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394 · Jun 2018
All Can Burn
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Some grow old,
Some die young.
Some favor the moon,
To the warmth of the sun.
Few live it through,
To cold temperatures.
But all can burn,
All can burn.
We are all blessed and plagued by our unique experiences. But one thing we all share is that we burn. Whether it's for pleasure or shame, we all burn at some point.
391 · Jun 2018
The Hunt
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Excuse me, Good sir
Excuse me, Kind Lady
But a piece of me is gone
Have you seen it lately?
I can't describe shape
Nor for
Nor feel
Without it I'm lost
No steering
No wheel
Perhaps you have it some
Though not quite like mine
Everyone has it
To avoid dark decline
The darkness is friendly
Now that I've lost it
I don't like it
Yet I do
Bittersweet like dark chocolate
But wait
There it goes
How it's flown so far
To catch up to it
I must collapse like a star
I guess then they'll see
I guess then they'll know
What happens when you lose
The untouched part of your soul
Hunt your soul down
390 · Jun 2018
Nightmare
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Lies ensure that dreams fade
Nobody can hear it
And nobody sees it but me
I run away
Yet there you are
Cornering me against the wall
I can’t resist
I crave your drunk kiss
I’m scared of you
Why can’t you just be my nightmare?
Now I’m running for my life
I’m scared to death
But this dream is no nightmare
I should have resisted
Instead of stealing your kiss
I didn’t lie
When I said that I love you
I just didn’t mean to
Within this dream
You’re true peace
Your eyes cool as sleet
But soon you’ll see
I’m your nightmare
Your phantom dance
Appeals to me
I can hardly think
Yet I’m the phantom in this nightmare
Realize
Realize it soon
I’m
Your
Nightmare
389 · Jun 2018
The Sword
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Give me a sword,
And I’ll slay the world.
The dragon I’ve known,
My friend so old.
A star watches the fight.
It sees,
It shines,
It cries.
Then the warm whispering wind...
She sweetly flows in.
Her warrior fierce,
Her warrior pierced.
With the arrows of the world in
His soul...
In my soul...
In our soul...
Though the world fights back,
And the world fights hard,
I have my sword
And the wind and stars.
The world is mine tonight. It will tremble before me as though I'm about to bisect it with a mighty sword.
389 · Jul 2018
Miles of Decadence
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
And so we go.
Travelers two
Upon a long slick road,
Salted for safety.
The moon in the lagoon laughs at us,
Laughs with us.
Such a sweet giggle.
A laugh not heard before,
Too innocent to ignore.
It’s victorious.
Because the sword has won,
And the monster is done.
The scenery fits,
Melting away revealing a new day,
Unveiling miles upon miles of decadence.
Yes.
This, my sweet, is how we know,
We are finally going home.
We are finally going home
386 · Dec 2019
Reality
Anthony Mayfield Dec 2019
Oh, the things I've done in the dark of day
What's happened is expensive
But I'll never pay
At least not with money
This will cost me one whole soul
Mine
The reality is, this will cost me my soul
385 · Jun 2018
When It Rains
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
When it rains,
It pours.
Cascading down,
I guess I’ll go home,
And stay there,
To hide.
Forget about my prior notion.
I guess I'll go home, and stay there to hide
384 · Jul 2018
War of the Reflection
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
It started out as an innocent fall.
A folly to solve something inside.
It burned me.
It hurt me.
Now I die when I’m awake.
Feels like my livelihood’s at stake.
How can I be a man
When the mirror brings me down, jeering…

Don’t fight it,
Learn to love it.
I saved you,
I built you.
I raised you

You try to save the day for yourself.
You try to hide the pain for your health.

