind to shatter it.
Instead lets hate each other.
**** me so I can be alive.

Hate me, baby. Hate me!
Feed me with your hate.
After all, you don't seem to love me anymore,
so enter my sick game.
;)
Krusty Aranda Aug 2016
She the reason
He the emotion
Careless season
Without notion

One collected
Two a mess
Three neglected
Four to bless

Rhyme and metaphor
Bars and clicks
It's been said before
Not quite like this

Careful thinking
Thoughts of mayhem
Peaceful inking
Notes obey them

Song and lyric
Together are strong
Speechless critic
Lyric and song
Krusty Aranda Sep 2015
The stars are raining;
pouring over you and me.
Grab one. Make a wish.
Krusty Aranda Oct 2016
Maybe I'm afraid to tell you
Maybe it's because I'm in love with **you
Krusty Aranda Oct 2015
My words to you
were dead
before I spoke them.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2014
I wonder if
she was ever
meant to be
mine.
Krusty Aranda May 2021
We start alone, just the two of us.

Awkward glances shyly meet, as we hide our nervous smiles away. The space between us seems eternal. I get close, and slowly look for your hand. We finally meet in common ground. A gaze into your eyes tells you everything you need to know.
Now close your eyes.
Our lips meet and our heartbeats sync in a mix of excitement, adrenaline, and anticipation.
Open your eyes and fall into my arms, wrap them around you, and feel the warmth of my body that aches to know yours.
As we share a tender embrace, my hands start to travel down your slim figure, drawing a detailed map that'll be useful in a not so distant future.
Our breaths get heavy. Intermitent gasps and moans **** the silence in the room. You press your body against mine to feel my excitement.
You take my hand and guide it to your neck, wrap my fingers around it, and take in a deep breath. My other hand is underneath your clothes, and you get lost in the ****** of your body.
You turn to me and take my clothes off.
I rapidly do the same to you.
Our lips only separate to give way to our shirts as they fly accross the room.
Your skin on my skin feels as though velvet has graced me with its touch.
You lay me down and claim control. Our bodies dance together to the harmonies of our muffled moans and hurried kisses. My hands firmly grasping your thighs, wishing you never have to go away.
Your hipnotizing little ******* bounce to the beat of my thrusts.
Our rhythm gets faster, but our song only gets more sonically pleasing. You choke a scream as we reach the end of our perfect symphony, and dig your fingernails into my bare chest.
My fingers have traced distinct pathways along your back.

We lay undressed in bed, covered by the wicked complicity of the magic we've created.
Hands all over, we feel the dread of a goodbye lurking by the door.
Let me enjoy a little longer.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2017
No me gusta tu sonrisa
ni tus ojos
ni tu pelo
No me gusta tu mirada
ni tu tacto
ni tu cuerpo
No me gustan tus palabras
ni tu risa
ni tu llanto
No me gustan los clichés
que ya tanto
se han contado

Me gusta ver el sueño
que aún pasea por tus ojos
Me gusta la explosión
de carcajadas en tu rostro
Me gusta la pasión
con la que escuchas tus canciones
Me gustan tus eructos
resonando en los salones

Me gusta la poesía
que redactas tan vilmente
Me gusta la tormenta
que desatas en tu mente
Me gusta tu perfume
de cervezas y tabaco
Me gusta el sentimiento
que te invade a cada rato

Me gusta cuando bailas
con la música en el alma
Me gusta cuando conduces
y pierdes la calma
Me gusta cuando te aíslas
y eres tú tu propio mundo
Me gusta cuando hablas
cuando yo me quedo mudo

Me gustas tú, serena
Me gustas tú, exaltada
Me gustas tú en mis brazos
y si no te gusto nada
Me gustas tú en poemas
Me gustas tú en mis rimas
Me gustas tú, imperfecta
Me gustas tú, prístina
Krusty Aranda Mar 2013
Love is an equation, pure math,
but, unlike math, it makes no sense.
1 plus 1 makes 1?
It can also make 3.

One thing's for sure.
You minus me makes 0.
Take you away from me, and I am no more.
****! Gone.
Only to be a memory of a once perfect equation.

