Eindeinne Moon: Poems

=)

Eindeinne Moon Apr 6

=)

Save some money for yourself, so when things get rough, it will be easier for you to leave in a situation you don't want

>°<

Eindeinne Moon Feb 21

>°<

I respect those people who defended my name without my presence
Even if they talk ***** stuffs in the table
Respect is no longer served
For those who ruined my name

;)

Eindeinne Moon Apr 6

;)

Know when to leave the table, when respect is no longer served :)

:(

Eindeinne Moon Mar 7

:(

we keep playing these mind games
whether I should stay or not
I am like a bird in a locked cage
shackled feet, strangled neck
covered mouth
toxic traits, manic behavior
split personality
call the hotline, he is severe
worst of all
I run away from the truth
scared of a little truth or dare
I wanna leave but I can't
been keep on making the same mistakes
no character development
no personal growth
the other one leaves, another one stays
but the first one is the guy I loved not the latter

#realization #toxic #traits

:)

Eindeinne Moon Mar 18

:)

I said it before, but now, I'll only say it once
So you better listen carefully to me

Stop, whatever the hell you are doing right now
Aren't you feeling a bit of shame or plaint towards us?
Are you really that indecisive to cause too much drama?
I get it, you love the thrill, the drama, the attention- name it
You love it when other people invest their time in your nonsense

At this point, I don’t even know what to call you—disreputable, notorious, shameless, or just a meek scandalous mess, desperately clinging to drama like it’s the only thing giving you purpose.

But here’s the thing—your act? It’s tired, predictable, and frankly, not worth anyone’s time anymore.

So, if you’re waiting for us to keep playing along—don’t. We’re done.

And one more thing—

You can twist the story, paint yourself as the victim, and spin lies until you’re breathless. But the truth? It always finds a way out. And when it does, don’t expect anyone to stick around and clean up the mess you’ve made.

We’ve given you more patience than you deserve—consider this our final courtesy.

So go ahead, stir the *** if it makes you feel important. But don’t mistake our silence for weakness. We’re not biting anymore.

And when the dust settles?

Don’t come crawling back, acting like you’re innocent—like you didn’t burn every bridge on your way down. We see you for what you are now—a chaos addict, feeding off the drama because, without it, what else do you have?

But here’s the truth you can’t outrun: Eventually, even the loudest noise fades. And when your little spectacle loses its audience, you’ll be left with nothing but the wreckage you caused.

So keep playing your games if it makes you feel alive. Just know—this is where we walk away.

And when that silence finally hits you—when there’s no one left to react, no one left to care—you’ll realize something.

All the lies, the manipulation, the chaos you stirred? It wasn’t power. It wasn’t control. It was desperation—a pathetic attempt to matter in a world that’s already moved on without you.

Because here’s the part you never understood—real strength doesn’t need an audience. And while you were busy performing, we outgrew the show.

So enjoy the spotlight while it lasts. But when it fades—and it will—don’t expect to find us waiting in the wings.

We’ve already left the theater.

The curtains are closed. The lights are out. And guess what? The popcorn’s gone too—because no one’s sticking around for an encore.

Your little spectacle? It’s over. No standing ovation. No applause. Just an empty stage and the echo of everything you ruined trying to play the lead.

So, take your final bow—if that’s what you need. But don’t mistake this for a break between acts.

The show's done. And we’ve left the building.

🌊

Eindeinne Moon Apr 7

🌊

You have the waves of the sea writ on your skin—stretch marks.

👀

Eindeinne Moon Mar 17

👀

For your information, my eyes were never sweet to look at.
You might get scared, so don’t you dare look at me like that.

Oh, my dear, sad black eyes—
They can light up the moment I see you again.
But don’t expect an apology when these sweet, innocent eyes
Shift into the fierce gaze of an eagle.

🙏

Eindeinne Moon Mar 19

🙏

March has been so tough towards me—but still, I made my way out alive, because I know God is with me and He will never make me feel or experience sufferings if I cannot handle it

🤭

Eindeinne Moon Apr 17

🤭

Don't mix pleasure with pain, it might **** you wanting to be alive inside him.

🦋

Eindeinne Moon 2d

🦋

I was like a moth drawn to a flame
A social butterfly for some
But a caterpillar stuck in a cocoon for others
**** me up like a deer in the headlights
Not thinking straight,
running away is the only solution
To get out of this ******* life
Some tamed me like a lion in a den
Get lost or win some
Like this poem has no sense at all,
I tried to tell it to myself
Best believe it, I know.