Now to the mirror with the reprobate frame of mind,
I hold the hammer that shatters you and your kind.
I won’t hide,
But I will cry
If that’s what takes me home.
You won’t win,
I’m up again.
Broken shards to atone.
When the mirror shows you your darkest self...
383 · Feb 2019
The Shame
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
Save
Die
Repeat
The null and void reclusive love who we seek
I was a man once
Deceptively strong and meek
The world won't be inverted by me

Shame
Cry
Repeat
The painful resurgence of romance so bleak
I was a boy once
Innocently sweet
But internally soured

Love
Lie
Repeat
The patron of matrimonial glee
I am dead now
I'm married to death
A lonesome loving grave
What a shame
The way you feel when you know it could have all been easily avoided, but you were weak anyway
381 · Jan 2019
The So Long Saga Part II
Anthony Mayfield Jan 2019
The Blue grave is inviting
But I don't want you near
You think there's room for one more
But I hear your fear
The Blue is no place for lies

You've been on holiday for some time now
You've been gone so long
State your claim
With classic poker face
Push my love aside
You'll never see me cry

My cries are locked deep inside
I don't know what to do
I don't...

I hurts to know
So soon after saying "so long"
Though you're back
I should be saying "goodbye"

Don't blame me
Don't hate me
Regret me
I'm lost in the Blue now
People often see me as this poised smart creative intellectual individual. That's all that they see. They only blind themselves to the surface. If they knew the pain that I carry from the mistakes from my past I always wonder if they'd even so much as look at me ever again. I have friends externally, but inside I am all alone.
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
Allow me this moment to laugh
To scoff
My victory is keen
You lost in the dark
Wet
Cold
Obscene
I want to hurt you
Because I love you
I want to **** you
Because I love you
It was so easy
You were such weakling
I came right in
And shot you out
Dead
Frigid
Stolen
I want to hurt you
Because I love you
I want to **** you
Because I love you
And when you're dead
I will be back
Reborn
Alive
Together, I'll thrive
If my depression was sentient and had a voice, we would be entangled in a tragic Shakespearean romance.
373 · Jul 2018
The Blue Man
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
A child,
Yet still a man,
Last at deep sea.
His hands
Such rust.
His feet
So clean.
He did not know
When he screamed,
I heard.
Through his tears,
I sneer
For I am awake.
Dangerously near
Yet far, far away.
Dangerously near,
Centimeters away.
But you can’t see me.
I’m tricky that way.
I love you.
I love you.
And my love will,
It will,
Yes, it will.
It.
Will.
****.
The white-hot death
Frozen in a scream.
Never shall you leave
My embrace,
For I long to forever caress
Your face.
You’ll never know my true name
Though I am the source
Of your deepest shames.
The Red Man is gone,
Dead by your blade.
Perhaps it’s time for Blue
To stake his claim.
You won’t see me coming,
When you do it will be too late.
I’ll be having my fun.
When you see my wicked face,
Run.
The personification of depression
373 · Feb 2019
The Blue Warrior Angel
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
She will find you
She hunts for you
She will make Him pay
His atrocities
And ferocities
Will fall to her gall
And for the first time
He will know pain
She promises
He will know pain
She swears
Nothing in the world
Can hurt what soul is hers
And yours is hers
She loves you
She will find you
She will hunt for you
And if need be
She will **** you before he can
Continuing on my metaphor of Personified Depression, this is about the antithesis of my depression also taking on sentience and fighting back for my life.
373 · Jul 2018
Sweet Jubilee
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
We tried it sweet and low.
We tried to step in time.
No one needs to know,
We own the sky.
We run too fast,
For everyone else.
We’ve got nothing else to lose.
We’ve got our strutting shoes,
Strutting down the lot.
And for all else, prepare the noose.
We’ll let them hang down low.
They’ll sink to the ocean floor.
We will be ourselves,
And nothing more.

Now harmony’s locked down,
Everyone’s looking out.
Don’t be too late for the show,
The best in Tinsel Town.
Deep water never drowns.
Our drive for all to know,
Our conquest of this contest.
Stand up tall and dress your best.
Pick your frame.
Write your name.
Glossy black and white pictures.
Love’s the greatest mixture.

