Red wine sets my insides on fire
I am filled with desire
My dreams take towards the sky
It makes me feel like I can fly

I'm a house cat that dreams of the forest

I can't help feeling like you are the light that shines in the night sky.
When I told you I still cared about you
I was expecting the worst
But you gave me a glimmer of hope and I ran with it
My diluted mind formed galaxies around us.
I have tried to pull my eyes back down to earth
But it's hard when something more beautiful exists up there.

I was stupid to think
I could drink
The words you spoke to me
In our late night conversations
I should have read the label marked
Poison

Pieces of you are scattered throughout my life
-Your name is embedded in every poem I write-
Yet I'm a ghost in yours

I could say I've wasted my time with you,
but it wouldn't be true
because I don't regret our conversations or the times we sat in silence.
I don't regret all of nights I lay in my room alone, crying over you
Or the days I felt like drowning
I only regret not telling you I loved you enough

Its been six years since I met you at that football game in high school
and I still look at you with the same
admiration and longing.
And I still find myself swimming in your gorgeous green eyes
Even after all we've been through,
I still think of you in the best of ways.

Loving you when I was sixteen was like loving the ocean
I fell in love with your mystery and your impeccable beauty
And the deeper I got, the harder it was to breathe

Last night I fell asleep with an empty stomach and hallow eyes
Wishing to live in a different body
Only got 5 hours of sleep
It's strange how the season's effect me so much
Days spent inside this old house are always longer in the winter

I woke up with goosebumps and nicotine eyes
Deciding if waking up today was really worth it
Knowing it would be spent with lonely thoughts and a longing for you to call
But you never do

You are my nicotine, I inhale your words as if I need them to breathe
I should try to quit  
What we are doing to each other, its toxic
And what's so sad is when you finally reply
All I can remember is the high
I swear, loving you will give me cancer