Add 1 to you, and it makes 1 again.
Multiply 1 by me, and I'm still 0.
When there's no 1 to add, multiplying only makes things worse.

Can I have my 1 back?
Math. Poetry. Love. Heartache.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
Wake up at 7 a.m.
Get in the shower.
Go down 2 flights of stairs, and into the kitchen.
Drink a glass of water.
Open the fridge, and grab a yoghurt.
Off to the dining room,
grab the remote,
turn on the tv.
Same old channel,
same old show.
Have breakfast.
Up the stairs again.
Brush teeth, and grab backpack.
Off to school.
6 hours before I get back.
Eat.
Watch tv.
Grab computer.
Browse same websites as the day before.
Dinner time.
Same old dinner show on tv.
Go back up.
Watch more tv.
Go to bed.
**Repeat.
I know this is long, and boring, and that's precisely why it reflects the monotony of life so well. Wish I could add some more excitement to my life. I need it.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2013
Three months have passed.
I can't say I'm still where I was back then,
but I can't say I've moved much further either.
You, on the other hand, are miles away from "us".

You've moved on, and so have I.
Then why do I still miss you when I go to bed at night?
Why do I think of you when I just wake up?
Why do I get butterflies in my stomach when we talk?
Well, not really butterflies.
Maybe moths or larvae since the feeling is no longer pleasant.

You have him. I have no one.
I have nothing but my pillow, my pen and my words.
They tangle up in psychodelic dreams and wicked poems.
None of them making sense, much like me in this world.

Illusion is broken. Hope far, far gone.
Our promises gone with the wind.
I drown in a mask I built for myself to hide from my demons.
If they don't finish me, this mask sure will.
There's no win.

So who wins in a breakup?
The one who moves on faster, or the one who does better?
Maybe the one who does both, and, dear, that's not me
because I've moved on, but *I can't forget how to love you
.
Moving on...
Krusty Aranda Apr 2014
Mujer Misteriosa

Cabello castaño cae por su rostro.
El rosa de sus mejillas resplandece en su blanca piel de porcelana.
Un lunar sobre su labio me roba el aliento.

Levanta la mirada, mujer misteriosa.
Déjame ver de que color son tus ojos.
Desvela el sentimiento de tu mirada.
Levanta la mirada, mujer misteriosa.

¡Los veo! ¡Los veo!
Sus ojos marrones, de mirada penetrante y ladrones de mi corazón.


Mysterious Woman**

Her brown hair falling over her face.
The pink on her cheeks shining on her porcelain, white skin.
A beauty spot over her lips takes my breath away.

Raise your eyes, mysterious woman.
Let me see the color of your eyes.
Reveal to me the emotion in your gaze.
Raise your eyes, mysterious woman.

I see them! I see them!
Her penetrating brown eyes, robbers of my heart.
First attempt at writing the same piece in both spanish and english.
Krusty Aranda Dec 2014
She is my beginning.

Since the day I met her, I haven't been able to take her out of my mind.
For better or worse, she made me a different man.
Everything I ever do, I do it to be a better man. To better suit her life. To better suit her soul.

But since the day I met her, we've hardly seen each other.
She lives in Vegas.
I live in Madrid.
She lives in my heart.
I live in her memory.

I'm desperate to be with her again, and it is taking its toll on me.
I'm going crazy.
I'm scared for her.

I'm scared for myself.

She is my end.
Krusty Aranda Jan 2015
I'm usually not afraid of many things,
but there is one thing I am utterly afraid of.

One might think I'm afraid of the dark,
or maybe I'm afraid of heights.
Some would guess I'm afraid of spiders.
All of these guesses, while possible, would be wrong.

What I'm most afraid of is death, but not death itself.
I'm afraid of dying, and not being able to let her know.

I'm afraid of how she will find out I'm gone.

Will she read a post on facebook?
Will she see it on the news?
Will a friend just tell her?

Will she even find out at all?

Will she text me a million times,
and get mad at me for not answering back?
Will she think I'm mad at her?