This time’s for free,
So sing sweet jubilee.
Soft and sweet by design.
Sweet and low,
And it’s not for show.
You and me,
We can fly.
Dancing in one accord,
Just my type.
Freedom is free
372 · Jul 2018
The Lovely Shadow House
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
There it is
Can’t you see it?
It’s shadow sits
The moon to see
A house so grand
None can reveal
The glorious splendor
Not one can steal
It’s pristine white
I lived here once
Then I took flight
Cowardice love
But who’s to say
That through my forsaking
I can’t love it more
Yet still I am aching
Don’t know if they’ll greet me
I’m scared of the door
Is love still behind it?
Will it find me once more?
It was here where I lost it
I fell down to red
Sweet like white chocolate
Yet lifeless and dead
Can this house revive me?
Do I still have a soul?
Just ring on the doorbell
One ring then you’ll know
Sometimes the hardest journey to make is to the source of your mistakes.
372 · Jun 2018
Vast
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
I'm not a man who understands,
In fact, I fail all the time.
But there's peace in the pond.
I stare,
I shouldn't dare.
I hate to offend.
I'm a mortal man.
Yet still I gaze upon her unbroken soul.
She greets me with calming breath so soft.
Eternal bliss in her blue loft.
It's calm.
She welcomes me home.
There's peace in the pond.
I don't want to leave her;
Too many wonders unseen.
Her invisible hands caressing lush green.
Her mighty soft breath tingling me.
So here's to peace in the pond:
Fly, my angel,
To wonders unseen.
Fly, my angel,
May your Heaven stay free.
There's peace in the pond
368 · Jun 2018
The Tender Itch
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
I’ve got a hunch that we maybe can fly
I’ve got a notion to outreach the sky
I think that we’ve got this
We’ll be like rain
Just fall down
Drown the world below
We could die
Young enough to maybe build us a bridge
Travel somewhere beyond the boundaries Here
Storm the tower
And
Tumble the walls down
And
Stand on the mountain peak
Scream “here we are!”
We can fly in the sky, or we can freefall like the rain. Either way, we're in control of our destiny.
365 · Mar 2019
Rigmarole
Anthony Mayfield Mar 2019
And by the way
I just think you should know
I found my way out
Of the rigmarole
There's nothing you can do
To make my life your own
No longer shall I fight the love
You can't bait me any longer
Life is crazy intense. But when you can find that one thing or person that gives you a reason to smile through it all, it makes the grind so much more worth it
362 · Jun 2018
Gone
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Gone,
Gone the man who came before,
Who knew to stay safe on the shore.
He went too deep into the surf,
And drifted away,
And now he’s hurt.

Gone,
Gone the creature who used to sing
Songs in the dark to a shadow bell’s ring.
Its melody’s gone sweetly stale.
Cold as night’s wind,
A truly sad tale.

Gone,
Gone the one who was the greatest.
The one who was saved by this the latest.
The latest of thieves to steal from the wrong.
But now they’re all gone.
Where have they gone?

Gone,
Gone the man who became the greatest creature.
Saved by thief’s song at the shore as a feature.
He knew what he was doing,
But he was wrong.
Now he’s all gone.
Now he's all gone.
360 · Jun 2018
Good Night And Day
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Goodnight, Mister Sun.
Goodnight, Long Day.
Gone, bye.
I wish that I could try that hard.
Good morning, Night.
Good morning, Midnight Cry.
I wish that I could salve my scars.

God day, Morning Haze.
Good day, Familiar
Fog Bank.
I wish that I could someday fight.
Good morning, Light.
Good morning, Daylight’s Shine.
I wish that I could try.
Goodnight Long Day. Gone, bye...
358 · Mar 2019
Rigmarole (reprise)
Anthony Mayfield Mar 2019
By the way
I just think you should know
I guess for once
I don't feel alone
There's nothing that I cannot do
Because my life is my own
Lately
I'll say anything
For you to be my everything
Some reprises aren't like the original, sometimes they just expand on the feeling
351 · Jun 2018
Shards of Silver
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Shards of silver,
Broken glass.
Here I am.
Once again, I hurt myself,
and red I bleed.
I'm a lonesome man.
Here I am.

Shards of silver,
From tainted hands.
Once again, I turn away,
so I can't see.
Red I bleed.
I can't see.
I'm a wholesome man.
Here I am.

