My boy told me "don't let it get to you
I know it's hard but you'll pull through
And I know it's driving you insane
And at times it's hard to maintain
We're all humans, we all feel pain
But from the pain we learn and gain
I've been there before, I've felt the same
And I get it, it's on repeat going over and over in your brain
Feeling like you're losing control
Feeling like you lost your soul
Just give it some time to heal
I know exactly what you feel
My ***** you've been through worse!
My ***** you ain't cursed!
I know you're better than this, you're much stronger!
The pain won't last much longer"

I'm going out every night
Why did we even fight?
What was it about?
All I remember where the shouts
But I'm trying to forget you
But I see you in everything I do
Who didn't love who?
I was all in
But maybe this was suppose to end
Now here I am by myself
Feeling like I'm going through hell
Putting my heart in a dark cell
I ain't gonna lie, I miss you
Do you miss me too?
I told you you're all I want
The memory of you still haunts
But you weren't honest
And I didnt speak up on what this is
We where scared
And that bond we had, began to tear
When you needed me the most, I wasn't there
But is this really fair?
I work long hours
While you where alone crying in the shower
Maybe we both had our reasons
Maybe it was only part time, just for the season
Do you miss me?
At night, you're all I see
Your in my dreams
Put you on that pedestal and made you my queen
I miss your affection
But I didn't give you the attention
Was I giving enough?
I'm not the one that gave up
Was it suppose to end like this?
I just can't act like you didn't exist

You see that man standing on the wall
Acting tough, thinking he's tall
He got a gun with 2 grams in his pocket
That old lady got 5 keys for her door just to unlock it
Scared someone gonna break in and steal her gold lockets
That's the corner where my boy got shot and passed away
That house they raided, took my other friend the next day
That house has been shot more then we can count
This is the place they make hood movies about
In these streets you can pray for the Lord but he can't hear
It's been a daily routine, there's no more fear
They broke into my neighbors house and stabbed him
Only to steal his car for his rims
I've seen mothers cry
I've seen sons and daughters die
I've seen fathers lie
Saying they'll come home before the sun rise
But instead get a call saying they're not coming home
Saying their last goodbyes over the phone
Every night you can hear gun shots or sirens
Around here, there is no silence
It's a place where people struggle to survive
Where inocent kids get caught in drive-bys
It's where it's rare to see someone pass 25
Where dreams never stay alive
It's a life we try to run from and hide
That's what it's like growing up on the south side

My past molded me into who I am
Like a clam that made a pearl with just a grain of sand
It took years to curve my edges
Like the water in a river, eroding the rocks over ages
I've traveled dark roads that have broke me
Walking in darkness, not being able to see
I've felt love and lost it
Lost sight of who I was and thought I should quit
A sinner from the first day of birth
The pain from my past still hurts
And though I'm not perfect
I'm just trying to get life correct
Still not a saint but success is my new project
And the ones with me I'll never neglect
From growing up with nothing
I'm a give them everything
My day 1s know I'll ride for them
Our lives are going to be better from what we had back then
There is nothing that can stop me
I got tunnel vision and success is all I see
Free my family from poverty
Free my friends from authority
Free myself from ornery
The future isn't ready for the new me

What if those are the last words you'll get to say to me?
Would you be satisfied with them?
What if that is the last time you see me?
Would you be satisfied with it?
What if this is the last letter I wrote to you?
Would you even read it?
What if this is the last time you hear my name?
Would you even feel any pain?
I cared for you but can you say the same?
Or was all this just a game?
What if I leave and never came back?
Would you look for me, try to find where I'm at?
Would you cry for me?
What if this isn't how it's ment to be?
What if I'm suppose to be yours and you're suppose to be mine?
What if we missed that sign?
What if we where suppose to take that chance?
What if I did fall for you at first glance?
What if there is a reason that we met?
What if we aren't done with each other yet?
Would you believe I'm suppose to be with you?
Or is it hard for you to believe it's true?
Is it hard for you to sleep at night?
What if you where wrong and I was right?
But I guess we'll never find out will we?

Life is beautiful
Not perfect but we all have our own rituals
We wake up and do what we got to do
How far we'd get from where we once where who'd knew
But there is still along way we got to go
And what life will bring us we will never know
But life is beautiful
There are so many things we got to learn about it still
Every day is a new experience
A lot more than what we knew back then
We were only kids
Just having fun even if they where sins
Life is beautiful
But at the same time it can be so cruel

I woke up this morning to your smell
Why did you put me through ******* hell
Thinking you where still there
But you're gone, and it's not fair
Walking out the house and I heard you whisper my name
But it didn't sound the same
So I turned around
Then there was no sound
I gave you all of me
But for some reason I'm the one you couldn't see
I did everything for you
But with me, you couldn't just be true
So I don't understand why you left
Now I have all this pain in my chest
You made me feel so worthless
You made me feel so ******* useless
You just picked up and disappeared
No closure just walked out, why aren't you here?
Why wasn't I enough?
This is why I ******* hate falling in love
I was always honest with you but you weren't the same
So tell me who's the one to blame?
Did you even care for me?
Or where you just using me?
I told you, you where the only one I see
You said the same, so how could this be?
It happen so quick, so he was always there
Now the pain I feel is to much to bear
I knew I never should have let my guard down
Broke me into a million pieces and left me on the grown