I feel so weak
I've lost the ability to speak
I want to tell someone
I want open arms and love
I want to cry and let it out
I want to scream and shout
I'm angry at the world
I'm angry at myself
How could I ever let this out
That I'm so weak
I can't make a sound
I can't move
I'm so weak
I run away
I avoid
When will I ever find my voice
I cry and die slowly inside
The memories hurt my mind
I just wanted a good night
I just wanted to live life
Work myself to death
Avoid the thoughts in my head
I wish to be dead
I want to run away
I want to cry in a safe place
I want to let this out
I have no mouth
I wish I never went
I wish I never knew him
I wish I would have just said no
I didn't have to go
I sit and I pine for some perfect life
But if it was perfect it wouldn't be mine
Broken and damaged
I can barely cry
I wish I could just close my eyes
Go to sleep and never wake
I'm so weak
I hate this place
This world so dark and cold
I wasn't meant to live
I want to die
Take my soul tonight
End the suffering
Take away the thoughts
I just want to be okay
Let me feel peace
End the memories
I don't want to feel weak

There's a hole in my heart that you created
I could try to ignore it but it wouldn't work
Even though we are through
I'll still be thinking about you
The love is gone but you were still my first
I'm sorry I only ever made **** worse
I loved you so deeply that my heart must've burst
And now I sit alone cursed
I miss us
I miss you
It's okay if you feel misused
I loved you and that's why this hurts
You lit up my life with three words
You lit up my eyes with your smile
You lit up my heart with your kiss
I don't think you understand how much you are missed
I wish I still loved you and I don't know why I don't
But everyday it haunts me like a ghost
You were my everything and I was yours
And now we're nothing
How could this world be so cruel
I had gotten so used to you
When you left I could see the pain in your eyes
The fade of your smile
I was left with nothing when you went
And I regret that like I regret not getting one last kiss
One last hug
One last goodbye
If only you could see the tears in my eyes
You would understand that you were my light
I said I love you and I swear I meant it
You helped me silent all my demons
You put my mind at ease
You filled me with so much happiness
Even now I still think about all the laughs we had
Oh how it hurts that you no longer call me babe
My name sounds so unfamiliar when you say it
I loved you so much that this hurts
You were the one who saw me at my worst
You picked me up when I fell down
I miss you carrying me around
If I could change all of this I would
If I could turn back time I would be in your arms
Even now I think what if
If I kiss you again will it all come back
All that love that we had
If I see you again will it all be fixed
It scares me the most because you are missed
But what if going backwards isn't there answer
But what if moving without you isn't either
I don't know which way to go
I screaming at God to tell me the answer
I miss your lips on my
And I miss those familiar eyes
Come back to me love just one last time
And I promise that I won't let you go tonight
I'll hold you in my arms and never let go
I've always needed you the most
I loved you so much
I miss your touch
Come back to me love
Let me kiss him again
Let this all be a nightmare to wake up from
I just want to see you again
To feel you again
I'm not ready for us to end like this

What if without you I simply don't exist
What if without you I truly can't forget
What if without you the hole in my heart doesn't heal
What if without you nothing seems to appeal
What if without you I can't even sing a song
What if without you my love is gone
What if without you I'm rotting away
What if without you I always cry at the end of the day
What if without you all I do is think
What if I'm not good without you
Maybe I'm just not good at not feeling no pain
What if I just sabotage my life away
What if I don't know what I feel
What if I need clarity because I'm lost in an empty field
I'm at a crossroads in life and I don't know where to go
I remember when you were my home
I would run to you every time I was scared
I would run to you and you were always there
And I move on and tell myself I'm fine
But what if I'm not right
What if I don't know anything anymore
What if I got so lost I can't even see the door
And the pills fix me up
They make me less broken
But hurts knowing I have to take a drug just to keep going
And I keep thinking what if
What if we were meant to be
What if it was our destiny
I don't know the answers
Don't expect that from me
All I know is the what it's cloud me
All I know is it hurts to say goodbye
All I know is I think about us at night
I think about us when that love song comes on
And I can't help but wonder
What if I'm wrong
I don't think this is how I'll get the answer
I need to explore us one last time
If you're not okay with it that's fine
But what if I never know if I don't try
What if I need to see your eyes
What if I need to see your face
What if I need your kiss
I don't know what is my life
But I remember when you were the only thing that felt right
I don't know where this went wrong
But I miss you when that song comes on
I miss you when I pass that show
Oh I just got to know
I have to know if we were what's right
I have to know before I give up on us this time
Cause what if I live my whole life through and never find a guy like you