Will she cry for me?

Will she be at my funeral?

Will she miss me?


That's the thought that cripples me at night.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2013
I go to bed thinking about you.
Thinking about what you said,
what you did,
what we were.
Why can't things be like they were a week ago?
No tears, no pain, still us.

Now I don't know where I stand.
Should I go back or should I keep walking forward?
Should I risk my heart for something uncertain?

Truth is my heart's still with you.
Question is, will you break it again?

I can't bring myself to say never more,
but I also can't find the strength to ask for one more time.

I'm confused. I'm hurt. I'm in love.
Distance was what killed us.

I don't know if I can trust this way.
Krusty Aranda Jul 2013
Again I'm feeling empty
Losing me in myself
Only to find out
Nothing can save me
E**mptiness, my fate.
Krusty Aranda May 2016
She's got me against the ropes.
I'm subdued by the spell she put on me.
I can't break free.
Hit me once. Hit me twice.
Yet I can't seem to hit the ground.
I take one blow. I take two blows.
The pain grows bigger while I get smaller.
Caving within myself I can't stop loving her abuse.
Or is it even her that's killing me at all?
Krusty Aranda Jan 2012
Tonight I shed my last tear,
for you, for me, for us.
I now know I cannot tear
this thorn on this lone rose.

The stars in the vast night sky
are staring down on me,
for they know I lost my everything.
It wasn't meant to be.

The moon has ceased to light my way.
The sun brings me no warmth.
Summer is cold, and winter is old.
Springtime feels like wrath.

Tonight I shed my last tear
for I'll be hurt no more.
I wish you to be happy.
The thorn has just been torn.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2021
You're the Robin to my Ted
You're the Rachel to my Ross
But I can't just sit here and wait for the series finale
I don't know how many seasons are yet to go
Krusty Aranda Mar 2013
Look at the guy with the big smile on.
He laugh's. He's glad. He's moving on,
but few people know what's really in his mind.
Sadness.
Longing.
Wishes that might not come true.

He's a master of disguise.
The man you see does not really exist.
He's just a puppet, made to not show what lies beneath his master's heart.
He's made to feel no emotion. He's made to simulate it,
and still his repertoire is limited.

This puppet seems so lifelike.
He breathes, he laughs, he acts like one of us.
How can he not be real?

A voice he can't use is choked in a scream.
He cries for help, but he can't be heard.
He now lies beneath his puppet, never to come out again.

No tears come out. No sobbing. No nothing.
Only a fake laugh, a fake smile.
He dies within his creation.

No! It cannot save him.
He's doomed!
He doomed himself in this fake but effective prison.
No more warmth in his heart.
Only the cold of this prison cell he crafted to save him.

How ironic to be killed by what was supposed to save you from yourself.
No one is safe from themselves.
Either we hide or we fight, but we still end up the same.
Was inspired by my last poem :p
Krusty Aranda Mar 2015
Nothing has gone wrong,
yet my mind won't let me live.
I'm living in fear.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2012
I'm lying down, staring at the sky
thinking about my future, present and past.
The days gone by, and the ones to come.
But those by your side have been the best of them all.

I try to find your face in the stars.
I try to hear your voice in the wind.
I try to feel your touch, I try to feel your warmth.
I sometimes wonder if you'll ever come back.

Because I've really been missing you.
You know that I'm needing you.
Please, come down from the sky.

Would you turn into my shooting star?
Take me with you no matter how far.
Make my wish come true. Don't ever leave me again.
Open your wings, and lets fly far away.
To Jorge Alejandro Alfaro Moore and Daniela Rivas Sanchez. R.I.P.
I love you both, and you'll always be in my heart.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2015
Again I find myself sitting in this lonely room,
listening to the empty echo of my own thoughts.

Day after day the same routine:
Get up.
Conceal yourself.
Go to bed.
Repeat.

This machine is fully functional,
yet lacks a definite purpose for existing.
It only takes up space.

This loneliness I can bear no longer.