Shards of silver,
Broken glass.
Here I am.
I won't let you
see the real me
Red I bleed.
I'm a broken man.
Here I am.

I won't let you
understand me.
I can't see.
Red I bleed.
I can't see.

Shards of silver,
From tainted hands.
Here I am.
Red I bleed.
Here I am.
I can't see.
Here I am.
help me
Here I am
red
all over the place and hard to collect, just like shards of jagged broken glass
350 · Jun 2018
A Cry For Help
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Here of late I’ve been an irresponsible mister,
Bogged down by the endless voices of life.
Though for them I try to smile,
I sometimes sigh.
I can’t go unless I let you all know...
Can you hear me?
Here of late I’ve been the Hit-And-Misser.
But I can’t...
I won’t...
I won’t let you see.
Yet still I go.
I’m afraid of the cruel mistress of life.
Can you hear me?
But I can’t reveal my pain,
Lest you see that you’re my bane.
You’ll be burned by what you see.
So behind the thickest smile I hide.
Father, try to understand me.
Mother, don’t weep for me.
I’m trying to hold,
I’m trying to hold close.
The hearth of treasure I’ve known.
Sister, move on without me.
Brother, don’t forget me.
I’m crying for your help.
If you truly love me and know me so **** well, then how can you not see that my jubilant smile is really just a cry for help?
349 · Jun 2018
Shackles Part 2
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
But shackles under my feet
Pull me into the sea.
The world's most genuine kick-starter.
Unfathomable dreams,
I don't know what they mean.
Perhaps this sea's just shallow water to conquer.
stand and conquer
349 · Jul 2018
Deep In The White
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
Don’t cry for me, dear
Save your crystal tears
For now we celebrate
Smile
And cheer

Her flowers fall
Her wind is my song
Her rain is graceful
So rest
And be strong

His task is done
His sword has been run
His muscles sore now
Relax
Adjust

For deep in the white
Someday I shall be
Glass oceans calling me
Wait
And see

Deep in the white
Forever we’re free
We’ll sing together
So
Don’t you leave me
Deep in the white, forever we're free
347 · Aug 2018
The Weeping Child
Anthony Mayfield Aug 2018
When I first met Blue
I swore I saw stars
His corona dilated my pupils
When I first met Blue
I told Him all
But, then he wanted more
Now I’m like a child
Lost in a store

I’ve never been a man of my word
I’ve never been honest with myself
I am the weeping child
I beg of you
Don’t kiss and tell
Sometimes we're so desperate for a prince charming to come and save us, that we don't realize we're actually falling for the evil witch in disguise despite all of the signs
329 · Feb 2019
Where Monsters Are
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
Run, run, run, run
He stalks in the night
Where children have fun
Run, run, run, run
Be urgent
Take flight
For a monster comes tonight

Run, small children, and hide
For monsters have come
To cast you aside
A mere fairy tale?
Just some old folklore?
No!
No!
Much worse
Much more.

Upon your hopes
I bring my scar
You're where monsters are

Pin the doors
Sharpen your steel
A beast approaches
A new hunter poaches
To feed on children's cries
Place your fears in the front
Lock your hopes in a jar
You're where monsters are
If you can, save yourself
329 · Nov 2018
My Name
Anthony Mayfield Nov 2018
How can anyone know me
When they don't even know my name
How can anyone teach me
When all that they crave is fame
They don't know how my world destroyed me
They don't know the monsters I struggle to tame
They don't know me
They don't know my name
They see me and think they understand
327 · Jun 2018
Little Reprobate
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Return to the river that roars
And razes ravaged lives
And remember:
Your mistakes will find you
And history defines you
So hey, hey, Little Reprobate
Say "hi"
To your fate
The one you built inside.
Take watch
A chalice of broken glass
Falls dry as the story unfolds
The Vacancy Saga continues...
325 · Dec 2018
Amazing
Anthony Mayfield Dec 2018
It's amazing
And never going out of style
It's the life
And it's never going out of style
It's the life
And it's never gonna fly
From the eyes
On my head and in my heart
It's amazing
And I'm so glad to call it mine
Mine's the love
And the hope that we all know
We sing is slow
An amazing song of love and hope
It's never going out of style
324 · Mar 2019
Fair Weather Friend II
Anthony Mayfield Mar 2019
Fair weather friend
Hey, it's me
I'm coming home
So wait and see
The better man
I've grown to be
Fair weather friend
Hey, it's me