🧿

Eindeinne Moon Apr 23

🧿

Match your energy
with someone that has the same energy as you.

Never force it. You will get tired.
Just let the vibe flow.
If you click, it will.

🙂🙃

Eindeinne Moon Mar 27

🙂🙃

So what if the degree you graduated with isn’t the job you have now? I earned my degree as a Secondary Teacher, major in English, yet I chose to work as a Safety Officer.

Never be afraid of baseless criticism from others. If your job allows you to live and provide for your family, that’s what truly matters. Don't be ashamed if your salary is small—at least your job is honest and respectable. Never be embarrassed about your work if it’s what keeps you going and provides for you.

🤭🤫

Eindeinne Moon Apr 7

🤭🤫

When you show too much skin, you're labeled as flirty.

When you're conservative with your clothing, you're called uptight.

When you're loud, you're accused of over sharing.

When you're quiet and keep to yourself, you're deemed introverted.

When you wear too much makeup, you're judged as trying too hard.

When you wear less makeup, you're criticized for looking plain.

When you stand up for yourself, you're seen as disrespectful.

When you ignore others' opinions, you're branded a snob.

Do what you love. Love what you do.

A lot of people will still say anything about you regardless of what you do. So you do you and love yourself.

🌞⛈️

Eindeinne Moon 6d

🌞⛈️

To my partner during sunny days,
We will always be happy together.
But when storms may come, waves may rise and the sunny day may hide behind the stormy clouds
We never understood each other based on the noisy banters we throw at each other.
You gaslight me of things I never said, manipulate me of things I never did
Worse of all, I never understood myself during the anxieties of the weather
Life was too short to come by,
time too limited to be wasted
I never noticed the tears that fell from my eyes
When my heart was too heavy to carry the hurt and burden I felt deep within me
My mind bursts into chaos
Too stressed to overthink of things in life we have no control of
Promises are only inside our palms, curled empty-handed
Color me intrigue of the stuffs I used to do
And cutting my hair has become a habit of mine
To relieve stress...

📜✍️

Eindeinne Moon Apr 3

📜✍️

I do not need a therapist—
Poetry is all I need.
Since it is my unpaid therapist;
Where the world's perspective of me is the contentment of my experience
Hence, Hello Poetry is my freedom wall, so to speak.

🌟🌟🌟

Eindeinne Moon Mar 3

🌟🌟🌟

Too bad, I keep falling for a **** boy who doesn't know know better
Too bad, he keeps on coming back to me
I get to roast him whenever I want
Because honey, I am the writer and you are just a content.

🐍🎭🤡

Eindeinne Moon Mar 16

🐍🎭🤡

Be careful what you wish for— you just wanted me dead
A price on the eyes, a bounty cash for the meek

You gave me lies, I gave deception in return
You gave fire, I burn you in return

Be careful what you act now— for actions speak louder than words.

You're like a hunter, observing my every move
I'm like the prey, waiting to be devoured
You're wrong, honey
I ain't the prey, I am the predator

You barked on the wrong tree
You keep beating around the bush now

Enough is enough, you gave me hurt
I'll give you the taste of your own medicine in return.

I hope you like what you see
When you envision yourself in a coffin
Or what if you are covered in dirt already
To be found six feet below the ground

Take your pick, play your cards right
If looks can ****, you'd be dead by now
Because in the back of my mind, I thought to myself the different techniques on how I am going to **** you
In the four corners of the room, you can barely make it out alive

What if I cut you open, bleed you dry
Peel your skin off, let me see you suffer
I don't care if I am the ******, because you are the pathetic, desperate *****
How about I stitch up your wound without an anesthesia?
What if you walk on the valley of the shadow of death with no slippers on
And every aisle you walk on feels like a burning coal, flaming hot
And at the end of the road, is an abyss waiting for you to fall
Get that **** inside your head now, reflect and meditate on what you did bad to me
You messed with the wrong person, gal

So step back now, while I am still kind
This is not a reminder, darling
This is a warning, not to cross paths with me again.