I run to get the nearest blade.
It is rusty and old.
As broken as my own dreams.
I hold it shakingly between my fingers.
I draw a crooked line upon my wrist.
Before I know it, ink is gushing out of the wound.
It keeps on pouring until it leaves me dry.
It floods pages upon pages with words,
with phrases,
with verses.

These same pages remind me of wounds long healed.
Of the struggles I've been through to end up where I am now.

The pages tell a unique story.

My story.
Krusty Aranda Oct 2013
Cry, my baby.
Cry for help.
No one will hear you scream.

Say it louder.
Scream my name.
Worship only me.

When everything's lost, and god didn't show up,
tell me, what's left of us?
The simple matter without a substance.
Body without soul.

They repeat to themselves "mind over body",
but there's no mind to control actions.
Only fools without a cause.
A chant without a voice.

Keep on screaming, dearest hostage.
There's no use at all.
Destiny has been set this way.
Your fate is to die alone.

Rain will shower the daisies around your grave,
and wash the maggots away.
The sun will breathe life to newly born robins,
and burn the remainders of you whole.

So cry on, sweetest pleasure.
The tables turn no more.
There's no salvation beyond this point.
It's the end of it all.
Still random...
Krusty Aranda Oct 2014
I see her
lying on my bed
tempting.
So desireable.

My heart races
as the woman I love
takes her top off,
seducing me with a single look.
Kissing my neck,
she's gasping for air,
and whispers into my ear,
"Take it all off".

Her eyes inspecting
my naked body.
Her fingers
trace my every imperfection.
My fingers stroking her
perfectly smooth skin.

She pushes me down on the bed,
and soon follows me to it.
Skin on skin.

One deep breath,
hold it in,
and let it out, moaning.

One same heartbeat.
A chorus of synchronized
voices,
rhythmically singing in
the language of love.

Her body slightly twitches
****** after ******.
Her eyes look at me
with a burning passion
that her lips seal
on my chest.

Two souls, naked,
stripped of any earthly chains,
only to become
one again.
Based on a dream and a loved one.
Krusty Aranda Nov 2016
Tu cuerpo dibuja las olas en la arena
Tus caderas van y vienen con un ritmo interrumpido por la espuma del mar
Tus labios tan salados como el agua en la que nado
Tu canto irreal como las sirenas de leyenda
Tus manos me aprehenden como el pulpo a su presa
Tus piernas me envuelven como el alga al coral

Navego lentamente hacia mar abierto
Atrás quedó la seguridad de la bahía
Yo capitán y tú tormenta
Azotas mi navío con violencia
Me lanzas a las frías e imperdonables aguas de tu océano
Atrás quedó la seguridad de la bahía
El agua de tu **** inunda mis sentidos y ahoga mi conciencia
Naufrago

Al despuntar el alba estás tú
Etérea en mi soledad
Efímera en esencia
Eterna en alta mar
Krusty Aranda Mar 2015
Love me. Love me!
Why won't you love me?
I bought you flowers.
I gave you that what you asked for, and more.
I gave you my life. Put it in your hands.
Why would you shatter it?

Fine!
I don't need you.
Someone else will love me.


Will you love me? Please, love me.
Why won't anyone love me?
What is wrong with me?
Is it the way I dress? My ugly smile?
My tearful eyes? My loneliness?

Please, love me.
I need your love.
I need love.
I need...

*I need.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2021
I am so trapped
I don't even know
what my prison is
Krusty Aranda Apr 2018
I can't find my motivation again...

I feel the pull of my bed drag me towards it like I'm a discarded piece of metal subjected to the power of an industrial magnet, waiting to be put on the compactor and meet my clautrophobic end

I can't remember where I left my smile last night
I put it on my night stand, I'm sure... or did I?
Drunkeness forbids me from forming a coherent thought about the laughter I vaguely remember, or if it ever existed

I spit out the blood in my mouth from the grinding of my teeth like a rusty, old hinge that can hardly move to open the cage in which I imprisoned my own happiness

My arms can't seem to hold on tight enough to life, at least not today
I can feel the dread in my thoughts constantly taunt me, poking at every one of my imperfections, shouting at my low self esteem, and my guilt choking me to the point of unconsciousness, because I oppose not

The words I vomited along with all the beer, still stain my clothes and my skin, reminding me of the hangover to come
I will hate myself for having done so, and I will promise myself to never drink or love again

But that's a promise I never keep
Krusty Aranda Sep 2015
First tone...


