I’m easy to forget
So I don’t blame you
If you never think of me again
Just know
As I leave
That I really do
Love
you

I
HATE
MYSELF
SO
MUCH
THAT
I’M
FALLING
TO
PIECES
WITH
THE
THOUGHT
OF
IT

   YOU
ARE    
*    THE
STARS  
      ON
A   *
CLOUDLESS
NIGHT

just being near you
planted those tiny seeds of love
in my heart,
filling the cracks with dirt.
but the flowers,
when they bloomed,
they reached through my lungs
and suffocated me
making me choke on the words
that you deserve to hear.

words keep spilling out of my mouth
adjectives, adverbs, nouns
but none of them seem to string together
in a way that makes sense

If brokenness is art
Then I really am the masterpiece
You claim that I am
I must actually be beautiful
That must be why you
Can never stop staring at me

I smile
I laugh
I joke
But it all feels fake.
I’m not happy
I’m not funny
I’m not real.
I lie to myself
I lie to you
I lie to the world
Because I’m none of the good.

we’re all going to die
someday
even the sun will die
the stars will all die
the earth will die
there will be nothing left
but a vast emptiness.

i think
we’re going to
make it.
if i can
make it
that
long.

i wanted to tell you
but your eyes,
they stole my words
and chucked them into
the deepest part of the ocean
mocked me
so i hid behind my poetry
but then you found it.
i guess that was a good thing though
because look what we are
now.

THE WAY I LET YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU IS BY
SMILING AND SHAKING MY HEAD, SAYING:
“YOU’RE AN IDIOT”. THAT’S HOW YOU KNOW.
AND I’M CONSTANTLY TELLING YOU YOU’RE AN
IDIOT. OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THAT I DO.

meeting you was cutting our fingers on shards of broken glass, the broken glass my body / and then planting bulbs in the little corner garden at the end of our driveway / meeting you was taking those shards and repairing the figurine of my happiness with superglue / so those shards couldn't fall back off / superglue, a much better alternative to clear tape and bubblegum that finally lost it's flavor / meeting you was plumping lip gloss, taking what was once considered okay and making it beautiful / meeting you was ugly and dazzling and everything in between / meeting you was finding the worth in what we once considered worthless / meeting you was watching those **** bloodied tulips grow to their fullest potential / regardless of how others saw them

The world ends
Every night
Because is it real
If we can’t see it?
But we wake up
We begin again
The world is born anew
And we get another chance
We get a fresh start
A new day
And we need to seize it
Take the opportunity
And make life ours
Carpe diem, *******.
Carpe
Diem.

I saw you
Tonight
In the stars.
Twinkling
As you cry,
Shining
Like your eyes.
You are love.

i keep letting you break me

and i think that the way to fix it

is to mend you

how foolish of me

i m
o b s e s s i v e l y
p r e s s i n g
t h e
s p a c e
b a r
b u t
i m
s t i l l
h e r e
o n
t h i s
e a r t h

I walk up
To the shop
And I feel
Vellichor
I smell the ink
The worn pages
Feel soft between my fingers
My hands
Trace the spines
And my mouth
Utters in the softest of whispers
The names of authors and their
Masterpieces
Searching
For the perfect book.

I still have four days
But I miss you already
I hope you never stop
Thinking of me
Because I know that
I won’t stop. You mean
Too much to me…