Fair weather friend
My castaway
We're lost at sea
Yet family
Where we'll go
I don't want to know
We'll never stop
And that's my hope

Fair weather friend
Don't call my name
Don't call me by my olden name
Call me Free Bird
I can't be tamed
Without deposit
There's no regain
Without deposit there's no regain
323 · Feb 2019
Nonlove
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
A love
But none
At the same time
Dang it
Not again
It's so easy
To lose my feel
When one's so far
And one's close to feel
A love with none
Dang it
You fool
One feels with no hands
One speaks with no words
A love with none
Dang it
Forget it
But
You love it
You crave it
You will destroy them
May you rest in peace
You fool
322 · Jun 2018
The Run
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Drop the lock
Gate's open
Go
NOW!
run, Run, RUN
Into the white
Into her sight
She's beautiful
Flash
Emerge, O child of mine
Spread your newly christened wings of glory
Flitter and flutter
To hither and yon
She'll adore your colors
She'll sing your song
Flash
Submerge, O tender heart
The deep is cold
But you'll catch your start
Free from those who try to gain
Free from all the surface pain
She waits at the bottom for you to stay
It's silent down here
But that's ok
Flash
She's right in front of you
She's fighting for you
She's waiting
She is singing
She shows you her colors
Her glorious vibrant colors
She is
She is
Go to her
Find her
Save her
320 · Apr 2019
Crushed
Anthony Mayfield Apr 2019
Crushed
The only way I feel
Not one of love
Nor born of lust

Crushed
A shelter of my soul
A sliver of my pain
Splinter my reign
All hail the fool
The ***** little fool

Crushed
Crushed
Crushed

So crushed

So many pieces

I can't be resolved

Crushed
Destroyer
Breaker of the union
Despoiler of the sacred vow
You filthy animal
You ***** cow

Crushed
I'm divided
Crushed
I'm decided
Crushed
By lust
But not mine
Your shadow will forever shroud my soul

I put walls up
But down they go
Beat down by the flood
Born of heated hate
A stampede of regret
A new reprobate

So say "hi"

Say hi to your crimes
To to speak through your cries
Nobody hears at night
Because then you must lie
I'm fine
But why
why
why
why
why
Why did you crush my soul
Beyond the spirit
Beyond my bone
Crushed
318 · Mar 2019
3D
Anthony Mayfield Mar 2019
3D
Day by day he became a man
surrounded by family and friends
Day by day he makes himself understand
Death is not an amend
Death isn't an amend, fixing things is never that simple
315 · Jun 2018
Shattered Down Broken Soul
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
There you go again
Sleeping
Or pretending
I don’t care which
All I know is the hardship in tow
How dare you
You shattered down broken soul

Here you go again
Smiling
Just conniving
I hope you get yours
All I see is a chance to be seen
How dare you
You shattered down broken soul

Here we go again
Lying
And abiding
To each other we cry
But I know what you refuse to show
How dare you
You shattered down broken soul

Shattered down
Broken soul
Built me up
And made me whole
Took my place
Stole the show
I will never know
How will I ever be whole
The lies that I tell myself just to make myself seem like I'm ok. But the other Me, the one who only knows hurt for so long to where he craves it, he's clawing to get out. My self-war continues
312 · Jul 2018
The Feel
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
I never meant to feel like this
It came like a sudden fright
Crazy as I am
I’m not so spontaneous
I keep my love out of the light
A true nocturnal creature I am
An animal plain as can be
All the motions that I cram
A display for all to see

Yet none see it
None but me
And maybe

I don’t know what you will say
Somehow that makes this greater
I should be frightened
Scared and trembling
Yet I feel as the victor
I don’t know if you’ll see like this
I hope I never find out
Your heart is mine
So smooth like wine
Come see
You won’t want to miss