Second tone...


"Hello!"
She picked up.
I had been trying to talk to her all day long, and had actually been waiting to hear her voice all week.

We haven't really met yet, but we've been hitting it off lately. So much so that I can hardly think of someone else. I even see her wherever I go, despite her living in another state.

I really love her voice. It sounds so warm and sweet. The inflections she makes get my heart pumping faster, and my knees go weak. And then she starts talking in this silly yet adorable way that just makes me melt.
I'm also happy to say I was able to make her laugh. We both laughed and laughed throughout the whole call. There was not a single dull moment or awkward silence. I had to keep her laughing because that laughter kept the smile on my face alive.

"Do you realize we've been on the phone for over an hour now?"
She said to me as I realized how long it had been, even though it had felt like much less.
"I wish I could stay longer, but I really have to go. I don't want to, though."

Our goodbye took another half hour. Neither of us wanted to leave.
We were having so much fun.
We were so comfortable with each other.
We were falling for each other.

But the call had to end. I said my goodbye for the night. I was also brave enough to say an "I love you".
She said she did too.


Call ended.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2016
Oh, how I worship the dark skies full of stars
Celestial beings that look down on us
They shine the brightest light for us to traverse through the paths we can see no more
They are our helping hand when all else is gone
And the moon, our lonely satellite
It follows our every step
Making sure we don't fall into complete darkness
The night is the time when I feel most alive
In it I cry
In it I laugh
In it I feel
In it I die and am born again
Night after night I am
I can't stop staring into the night
She is my comfort
She is my peace
She is my happiness and my tears
She is as much of me as I am of her
And when she's gone I miss her
I can't be in the light of day
It burns me so, and I crave the night
The night is my friend
The night is my love
The night is my all
Krusty Aranda Sep 2016
De nuevo acepté que no va a ser mi nada nunca,
y sí, es triste,
pero no hay nada que yo pueda hacer.

No deja de ser mi amor inalcanzable,
pero sólo deseo que sea feliz,
que esté bien
y yo estaré ahí siempre que necesite a alguien,
incluso si no me busca.

No siempre se puede tener lo que uno quiere,
y lo sé.

Me siento bien con saber que la puedo hacer reír
y que podemos hablar de tonterías y temas profundos,
saber que puede ser ella misma cuando está conmigo
y yo ser yo mismo cuando estoy con ella.
No tengo que aparentar
ni dejar de hacer
ni empezar a hacer.
Me siento bien siendo yo con ella, me quiera o no.

Es lo que le puedo ofrecer.

Sé que he hecho cosas fuera de lugar con ella,
y que quizá lastimaron su perspectiva de mi y su decisión.
Y ella igual ha hecho cosas que me han lastimado mucho,
pero no le reprocho nada.

Sé que ella no es como cualquier mujer que haya conocido,
es diferente,
y, aunque ella no lo logre entender,
es un ángel más allá de lo que deja ver.
Y a los ángeles los adoramos desde la distancia,
nos son inalcanzables,
tanto como ella lo es para mi.

Y la seguiré soñando cada noche,
y la seguiré mirando cuando ella no ve,
y la seguiré pensando,
y la seguiré escribiendo,
pero no es para mi.
Krusty Aranda Jun 2013
Most people are afraid of dying.
I must say I am not.
Death doesn't scare me. It's only natural.
Nothing lives forever.

There is one thing I'm afraid of, though.
I'm afraid of not achieving anything before I die.
Afraid of not being able to say goodbye.
Afraid of not having a chance to take care of the ones I love.

We take our lives for granted,
and don't even wave at days passing us by.
I'm not afraid of dying. It's only natural.
When I go, don't cry for me.
Please, just celebrate my life.
Just thought that I can't be sure I'll live to see a new dawn. I love you all :)
Krusty Aranda Mar 2012
This day I have to confess
that I once loved you so much.
I once cared for you,
but that is no more.

