Such a strong and overused word
Full on hate seems just too absurd
The preferred option can be dislike
Or even just say to take a long hike
I am having that moment right now
Of disliking someone that's now low
She's a wonderful person in my eye
But then she lied and left my to cry
Hate isn't there now in this moment
The uncertainty rises through torment
This is a first of feeling the way I feel
It almost seems imaginary and unreal
I can only clear my head of all the hate
Moving to something fresh and great

I feel like a pawn in this nasty game of chess
Always forced going into some sort of mess
All my important decisions are made by others
And it's seems there's no one that even bothers
I am the first to face a conflict in all my peers
And it only seems to intensify over these years
People use me so they can benefit and gain
Leaving me alone and in a great deal of pain
I wish to leave this chess game of endless hell
But it's hard to leave with how far I already fell
I just wish to break free of the kings unholy grip
Just so I can leave the path of his unruly whip

I put together all pros and cons
I consider any new consequences
Through being awake and yawns
I think more on this very decision
At times I wish to ask her something
Then the next I despise the thought
I think about how it can create a ding
Or even a dent in this shifting fault
I wish there's an easy way to decide
Instead of thinking alone while I hide
While the water contributes to a tide
That'll slowly make me reveal my side

This may be way too early
But as people always say
You only live once, YOLO
But I usually don't follow
This is not a normal poem
There is no rhyme or pattern
Just an explanation to you
I know it hasn't been long
Since it all abruptly ended
But I am just not quite sure
Not sure on when it's right
Or even when it is wrong
But I am sure on one thing
The facts about you, Maddie
You're adorable, cute, pretty
Beautiful, stunning, lavishing
Any description that you want
You ARE absolutely amazing
I've been debating to do this
But I am needing to ask you
I know I said I wouldn't go
But will you, Madelyn
Go to homecoming with me?

You may think you're not good enough
But stopping now after all you've given
Just you stopping right now seems tough
You should try again and continue living
We were fresh out of our dark cocoon
We really never saw this other spectrum
We were like the space race to the moon
Not knowing anything ahead, not some
Neither of us was prepared for the future
That future to us is now known as the past
And it now feels like a continuous torture
That I made mistakes that won't be my last
Now a simple statement about relationships
From quite an amazing and hilarious movie
They're being there when someone needs you
And to add on, it's to make each other happy
I don't know about you but I felt success then
I was happy and you're there when I'm needing
If not know then I am going to wonder when
When is my open heart going to stop bleeding
It had stopped for a while when I was with you
Now it's as if it has been punctured once more
I hope that you can now thing this all through
Then choose your final thoughts closed door
I think what we had was absolutely spectacular
It was always simple and to the finest point
We made each other laugh and that was all
We still have an opportunity to mend the joint
What we once had was perfect in every way
But the main phrase there is "we once had"
That'll haunt me throughout every single day
Because it indicated the past which is sad

I'm clueless at the moment
At what exactly went wrong
I'm unsure of what to do now
Cause feel like I don't belong
You say we can still be friends
Not the first time that was heard
Last time it was a complete joke
Ending in me shattered and hurt  
Now, I don't feel as much pain
It all seems to fly over my head
It still continues to steadily rain
It seems to not stop till I'm dead
I can only assume it was my fault
I did something to turn it all around
I can't waste time wondering why
When I know nothing can be found
I must move on once more in life
And I'm sure it will not be my last
Because life is full of many surprises
Where you can't be living in the past

Want to know what I love about you? I love just being around your unique attitude. I love seeing you beautiful face. I love hearing your sweet voice. You are absolutely beautiful Madelyn. If someone tells you otherwise, punch them in the face or tell them they need glasses because they CLEARLY can't tell that you're beautiful. Just kidding, don't punch them or insult them, that's just not nice and I know you're not a mean person. Just be you. Stay the beautiful, amazing and sweet Madelyn that I know and love. Don't change to try to impress me or impress others because you already impress many people, including me. I love everything about you, and most importantly, I love YOU