Yet none see it
And yet you do
And maybe
That’s enough for two
I never meant to feel like this... But now I'm glad that I do.
307 · Aug 2018
Wait For Me
Anthony Mayfield Aug 2018
…Wait
…Wait
…Wait
…Wait
You don’t have to leave
…Wait
…Wait
…Wait
…Wait
That’s not ok with me
I can’t live if you leave
…Wait
…Wait
Wait for me
That dreadful moment of desperation when your significant other holds all of the emotional power over you.
304 · Jun 2018
Blue Wishes
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
If a wish would come right now,
And I lost all the head weight,
And Father Time himself sat still,
I'd have time to contemplate.
And all the lights in my world
Would shine a luminous blue.
So take this to the cold:
I am coming for you.
Make a wish into the vast eternal blue...
304 · Dec 2019
The Truth
Anthony Mayfield Dec 2019
How can I not hate you all
You all live normal
Happy lives
I'm a victim
Of a monster's lies
A monster with blue hair
Led me to his lair
And in return
Desecrated my tavern
I thought I was free
But that monster he...
He...
He
Stole
Me
And took my liberty
I was free
Darkened yet happy
Now I am taint
Brittle dry paint
And you have the gall to be happy
But it's not your fault
You don't know a monster stole me
And you never will
I don't hate you

I envy you all
I can't hate you for what you don't know
304 · Jun 2018
I Wish You Well
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Maybe you'll stumble and fall off the road
Maybe you'll lose what with tight hands you hold
Maybe you'll drop it all
Only then you will see

That you don't really need me

Withstand the pain
You'd better say
I wish you well
Maybe you'll sail
Maybe you'll fly
Maybe you'll fail
But first you must try
For life is a flight
My angel so bright
Withstand the pain
I hope you say
I wish you well

Maybe we'll see each other again someday
I wish you well
We'll meet again through this pain
I wish you well

Dreams aren't always what they seem
Dreams aren't always gone when we wake from sleep
Dreams reveal to us who we truly are
And your dream has made you a star

Withstand the pain
If you can, please say

I wish you well

I'll meet you in the sky
I wish you well
I wish you well
I wish you well...
Never say goodbye until it's the right time. But the right time never comes...
303 · Feb 2019
The Grove
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
How dare you
I was majestic once
Pure
Complete
Strong
Angelic
But ow
Now in the nettles of Nevermore
I am lost
I had direction
Pious protection
And spoke in such glorious dialect
But now
I am ensnared
Because I never cared
Yet you took me
Let me in
please
I'm lost
Won't you let me in?
The wolves are coming
I won't last long
I swear I'll forgive
If you just let me in
please
Please
PLEASE
Let
Me
In
How dare you
I will die
You won't cry
You don't care
But I dare
To stare down
The King of White Death
Cry if you want
But unless my tears are pure
I will cry no more
The monsters are here
I'll pass on this night
The monsters have me now
You've killed me
Goodnight
How dare you leave me out in the cold to die
300 · Jun 2018
Dry
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Dry
I’m not alone

Forever surrounded by loved ones
Everyday should bring such peace
Everyday fresh thoughts to think
Looks to me like I’m in a dream

Shared by a loving family
Only the fortunate know it’s no travesty

Daily I feel such love
Running towards that home up above
Yup, this is the good life
We give the facade that we're happy with our lives, but behind the smile is the truth.
299 · Jun 2018
The Tender Itch: Part 2
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Touch my heart
Scorch my timbral heart
Teach me to be smart
Make my brittle brain start
Give me some dreams
I need
I need something to break
I need something to heed
We all need something to live for. Whether it's something tangible or only a dream. What is life for if there's no dreams to reach for?
295 · Jun 2018
Down
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Down, down, down down.
What went around came back around.
The truth behind the smile is found.
So smile for me.
The identity of monstrosity has been unbound.
Now it’s down, down, down, down… down.

Down, down, down, down.
Feeling at home when you hear the wolves howl.
Alone, I own the lonely.
Why do you cry?
You should smile for me.
But everything is down, down, down… down… down.