I used to have illusions.
I used to have a goal,
but you so cowardly destroyed them.
Now they are no more.

The years we spent together.
The loving that we shared.
What ever happened to it?
Why did it have to change?

You used to be supportive.
You used to be so proud.
Now you judge the steps I take,
the things I say out loud.

The only thing I ask of you
is to come back the way you were,
for I want this pain I feel,
I want it to be no more.
Krusty Aranda Sep 2012
Life was never easy for me.
Away from mommy and daddy I grew almost alone,
but then you came to live with us, and everything got worse.

You said mean things to us, specially to me.
You nagged about it all, night and day.
                                                            ­                Did we ever do anything right?
You told me I was worthless,
never loved,
just a burden to all of you.

You laughed about these scars.
                                                          ­             Did I ever tell you it was you who caused them? Wait... I did!
You called me crazy, a ******... mentally deranged.
                                                       ­        Do you understand what depression is? I do now.

During these years my hatred towards you grew and grew.
It got so big I couldn't take it anymore.
I plotted your death many times in my head.
                                             Should I push you down the hill, or should I give you a lethal dose of drugs?
We would all be happy then.

But now you are gone... dead.
No! It wasn't me who killed you. It was nature... a natural death.
I suddenly feel like ****.
         Killing you in my head. Wishing your death just to find myself missing you when you were gone.
I can't bear to think that you died thinking (knowing) I hated you.
I don't hate you anymore.

I guess I grew up. I guess my feelings were wrong.
                                            I miss you.
I wish I could have a few last words with you, but it's too late.
                                             I ****** up.

Now all I can do is be strong (for you).
I know you're in a better place, and I shall be happy for you.
I guess, after all, there's no place for hate in this heart.
Not about me but about a really close friend. May her soul rest in peace.
Krusty Aranda Dec 2012
Blood on my hands.
A scream choked in my throat.
The moon in the sky gives me comfort no more.
My bed empty again. One more night alone.

You didn't say goodbye. They wouldn't give you the chance to.
They just took you away, so far away.
There was nothing I could do.
I screamed your name.
I cursed their guts.
I cried myself to sleep so many nights.
Still, you were gone.

Now I know crying won't change anything.
It's time to make my move.
Stand up to the monster that dared do this to us.

"Why can't they understand?
Is it so hard to believe?"


I will look for you.
I will fight for you.
I will bring you back home where you belong,
to be together one more time... 'till the end of time.

I won't surrender this fight, even if I have to give my life.
It's not a life without you anyway.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2013
I
Last night I dreamt of you.
When I woke up, I saw you had made your way into my phone.
Problem is I didn't want to know about you anymore.

II
You said you wanted to get back.
I'm too proud to say yes.
I'm too lonely to say no.

III
Why is it that when I want to hate you
I can only miss you?

IV
I dreamt of you again.
Why can't you stay out of my head?

V
I don't ever want you back...
Right?

VI
I now understand you were never really mine.

VII
A blind, lonely fool can only trip on the same rock infinite times.

VIII*
I always knew you were *too good to be true
.
Krusty Aranda Jan 2015
They can **** our voice,
but they'll never muffle our screams.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2015
She is lost inside herself.
Her screams silenced by fear.
Trapped within her head.
Alone with her own thoughts.
Sweating blood out of her pores,
and crying painful, darkened tears.
Drawing scars on her own skin
just so she can feel.
She sits alone on a corner
inside her self made cell
tapping faintly on the cold floor
in arrhythmic despair.
She can't even hear her voice
calling out to the outer world,
but she isn't anymore
in the realm of the living.
She is frightened to know.
She hides in herself again
forever to be lost
in her own, made up cage.
Krusty Aranda Nov 2014
I still love you.
I haven't been able to forget you.
Not in 4 years.
Not after my motherhood.
I'm still madly in love with you.

I know I ****** up.
I know it's all my fault.
I know you've moved on, but I still love you.