The world is cold I feel it and shiver
Trapped and alone in this endless winter
Out of control trying to see my way through this blizzard
White all around
Blinding my eyes
I can't see the ones I love most
Calling their names
I don't think they can hear me
Where did they go?
Why did they leave me?
Trapped and alone in this endless blizzard
White all around blinding me from everything and everyone
My eyes are clouded
I see nothing
No one is around
No one can hear my cries
I pushed them away
So it won't hurt when I die
It's no longer cold
I'm trapped in a void
I forgot my name
I can't seem to remember
I don't know who I am
Who I was
Who I loved
What it was like to live
I wonder if I wanted this
I'm stuck and all my thoughts and memories are gone
The girl standing in the darkness doesn't know but we finally found peace
We're finally home

I wish to be missed but not dwelled upon
I wish to be kissed but not for long
For when I go please just say goodbye
Don't let the tears flow out of your eyes
Let me go this last final time
Miss me for the times we sang
But don't miss the way my head used to hang
Miss me when our favorite song comes on
Think of me as you sing along
Remember that I loved you so deeply
Please don't remember our fights
See me as strong for how long I held on
Miss me because I was here not because I'm gone
Miss me today and tomorrow
Just don't let it be with sorrow
Hang your head to the sky and smile when I cross your mind
As the wind passes you by think of it as my soft kiss of goodbye
Remember the golden days we enjoyed
Remember when we were filled with joy
Remember how I loved you
Know now that I'm free
I'm free of the pain that was inside of me
Miss me and say your peace
I'll still listen to you speak
Know that I'm still there with you now
Take that deep breath out
Miss me when I'm gone
But learn to move on

I sit by this tree that can see
It watches me
It knows about the times where I have broken down and cried
It has watched me fall through the cracks of this world
It has been been torn apart and ignored
It knows of my family struggles
Though it can not hear it knows so much of my life
It has seen the scars on my body
It has seen the internal struggle with myself
It has observed me through all my years
I have always sat by this that could see
I've seen the sympathy in those eyes
Though it can't talk it comforts me
It consoles me with the soft look in its eyes
Yes this tree can not do many things but it seems me
I wish I knew it like it knew me
But had noticed much about this tree
All I know is that it sees me
It understands my pain
I wish this tree could talk
I wish it could tell me its okay
I wish this tree could hear so it could listen to me complain
But all this time that I sat by the tree
I never thought about the pain this tree must feel
To always comfort others
To remain strong for those in need
To be my back support when I lean
Come the fall it loses those beautiful leaves
And when I'm gone those eyes weep
The tree is all alone
No one ever thought about the tree
We passed it day by day and never gave it another thought
The tree finally dies
And finally we realized how much we loved that tree
No one helped that poor tree that could see
The tree with eyes carried a burden everyone with eyes could never see

Thoughts rushing in
All clouded together
All negative thoughts
******* clouds covering the sun
No light peaks in
I no longer know the sun exists
These thoughts rain down on me
Lightning flashes
Thunder roars
My head hurts
My ears ring
My eyes are so used to darkness light now hurts my eyes
Crying inside
Being drowned by the rain
I'm all alone in this never ending storm
Wishing I had someone to help clear this storm
Time keeps moving
As I lay still in this never ending storm
I close my eyes and feel the rain
As it begins to flood I drown
Lightning hits the water
This storm is violent
I can't escape the storm
Few moments of tranquility come
I lay at ease waiting for the storm to come again
Knowing I can not be protected from this storm
I can't hide from the storm
I can only hide from you
I can only lie to you
I say I'm fine to you
But the truth is the storm is raging
And I can't escape it
I can do nothing but wait in the rain
Wait in the storm
Hoping one day it'll be over
But not believing it'll never be over
This storm is my curse
I've lived with it forever
I got rid of it for awhile but it's back and I can't tell you
I don't know how to explain
It all sounds stupid
This storm is the worst
I cry waiting for help
But no one is coming
I'm alone in the storm
With no shelter
It keeps pouring rain down on me
My clothes are soaked
Wishing lightning will hit and take me away
Make me numb
Make me gone
This storm is unbearable
But here I am
All alone
In this storm
With no shelter
Rain pouring down fast
Thunder roaring
Lightning strikes
Down I go without a fight