5 am and my mind is running wild
Since a youth I've felt like a demon child
Never really understood how life worked
But I know pain and how bad it can hurt
11 hour days at my job
She mad at me because I get no days off
She's feels neglected
This is unexpected
I'm working to fix myself
But I keep her out when she wants to help
I remember 15 years old selling drugs
My past memories beginning to bug
But I can't seem to let them go
Where I'm going in life I just don't know
But I do know I'm not where I once was
Miles away but people I still don't trust
If I could I'd give you the world
Please just wait, I'll let you in, be my girl
I put up a front at the start
Because I was afraid to let you see my heart
I'm just trying to figure out who I am
I'm just trying to figure out where I stand
Because in this life you'll get lost
And people will forget you and you'll get tossed
I never had someone to believe in me
So I was blind to the different opportunities
But girl believe me you're the only one I see
**** these other girls, you're the one I want it to be
But tell me am I just convenient to you?
Am I just a toy for you?
What do you feel for me? I want to hear what's true
I feel like your just playing
But what you really feel you're not saying
And if you don't talk I'm not staying
Don't worry you won't see me crying
I'm losing my mind
I need some kind of sign
I know you're worth it
But I feel like we ain't workin

ring ring *ring
-Hello....
-I'm about to **** this guy
And he already knows why
I got my gun pointed at his head
All I got to do is pull the trigger and he's dead
But why I called you I don't know
Now I'm a hang up and let you go
I don't want you to hear the sound of the shot
And after I'm done I'm out the spot
Maybe head up north for a while
Find a new city, start a new life, stop acting so wild
Or maybe I want you to say something to stop me
Tell me when you look at me what do you see?
Am I a sinner or a saint
I'm tired of having all this pain on my plate
They say god will never give you more than you can handle
But it seems like his hand slipped on me tho
Now here I am with my gun pointed to his head
Pull the trigger and he's dead
Lifeless
Blindness
Because I'm the guy that's laying dead
Put the gun to my own head
POW!!!
-...............hello
*beep *beep *beep *beep *beep

Call me an old fashion man
I like holding my girls hand
I like spending time together
Talking about how the day went and the weather
I like going out on dates
I don't care if you take food from my plate
I like holding her when she's cold
Let her know that I'm there to keep her warm
I like telling her how my day went
How she listens to me when I need to vent
I like to hear her voice
How when she sees me she feels rejoice
How she tells me her story about how she grew up
How she dresses her self and puts on her makeup
How she comforts me when I'm feeling down
But I hate to see her frown
I love to buy her flowers
Her favorites are sunflowers
I love to surprise her with gifts
Out of the blue just get her a teddy bear with ribbons
She loves how I open doors for her
I love to show her off everywhere
Present her as the center of attention
Let everyone know she's mine, it's all about presentation
I'm not afraid to show affection
When she's afraid, I'll be her protection
Call me old fashion
But my woman is my passion

Hello poetry
You've saved my life endlessly
Hello poetry
You've changed me unknowingly
Hello poetry
You moved into my life so quietly
I saw the paper laying there
Picked up a pen and it came to me like air
Just started writing down how I felt
What life threw at me and what I had dealt
You took the pain away
You helped me get through my roughest days
You brought me back my sanity
My life felt like it had no vanity
I was lost in the darkness of the night
Till I found that pen and paper that became my light
Hello poetry
You saved my life..... poetically

Reminiscing
How did you get in? Now you're the on I'm missing
Pictures of you on my phone
Without you, this place doesn't feel like home
Remember our first kiss?
Under the moonlight, it was bliss
You became my novocain
But how did it go south? Who's to blame?
I did everything for you
To you I was honest and true
Can you say you where the same?
All you really cared about was fame
Trying to make something of yourself
But I guess I was in the way, now I'm by myself
But we where so happy
We where always laughing
You said you loved when I came around
But you kicked me like a rock on the ground
Tell me did it hurt you as much as it hurt me?
When you close your eyes, is it me you still see?
Do you wake up thinking I'm still there?
Is the pain to much to bear?
We didn't leave it on bad terms
But I still wish you where here in my arms
We wanted to go places
But we had different plans different races
You wanted to go one way when I wanted to go another
But the bond between us was breaking under the covers
Everytime we spent together
Every second of it I will treasure
I was ment for you and you where ment for me
But I guess it was all just bad timing
Maybe we'll meet again in the future
And my love for you will still be there

I know you've had some rough times
I know you've been with some ungrateful guys
But with me you don't have to worry
You'll always come first, when you call I'll be there in a hurry
I know you're scared to let some one new in
I know your heart wants me but your head thinks I'm lyin
You're confused, don't know if you should break that wall
But I'm here to catch you, I'll never let you fall
I hate to see you down
I'll do anything to take away your frown
I promise I won't ever take you for granted
I'm not the type of guy to take advantage
I too know what it's like to hurt
But I promise give me a chance, I'll give you all my heart
We don't have to rush into this
We can take our time let's start with just a kiss
I'll do anything for you, all that it takes
I'll be by your side I'm not like those snakes
If I give you my word then you know it's real
I'll back them up with my actions, you know the deal
I'm not gonna run from this
You've become my bliss
Even when we fight
I'll do anything to make it right
You pushed me to make me go away
Yet I'm still here because I'd rather stay
Believe me I'm afraid too
But I'm all in because I want you......

Always and forever yours,
I

Mama calling me telling me she don't see me no more
Pops telling me if I don't want to stay here then just go
Sisters asking me where I've been
Friends saying I need to hang out with them
Grandpa wants me to visit him
This girl I'm with isn't even my girl
But every minute I get I give to her
Most of my time is spent at work not livin
Days off I'm running errands
But I miss all my family and friends
Trying to make time but it's not enough
Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck
Taking breaks alone just thinking to myself like ****
Sometimes I feel like I'm running out of luck
All this just to make a quick buck
But it's not worth it
In the end it's all just *******
I've been stressing a lot lately
I just been thinking to much maybe