Every girl that wanders into my life
Is facing their her own different strife
No matter how they are in distress
I treat them like a special princess
I do my best to be compassionate
Be better continuously since we met
I put forth her emotions before mine
Then go to mine when hers are behind
However I feel like a tattered rag-doll
Used until it faces it's disastrous fall
I am constantly loved then thrown away
Not to be important anymore on any day
I'm like a brand new rechargeable battery
Used once and then dropped like gravity
I am using up energy and forgotten about
Then when it is gone, I am a pile of doubt
I treat others the way I would like to live
I serve others and give all I have to give
Yet I am still worthless after a short while
Which leaves me alone, tattered, in denial

I am still unaware of who you are
And you may also be as unaware
However, soon we will both know
Towards each other is where to go
I am still unsure if you exist in my life
I am unsure if I am involved in yours
However, we will both know someday
That love will bind us tighter everyday
But when will that certain day happen
When will it occur we find each other
Will it be a miserable evening of care
Or an exciting challenge of truth or dare
We may never know until the day comes
We wait and watch the rise of many suns
Both knowing one day we will be together
Even though neither may know each other

My heart remains free from all
My soul is on a cliff about to fall
My ****** lips still remain shut
My feelings still deep in my gut
I will not show love anytime soon
I will lose my soul by the next noon
I will never seem to kiss someone
I will regurgitate my love on the run
I always say I will remain forever alone
I always give my self a surprise there
I always speak in my calm, shy tone
I always end up in a deal that's not fair
I wish I could fall in love once more
I wish my soul would remain near
I wish happiness in behind the door
I wish my new love is nothing to fear
I am a crumbling mess it seems to me
No one else can see much difference
No one can tell happiness is lost at sea
I am now the only considerable reference
I have the only people needed to fly by
And those are just me, myself, and I

I don't think it's clear to you
I don't even know if I exist
It now has been eight months
Since we both have last talked
I don't think you remember me
I seem to no longer exist to you
Sixteen months ago it all began
Now it is like it never happened
It would be great to talk to you
You do seem to be happier now
But it's not the same over here
If you wish not to talk, that's fine
It would be great if you did though
My number will be where you see it
And you can contact me whenever
Goodbye now, you know who you are
You lived near, but now you're too far
So I would love to talk to you once more
To fill the emptiness in my cold core

Playing hide and seek until it got dark
Going every weekend to a local park
Keeping and cleaning a pet rock
Having a bedtime around 9 o'clock
These were always the good old days
Piling unhealthy food on lunch trays
Tag and army men was not just a game
It brought those champions internal fame
Why do we all have to grow into adults
Why can't we have nothing be our faults
I do not even want to grow up anymore
I wish to not see what is behind the door

You are born, you live, and die
It is the most common cycle
Everyone encounters this event
However, some sooner than others
Life is not to be taken for granted
Some are not blessed like you and I
Some only see the world for a second
Then close their eyes to never open again
I fear the day that I will never again wake
I will regret some decisions I have made
I will look back and see the pain I caused
I will never be able to change any of it
I wish to die in the common way of age
People die all the time in numerous ways
Heart attacks to cancer to the battlefield
Some of these people are innocent
And have done nothing wrong in life
They bring happiness to those around
Why can't I die in this way instead of them
People just can't take life for granted
It can be ripped away like candy from a kid
Or a mole caught in the neighbors trap
Live your life to the fullest every day
Because you will see the end at some point
We all see birth, we live, and then we die

I wish everything was alright
I wish it was peaceful at night
I wish all was good once more
I wish I had never shut the door
I wish I again had a girlfriend
I wish I had someone to tend
I wish I had someone to care
I wish that she was always there
I wish life would be okay again
I wish I could end all this pain
I wish it will be the same again
Why can't everything just change
To something more in my range
Where my life goals are reachable
Where nothing left is impossible