Her shoulders are broad
Her feet are wide
Her heart is where
I wish to reside

Her back is strong
Her hips are roomy
She's where I run to
When feeling gloomy

Her hair is coarse steel
Her hands large and rough
Her smile my beacon
Her laugh bold and gruff

Her height astounds me
Her love surrounds me
She's my one treasure
She'll be mine forever

As I got deeper
and darker
into the game,
I found that
playing became
my one aim.

I love carrying
a destructive secret
around with me,
until I realized
I wasn't playing alone.
It can be deadly
to share such secrets.
That's a level
of trust that's
risky to give another!

BUT games
are meant to
have players!
So I hold my
skepticism at bay,
I will rely on
the other players
discretion, as I
know they are
depending on mine...

So I dive deeper,
I'll let it burn
darker.....
I'll let the secrets
edge their way
to the surface,
then bury them
again..... in
deception...

I will carry on
in the game
until I can't;
until the danger
is immediate and
I can find no way
of escaping....
BUT I shall
never resign.
I've sacrificed
so much,
there is too much
at stake to lose!

I know this is wrong
but so very right;
this makes no sense
still so perfect.
This connection.
This comfort.
This breath.
This pain.
There's no fear.
There's no doubt.
There's only this.
Where you start,
where I end
is unknown.
It's there
where we
should be.
Where we are.
This will never end.
This is simply us.
Only us!
So very right!

His voice ripples through me
it vibrates in my belly
it rips through my soul
leaving me without control

His flawless tones
beat about my ribs
as he tells his tale
his magic never fails

His whispers in the dark
turn me senseless
as I drown so deeply
giving in to his echoes joyfully

I'm tightly wrapped up in him
like plush smooth satin
waiting for his next velvety sound
both satisfied and spellbound

You think you want to see
the who I am behind my veil
that truth is a long held tale
My reasons to cover and conceal
come from years of lonely pain
an ever present hidden strain
You think I should remove
my mask and reveal myself to you
as if it would be so easy to do
I step into my disguise
it's my choice and I choose to hide
should I be concerned with your pride
You think I need to trust you more
once before I let myself be free
and was exposed to doom and misery
If I mean anything to you
accept that I am the cloak in the crowd
allow me the security of my plain shroud

his skin like velvet
as my fingers glide over
we are connected
feeling each ridge and hollow
giving sweet heat and joy

When did it happen
When did I abandon ME!

When did I just surrender
When did I lose my character

My heart breaks from blame
When did my life become a game

My belly aches for change
It thunders and rolls, so strange

My conscience howls
As my soul growls

How do I find ME again
It will be my chance when

I have to find contentment
Even if that means a derailment

the taste of knowledge
like a deep dark chocolate
leaving a silky
philosophy to caress
the inner depths of reason

we don't speak of it
it lies between us like sand
gritty and profuse
any movement shifts the dune
so we remain motionless

a perfect match
we don't need to try
your kisses, oh, my

we are us

an ideal fit
why wonder why
your heart beats, I sigh

us we are

our souls unite
we love as we lie
you echo my cry

I 'n' You

How do you
choose
either one or
the other;
when neither
can save you,
why should
you bother.
Whether you
can wait
for another
that may be
in the future
farther,
would that
even matter?
Perhaps you
would rather
wither than
smother!!

woe still lives here
the influence of misery
hangs in the air,
gloom is right there

woe hits me as I awake
another day with agony
sorrow has its sway
alas, It stays

woe I feel bleak and blue
darkness shadows me
with an unseen force
upon my days course

woe I'm followed with doom
my life of angst
has a mighty hold
which leaves me alone and cold

The way I feel
I can not define
I don't want to
analyze or judge
I don't wish to
spurn nor slight
these feelings,
these pleasures
I've come to
rely on them
to count them
my delights--
our passions
emotions shared

So I'll just feel;
welcome and accept
permit and give
with my heart open
with my  soul willing

demand obedience
of me whilst my
adoration
showers over you

devour my soul
with your longing
while I smother
your spirit

destroy my trust
with your silence
then I'll slaughter
your heart
with my touch

I am daring you
to ignore me

a statue with no head
a woman with no voice
both ogled after
both wondered of

one is insignificant
one made invalid
both remain silent
both testifications
......of bigotry

both holding the powers
......of humanity
......of hatred
......of censure
both holding back
the crowds
with their consequences

I got burned
maybe it was my turn
my life had run so simple
with barely a dimple
I trust too much
maybe I'm out of touch
I am just too kind
perhaps a bit blind
I had to realize
people marginalize
I must accept
there is always debt
no matter the cause
I'll give myself pause
still I will be gracious
others might be mendacious
but I must not falter
nor alter my character
I shall stay who I am
I shall love who I am

today
was so brutal
the world exploded blood
body parts in the flood
hope is lethal
let's pray

tonight
there was no moon
dark skies will seal the doom
such waste seen in the gloom
"will this pass soon"
he writes

maybe
come tomorrow
there won't be any hate
or a world, at this rate
too much sorrow
let's plea

every minute
I waste
every hour
I consider
      &
still you're
not here
every day
you make
me wait
each month
I reexamine
your hold
each year
I need to
wander
how much
can I take
something
just has to
break

what is it about a scent
that can knock us off our feet
or can raise our body heat

the smell of a lover's skin
seduces us so deep
then comforts us to sleep