I thought you where my "happily ever after"
But you ended up being the worst disaster
I gave you everything I had to offer
And you took it all and stood there watching me suffer

Why do I feel so alone?
Why do I hate being in this home?
Why do I Just want to run away?
Why do I wish I would just die today?
Why do I keep people out?
Why can't I say a word when I'm trying to shout?
Why do I hide myself from people?
Why do I feel like this for no reason?
Why can't I feel happiness?
Why do I see only darkness?
I try to open up but I feel like no one hears me
I try to speak up but I feel like no one cares for me
I try to let people in but them I can't see
I just feel so lost I forgot who I'm trying to be
Why do I sit alone in the dark?
Why do I feel like I don't have a heart?
Yet when some one asks how I'm doing I say I'm okay
Lost in my head no black and white only gray
Why does everyone say I'm so blessed?
Yet I feel so depressed

I see you and you see me
But together we just can't be
You said you want to be just friends
But how long will that last till it ends?
Your holding on to the past to decide your future
I'm letting go of mine because I use to be a loser
We where happy when we where together
To me there was no feeling better
I made you laugh I made you smile
You gave me a feeling I haven't felt in a while
You became my muse
I became your disabuse
I showed you something that no other man did
I brought out that person in you that you always hid
You had me talking about my secrets I've kept
I don't know how you did it but my safe you cracked
But I know who you are too
And for your son there's nothing you won't do
I admire your motive to give him your all
Believe me when I say I'll be there to never let you fall
But you said you want to be just friends
How long will that last till it ends?
Still I get lost in your eyes
To you I just can't lie
You took my pain away
I thought about you everyday
Your mind is so intriguing
I just want to kiss you under the stars shining
And you where happy every time I came around
I had you feeling like you where floating off the ground
I just wanted to let you know that you are special
I wanted to show you that you're full of potential
I wanted you to feel like a queen
I was ready to be your king
And whenever you where feeling down
I was the one you'd call to come around
I hated seeing you without a smile on your face
I'd hold you and tell you let me take you away from this place
Let me show you that everything will be okay
Because come tomorrow with me, it'll be a better day
But maybe I used you as a distraction
To block the pain from my past actions
Then you said you wanted to be just friends
How long will that last till it ends?
Because just friends I can't be

Before you came into my life
All happiness inside me had began to die
Than you came out the blue
Resurrected what I thought would never be true
Brought that feeling back in me
And I just don't know how that could be
You forced your way in
How did you get under my skin?
But I'm glad you did
There's no one out there like you I'll admit
And I'm not afraid to tell you how I feel
Without you knowing, you helped me heal
You took away the pain
Washed it all away like the rain
But then you said you only wanted to be just friends
I was afraid to lose you so I said yeah but this will soon end
I don't know how to win you back
Those words hurt and then everything went black
Afraid to give it a chance because of someone from the past
But you started this, I was just trying to make it last
At the start we where both all in
Then it was just me, now I'm wondering what happened
**** this ****
That's why I don't let anyone close, I hate it
Where you just a lesson I needed to learn?
Or maybe you where a blessing I have yet to earn
The happiness you made me feel
It just all felt so unreal
That's why I didn't want to let go
But you ended it, now I just don't know
How long will this hurt?
Right now I just feel so subvert

I'm awake laid up in this bed
And you're the only one running through my head
And this girl laying next to me isn't you
I'm still wishing on a star for my dream to come true
That one day it'll be you and me
But it seems like that dream will never be
You got me on your hook
If only this was a love story like in a book
Where our lives have a happily ever after
Where it's me and you and nothing else will matter
We leave our past where it belongs
And finally forgive ourselves for our wrongs
So we start something new
Something great for just me and you
I love your laugh I love your smile
I love the sweet melody of your voice that drives me wild
But I just can't figure out why we can't be together
You are what I want you are what I treasure
But I'm not what you want
And the thought of you started to be my haunt
The feeling of not having you began to hurt
So the feelings that I have for you I try to divert
So I'm laid up in this bed next to another girl
Just not the one I see as my pearl
You're the only one on my mind at 2 a.m.

The thought of you kills me
I don't know why you couldn't see
Blind from your past
You're the reason why we didn't last
I would have done everything for you
And you know everything I said was true
But someone from your past is your only reason
But your explanation I'm not believing
I cared for you some much
But you didn't want to give that last touch
Yeah I'm hurt how can I not be
You're the one that didn't want me
I gave you the benefit if the dought
But you're the one who ran out
I was your cure but you where killing me
Blinded by you and I couldn't see
I told you everything
I don't know why I opened up to you that's just not me
But you kept pushing and found your way in
At that point it was to late I didn't know what to do then
**** I hate what happened
I hate feeling this tragic
I'm sorry I wasn't the one for you
But just know I always thought about you too
We can't be just friends
This is where everything ends
I should have known from that start
I should have never let you in my heart
But I can't say anything bad about you
I had the best time with you, that's true

You'll give me a random call saying you miss me
And ask why I'm the one you never see
I'll answer back saying I miss you too
But there's a lot of things I need to do
Yeah we live in the same house
But I'm making moves I'm out and about
Trying to make a better life
I'm trying to reach a bigger height
I'm sorry you don't see me as much as you want
The thought of me disappearing is your haunt
You think I don't need you no more
Thinking you'll never again see me come through that door
But that's not true
In my life I'll always need you
But it's alright just stay calm
You got to remember Mom
I'm not trying to go back to my old ways
When I'm done everything is going to be okay