Seeing the torment
Savoring the grief
Smelling the anguish
The thing under this skin prowls
Aged
Immortally blissful
******
Bitter liquid down my gullet
Its gullet
Its body
What happened
Between this mirror switching face?
I don't remember having steel gray eyes
The skin on my knuckles breaking
Nails sharpened
Senses heightened
Canines elongated
I thought
That if I had shattered this mirror
I could keep the beast in
Keep it from your eyes
But in shattering this mirror
I let it out
And it came right through my skin
An arrow tipped in blood bane
A clouded fume of smoke surrounded my eyes
And when I woke up
I saw myself
Every part
Presented every thing done on a silver platter
Good
Bad
Horrendous
Things that should never see the light of day
Golden bells chiming the good things that I've done
Singing long forgotten praises
In a lilting reminisced language
Sapphire tears cutting paths along my unmarred skin
Blood twining down
Dancing along to the rhythm of the song
Sitting
Collapsing is more like it
Snow gliding up around me in a cloud
White dust
Not exactly as addicting as the drug
I take it all in turning it over
In quivering palms
After all of these years
Of fighting my own self
I've finally learned how to love it all
A little more everyday
Iron glints
Nails smooth
Rounding out
Canines go back
To a reduced size and a reduced time
I look back into the mirror and see myself
Today I own a little bit more of my beast