#revenge #kind #hurt #pain

👌👌👌

Eindeinne Moon Mar 17

👌👌👌

Calling the attention of the people who ruined me—face yourself in the mirror, fitted for Hell.
You, who ruined my peace—Let us wait for the right time, in God's will and right timing;
While, as I waited, I sat on my couch, sipping a coffee or smoothie, when the tables turned, for you to experience the same pain and trauma you did and put me through.
When you come back crawling to me, I will make sure to burn the bridges, for you to never cross once again.
I will make sure that when I blink— only once, not twice, and look you in your **** eyes
I will make you sweat coldly, as you run out of breath and make you feel like a deer in the headlights.
Fear me for I growl and it makes you shiver and flinch.

💪💪💪

Eindeinne Moon Apr 2

💪💪💪

I prefer physical abuse—
Because even if scars remain, you may forget it,
I do not prefer verbal abuse—
Because tongues have no bones, but it can stab you like a knife
And you may never forget it.

📝📝📝

Eindeinne Moon Mar 17

📝📝📝

Maybe E.A. Poe is my idol—Or rather a favorite Because I get my inspiration from him.
Oh well, Annabel Lee, My aunt is no Annabel Lee.
We neither have to experience The Fall of the House of Usher,
Nor wander in the shadows of The Raven's lore.
There’s no Tell-Tale Heart beneath my floor
Nor do we tremble at The Masque of the Red Death's door.
We shan't endure The Pit and the Pendulum's sway,
Or face The Black Cat's ominous gaze.
The horrors of The Cask of Amontillado are far from view
As are the riddles of The Murders in the Rue Morgue, too.
"Is there—is there balm in Gilead?—tell me—tell me, I implore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

🤡🤡🤡

Eindeinne Moon Mar 16

🤡🤡🤡

Do you know that?
I made fun of you
You're no comedy, you're just you
Goofy but trying hard, copycat
Too desperate to try
You're that clown, not from a circus town
But instead, I visualize you as the clown with the red balloon named Pennywise from Derry, Maine
You are such a stupid person to make fun of
Yeah, you deserve it
You are still funny, even if you never try
You're a classic *****

🤭🤭🤭

Eindeinne Moon Mar 17

🤭🤭🤭

Your son will be the death of you— remember that, remember that
Oh wait, I forgot
Because when you literally walk around town
You do not have a brain in your head

Clueless as **** now, are we?
You keep telling people **** about us
When you feel so clean and pure

How hypocrite! All of them know what the truth is now
Stop blaming us for the ******-up life of your son
Clean your own mess, stop letting us clean your own mess

As for your son, directors and scriptwriters would be so proud of him
For creating such a ******* brilliant masterpiece
He could be featured in one of the news, or write stories for films
I could cry while I applaud for him— crocodile tears and flowery words won't work on me this time
He could prepare a speech, I'd prepare for a eulogy for him
He could receive a bouquet from one of his fans, I could give him a funeral wreath, saying "Condolence to the bereaved family"
Because I'd love to see you in your deathbed, covered in blood, stabbed in different parts of your body
One million—not a pocket money or a spot cash but rather, stabbed wounds
Slitted throat, fractured bones;
Sawed limbs and gouged eyes.

I dreamed of it, to be this gothic
And you, my dear, is my main prospect
But I ain't the suspect or the mastermind
I am the victim, for this ******* of yours

Time will come, your first hurrah and laughs, will be my last hurrah and laughs.
Mark my words, be careful with your life
Because one day, you might not wake up alive next day.

🦋🦋🦋

Eindeinne Moon Apr 2

🦋🦋🦋

I may be quiet, but that does not mean, I am not hurt
I may never be a social butterfly, but I can see everything—a keen observer, perhaps.

I may never react at times, if I chose to be quiet, it's just I got so tired to explain everything to these close-minded people.

🌑🌒🌓🌔🌗🌘🌙

Eindeinne Moon Mar 25

🌑🌒🌓🌔🌗🌘🌙

Just like the moon, we are both comparable as imperfect—like its phases. Amidst that, you have loved me beyond my imperfections.

10 things I love about you, love

Eindeinne Moon Apr 15

10 things I love about you, love

You are my comfort.
In everything—
In chaos and calm, in the mess and the peace—
You are my safe place.

2. You’ve never failed to make me feel loved and appreciated.
Not even once.
Not even on the days I didn’t feel worthy of it.

3. With you, I never feel alone.
Never ignored.
Your presence makes me feel seen, heard, and understood.
You’ve never made me feel invisible—you always made sure I was okay.

4. You always understand my pain.
You feel it before I even say a word.
Whether I’m sad, happy, scared, excited, or anything in between—
You match my emotions with your presence.
Even on the worst and best days, you were there.
Always.