Do you really feel nothing for me anymore?
Not even after all we've been through?
You were my first love, and my only love.
Why don't you love me?

I know I had a kid with someone else.
I know I lost your trust.
I know I never heard the advice you gave.
Why don't you love me?

Would you have liked to form a family with me?
I would've liked to have your child.
I always imagined my future by your side.
Is it true you'll never love me again?

Please love me.
I still love you.
Why don't you love me?
Why don't you love me?
My ex, ladies and gentlemen.
Off
Krusty Aranda Mar 2015
Off
I would be so much happier
if I could turn my mind off.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2016
She was an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She was sent for me to open my eyes, to help me see how the world does not revolve around me.
She was crying for help, and I lent her a helping hand, even if I wasn't sure how to help.
He was going to beat her up.
I just knew that wasn't right.
"I just want to die."* she said as she burst into tears.
I choked. I couldn't think of anything to say.
How do you reply to that?
With my hand on her shoulder I told her she didn't want to die, trying to imply that there is much that's worth staying alive for.
She made me realize there is much that's worth staying alive for.
I wish I could've done more for her.
I wish I could've stayed. Maybe buy her a cup of coffee, and keep talking.
I want to know what was on her mind, what was going on in her life, why she wanted to die.
I wanted to be sure she would be fine.
She said I didn't know how much I had helped her that day, turned around and left.
*I still wonder if she's ok.
Krusty Aranda Feb 2014
February 14,
6:45 p.m.
I walk through the town plaza,
and love is in the air.
Red, heart shaped balloons.
Rose petals everywhere.
Couples sipping coffee,
sharing a sweet embrace.
But hidden between the couples
sits a girl alone.
Her eyes immersed in a poetry book.
Her lipstick imprinted on a cup.
She looked up and saw me.
I smiled and I waved.
She seemed to be shy;
the book hid her face.
I walked to her table,
and said "Hi! May I sit?".
She said yes with her head
for her lips remained sealed.
I asked for her name.
A shy voice replied "Sara.".
"I believe you're a thief.
You're a thief, my dear Sara."
.
Her expression just changed.
Her green eyes now wide open.
"What are you talking about?
I didn't steal nothing."
.
"Oh, you did, sweetest Sara,
but maybe you just don't know.
You stole my heart, dear Sara.
To you it now does belong."
.
She blushed, and sipped her coffee.
She showed me a little smile.
Looked up at me with her green eyes
as I reached out for her hand.
And so this ends the story
about two people finding love,
about two halves finding each other
to never again walk alone.
Krusty Aranda Mar 2014
It was late, around 8, when I picked you up from the other side of town.
We had a surprise, last minute guest, or at least it was a surprise to me. Still I did not care. You were still with me, and that was all that mattered.
You had been in a perfume exhibition. The plethora of aromas impregnating my car.

We drove back to my place; I opened the door for you.
You never fully liked my chivalry, but I refused to stop being so.

We both went to my room. Your sister sat down on the computer. We closed the door behind us, and we were all alone.
You asked me if I had an old shirt you could borrow. You were kind of sick from all the perfume already.
I gave you a white shirt, and turned my back to you as you took your shirt off, exposing your dellicate, soft skin, and changed into my simple, old, white shirt.
You said "Why do you turn your back? I'm not fully naked, and I don't mind you seeing me like this.".
I was too much of a gentleman to watch her before she was dressed again.

Once in my old shirt, we laid on my bed, under the covers, and just held each other tight.
I stared into your eyes, and you stared into mine. I knew what you had been saying was nothing but I lie.
"I'm sorry, but I don't like you that way.". Yet there you were, with me in my bed.

Without a word I got closer and closer. You knew my intentions, and you went with the flow.
My lips met yours. Your lips met mine. For the first time I had kissed you, and I didn't want it to end.
That kiss was so tender, so soft, so caring. Right then I knew I wasn't mistaken for falling for you.
We kissed many more times that night. Each kiss better than the last one. You even said you had never been kissed like that before. So pasionate yet so soft. So loving and so caring.