Down, down, down, down.
The clock strikes red,
The blue lost its crown.
Just hide in your frown.
Come on and smile for me.
Then fall down, down… down… down… down.

Down, down, down, down.
What went around came back around.
I guess I’m the mayor of this dark down.
Smile…
No matter how high up we go, karma always comes back and brings us down until we're humbled.
287 · Jul 2018
Come, Lover
Anthony Mayfield Jul 2018
Come, Lover
Sing me a song
Of how you escaped the ***** throng
Release the haze
Of memories erased

They will one way or another
Patiently impulsively appear
So release them to a flavor dear
Into me
Come, Lover
Sing me a song

They will one way or another
Deceptively appear
Like bugs on a windshield
Unseen until splattered across your vision
So let me see
Let me focus
Come, lover
Sing me a song

There’s no choir here
No piano to steer
The symphony
Into harmony
Devoid of melody
For the solo is yours
And yours alone

So come, Lover
Sing me a song
And be lifted above your weighted wrongs
The world will always eavesdrop on the songs you sing, and the world will inevitably judge you. Sing anyway.
286 · Aug 2018
Say Yes
Anthony Mayfield Aug 2018
Nothing short of a miracle
Can deliver what the Blue-Haired Monster
Took from me
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
All I hear is no
Will somebody say…

Nothing short of a miracle
Can deliver what the Blue-Haired Monster
Stole from me
Don’t stop me now
I’m on a roll
All I am is no
Please say…

Please…

Let me in
Give me warm clothes
And a bed
Don’t say “no” again
Somebody, say “yes”
When you're hurting inwardly, people won't know that you need help unless you humble yourself and vocalize your need. People will unfortunately say no, but you gotta keep going until someone finally sees the full extent of your interior pain and says yes.
283 · Feb 2019
Manifest Destiny
Anthony Mayfield Feb 2019
We were one
My one life
And my other
Unaware of each other
But then the world broke
And showed to me
That I shouldn't be happy
I'll only run away

It's not over

Now I'm lost
My other life
Devoured the one
Protective walls toppled down
Because when the world broke
It was revealed to me
I shouldn't be happy
But still I fight
No longer running away

It's not over
Until I smolder

Manifest Destiny
How dare you break me
When I deserve to be happy
How dare you do this to me
Erase all trace of normalcy
In my life

It's not over
Until I smolder
The life

Manifest Destiny
Please forgive me
I won't fall early
Manifest Destiny
Don't embrace me
Just keep me safe from normalcy
Entering my life

It's not over
Until I smolder
The life
But, I lost
Don't embrace me, Just keep me safe from normalcy entering my life.
281 · Jun 2018
Swallow
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Gasp!
A choke upon my own garbled breath
Am I a real man now?
Or am I just dead?
A look around
A brief pat down
I survived it
I lived it
I did it
I was it
I still am

Wheeze!
A choke upon my own weakened stance
Am I losing now?
Or just dreaming in bed?
A nasty dream
Pulled apart at the seams
I crave it
I’m late for it
I parade it
I did it
I was it
I still am

Cough!
A choke upon my own stifled laugh
Am I peaceful now?
Or still in the blood bath?
I wipe my brow
I’m better for now
I escaped it
I believed it
I couldn’t **** for it
I ran from it
I did it
I was it
I still am

And if you’re not careful
Soon you will be too
My body has long been healed, but my emotional recovery is going to take a lifetime.
277 · Jun 2018
Cast Me Down
Anthony Mayfield Jun 2018
Cast me down,
O cursed heart.
Can’t you see I’m late to start?
Please depart,
For even a soul with holes is whole.

Cast me down,
O wayward soul.
Falling is high and rising is low.
Don’t show,
For even a mind of lies is kind.

Cast me down,
O subtle mind.
Disprove my wings so I’ll never fly.
How divine,
For even a man who stands expands.

Cast me down,
O wicked man.
O wicked ***** cruel man.
This is the end of our earth,
But our fight finds new hearth.
So cast me down,
And take the crown,
I’ll get you next time.
Heart, soul, and mind
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