I hate the cold

Because I am naturally cold
And I never feel safe
Outside of heat
And the best heat

Is in your arms.

-r.y.s

it's hard to tell
wether what I feel
is something real
or just a fantsy
in my head

imagination
and daydreams
create feelings
that aren't real

it's often hard
for me to
separate
these false emotions
from those of truth
and decide
what i feel
and what i thought up

because when you live
with your head in the clouds
things become confusing
dreams and imagination
mingle with what's real
and it drives you mad
because you can't tell
what is real

-r.y.s

I want to be immortal
I want to be forever
I want to never end

I want to see the world collapse
I want to see it restart
I want to find its beginning

I want to be worth something
I want to be valued
I want to be happy

I can't be immortal
I can't be forever
I must end

I won't see the world collapse
I won't see the world restart
I won't find its beginning

I am worth nothing
I am not valued
I am not happy

I was always told
It's the outlook
You have
That reflects how you feel.

Then why do I feel awful,
When I have such a positive outlook?

-r.y.s

fears are strange

i fear things that are practical
like that those sirens
are rushing towards a love one
that i didn't tell them
how much i loved them
when i saw them last

i also fear things
that i feel unpractical
like snakes
the thought sends chills
in through my body
and makes me want to cry

but my biggest fear
is being forgotten
is falling into oblivion

and as cliche
and boring
as i seem
i know no other fear
then being forgotten

but other days
i want to embrace my fear
and fall into an oblivon
to be forgotten
to never have to worry
to never have to exist

it's a delicate balance
of life
and death, really.

-r.y.s

i honestly don't know
what it is
about you
that separated you from the rest
because God knows
I can't seem to figure it out now.

All I know,
is that
I've give up on you.

You waste my time
And **** my hopes
And make me feel
Absolutely worthless.

-r.y.s