A knock on my bedroom door, and your sister reminding you it was time for you to leave.
We got out of bed, and put our shoes on. You changed back into your shirt, and gave me back my old, white shirt.
We kissed goodbye, before letting your sister see us, and I took you back home. We smiled at each other, said goodnight, and we both went home.

When I entered my room, a scent still lingered on; on my sheets, on my clothes, on my memory, on my soul, and on that one old, white shirt.
The scent lingered on for days, weeks even, before, slowly, fading away into the air, and still that shirt held it, not physically, but, in my heart, it still smells of lavender, like that day you wore it, like the day after.

To this day I keep that shirt. It may have lost its scent, we may have fallen apart, but it still reminds me of that lavender smell that takes me back to the most passionate love I ever felt.
I wish I could re-live that day.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2013
It was only a kiss, but it felt like much more.
Little spark from her lips ignite a fire in my soul.
Her hands holding my head. My heart feeling the rush.
She had had too many drinks, and I mistook it for lust.

My mind couldn't believe what my body had felt.
What she called a friend's kiss I called a lover's caress.
I lost, I won, I gave up. She wouldn't make up her mind.
Was it an alcohol fueled thing, or was it really her love?

Her voice denied what her lips were really trying to say.
"We're nothing other than friends. The kiss didn't mean a thing."
It didn't happen again, but I can't help but think
was it only a game, or did you mean it for real?.
Happened while I was out with her.
Krusty Aranda Apr 2015
She owns me. She ******* owns me.
She owns my mind. She owns my heart.
She owns my breath, my gaze, my thoughts...
I'm hers, and, yet, I am not.
She won't care for what she has.
She mistreats me.
She hurts me.
She confuses me.
Little by little, she breaks me.
Piece by piece I crumble.
Slowly I lose myself in this black hole from which I can't escape.
She won't let me go,
because she owns me.
How was I foolish enough to fall for it again?
Krusty Aranda Mar 2017
I will never follow you
I won't do the things you do
I won't think of you, I swear
I don't even think I care
So turn around, and walk your way
I'm coming home to you some day

I am never coming back
You think that I'm gonna crack
Walking out the night is cold
Find something for you to hold
Hug it tight, and kiss it well
I am falling, can't you tell?

You can't see me when I cry
I can't hear you say goodbye
Breathing out the air is thin
Maybe it's time that I come clean
I was not in love with you
You were only something new

Running slow and walking fast
We were never built to last
Thinking of the days now gone
Here I'm writing all alone
Catch you by the morning sun
Tear the blinds in this our home
Krusty Aranda Feb 2017
Te he convertido en palabras y letras
en versos y rimas
en prosas benignas
Tu nombre he cambiado y callado
lo he mutilado
lo he trastocado
Tus palabras las he replicado
he parafraseado
incluso citado
Tus ojos ya he desgastado
descrito, admirado
abierto y cerrado
Tus labios de nuevo he besado
calientes y suaves
rasposos agaves
Tu piel he convertido en mi manto
un cálido abrazo
tu cama en marzo
Tu idea en mi he explotado
perfecta e impoluta
de acción resoluta
Te he convertido en palabras y letras
en líneas y temas
en frases y poemas
Krusty Aranda Oct 2014
She came back
once again.
On her knees
she begs.
"I was a fool.
I did wrong.
Please take me back.
I love you."

Stop wasting your
time on me.
Go to your husband.
Go to your kid.
I have no use
for you anymore.
Crawl back in shame
to the hole you came from.
Krusty Aranda Aug 2016
Aunque quiera enamorarte
no sabría cómo hacerlo
Tú y yo ya nos conocemos
mas aún eres misterio
Tu sonrisa y tu mirada
son el aire que respiro
y tu voz adormilada
la pasión con que te miro
Son tus sueños fantasías
Son los míos realidades
Vice versa tú me admiras
mientras yo te lloro a mares
Amar es para los locos
Pocos locos somos todos
Somos todos quienes aman
Quienes te aman somos pocos
Pero locos somos quienes
imperfecta te adoramos
Yo te adoro imperfección
más perfecta que he admirado
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