Yolanda

Yolanda Aug 2019

I pictured me and you & smiled
Your skin brushing up against mine
Felt like a thousand fireworks on a 4th of July night
Waking up next to you, the epitome of heaven...
I could do this forever
I thought

If only I didn’t wake up and you were different ...

I was different ...

Suddenly the thought of forever scares me more than the silence of being alone
Your touch hurts... like a fire set on my skin..
Burning to the depths of my soul
Your words cut me deeper than a double edged sword
Your love has become a thorn in my flesh

If only this was just a dream...

I could do this forever I thought...

Forever seems a really long time.. but that wouldn’t matter as my body is being lowered 6ft underground

I guess I can say in death I finally escaped from you.

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To contact someone you can phone at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233), or 1-800-787-3224 (TTY).

That is a domestic violence hotline ☝️. Men let’s protect our women & women lets do the same for our men.

#love #relationships #nships #domesticviolence #abuse #nomeansno

Yolanda Jul 2019

Where do you come from?

Where do you come from?

Do I come from the land of my forefathers
Or am I the daughter of the soil

Nourished by the land of which I’m taught to toil

Or maybe I am a daughter of the moon connected in spirit

Where do you come from they ask?..

I am the daughter of a self employed man

I dare say from my mother’s womb

Where do you come from they ask...

A little planet called earth

I am a human..

A girl that grew into a woman

I am the daughter of the soil

Dipped in melanin,

I come from a land that flows with milk & honey

Africa my beloved
My heart
My home
This is who I am.

#people #soil #humanity #questions #existence

Yolanda Jul 2019

It’s all just a temporary feeling, fleeting anyway.

The only thing I’ve ever known to love was you
The only person who ever came close to loving me was you

& now I stare up at the big blank canvas of the night
With stars so vast they speak to us in their loneliness ...
Twinkle twinkle little star.. how sad yet so beautiful
I think I just might howl at the moon let my feelings out..
Looking all around me not a soul in sight
Inside my heart lays hallow
But I won’t wallow

It’s all just a temporary feeling,
fleeting anyway.

#sad #lonely #feels #love #relationships

Yolanda May 2019

I don’t know you.

You left like I wasn’t reason to stay
Not being heartless I’m just using my heart less

All I wanted was your time but that was a crime

Wrapped up in misery you became a mystery
Two peas in a pod estranged from one another
Almost inevitable
All you had to do was stay.

#emotion #heartfelt #deep #relationships #estranged

Yolanda Mar 2019

Lost...

I feel so lost...
I need to find myself
By myself, spinning
Spiraling out of control..

What is that sound I hear?
A voice...
A whisper in the dark..
It says my name, I hear it
Like a rushing wind I feel it

But.. but I don’t see anything
It laughs mockingly
Toying with my emotions slowly...

Lost.

I need to find myself...

#lonely #lost #emotions #moving

Yolanda Aug 2018

See you, see me, see us.

See you,
See me,
See us.

See nothing...
Feel nothing...

Only what was,
What we hoped we could be,
& what we never were

Oh how I wish we could go back to what we were
What we had
What we shared...

See you
See me
See us...
Do we really mean nothing at all?

#heartbreak #poetry #writing #seeyouseemeseeus