5. You make everything feel special.
Even the simplest things—
Street food dates, thrift store strolls, window shopping at the mall,
or just sitting together on a park bench—
with you, it all feels magical.

6. You always listen.
You never make my rants feel like a burden.
You make me feel heard—
like what I say matters to you.
You listen not just with your ears, but with your heart.

7. You make me feel safe.
Always.
You make sure I get home safe.
Even during the smallest errands, you’re right there beside me,
never letting me feel alone or vulnerable.

8. You respect me.
You never force me to do anything I’m uncomfortable with.
You always ask, always check in,
making sure that whatever we do—it’s always with consent and care.

9. You make time.
Rain or shine.
No ifs, no buts, no excuses.
If you say you’ll see me, you show up—always.

10. And finally, we are compatible.
You’re like my mirror.
My twin soul. My better half.
Being with you feels like meeting the male version of myself.
It feels right.
It feels like destiny—
That someday, it’ll be you I’ll walk toward,
at the end of the aisle.

21.24 (11-13-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

21.24 (11-13-21)

Age does not matter
Inner beauty does matter
Outer beauty does not
Personality matters most

I love the way you touch my hand
I know it is your command
Love me more than I deserve
Cause I will love you more than what you deserve.

<|3

Eindeinne Moon Apr 2

<|3

when confidence & hope slowly turns into doubts and fears—

You're not alone.

You are free to run away. Express your worries, your problems. Never be silent.

when emotions rise like waves—
Remember to keep the calm before the storm;
let it all in and breathe, then out you go

32°C

Eindeinne Moon Apr 12

32°C

Heat wave— soft launch to hell, is it?
Free trial, so my sister says.
Bring the ice cream out— because we are bound to take things colder.

4rg10 memory

Eindeinne Moon Apr 19

4rg10 memory

you knew,
I knew.
we knew each other for 25 years,
but in a single blow, I forgot about you
I forgot that you were even my cousin
I forgot that you even existed.

I could look at you right now
like I never knew you
that even at the back of my mind
I was planning, plotting for revenge
thinking of ways on ******* you
in different ways,
or how many stab wounds will it take
for you to die.

but it was all a blur.
a memory I declined to act upon.

4rg3t

Eindeinne Moon Mar 28

4rg3t

you thought I never really forgotten it, I forgave you but I never really got the chance to forget it.

it never really left. It was just there. I might remember it but the feelings and emotions were gone.

#trauma

6-13-22 (10-10-22)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

6-13-22 (10-10-22)

Ikaw ang simula at ang wakas
Panahon man ay lumipas
Sa iyong yakap ako’y walang takas
Aking pag-ibig sa iyo ay wagas

Ang ating pagmamahalan sa isa’t isa
Lumiliwanag nang parang mga tala
Hindi ko ninanais na ikaw ay magtaka
Huwag ka nang mag-abala pa

Ikaw ang kinang sa ‘king mga mata
Ikaw at ako’y iisa
Ikaw ang laman ng bawat pahina
Ang pamagat sa aking tula

Ang musika sa aking kanta
Kung ang pag-ibig ko sa iyo, sinta
Ay magiging isang sumpa
Habangbuhay akong manunumba sa dambana

Ayokong lumayo sa’yo
Ikakalungkot ng puso ko
Ika'y aking naging mundo
Sa iyo, mahal ay ako'y natutuliro

Hawakan mo lamang ang aking kamay
Ikaw lamang ang aking pipiliin sa habangbuhay
Ang aking minahal ng tunay
Ang makamit ka ay isang tagumpay

Ikaw ang aking biyaya
Ang dumating nang kusa
Ikaw ay mahalaga
Huwag kang mag-alala

Ikaw ay minamahal kong talaga
Ang aking puso'y sa iyo mas sumasaya
Ikaw ang aking dinalangin sa Poong Maykapal
Ang hinintay ko nang kaytagal

9-13-22 (9-13-22)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

9-13-22 (9-13-22)

I didn't expect for you to arrive so soon
What I felt was so over the moon
When I met you, it was something special
This love was rather emotional or sentimental

Seeing you smile and happy made my day complete
While holding my hand or hugging me made my heart beat
Our blissful nights are for *******
And our glory mornings are for *******

What would life be without you?
Would life be worth living without you?

All my better days are the ones spent with you
I would never finish falling in love with you
And in the middle of my mess and chaos, there was you
Baby, your arms felt like home

With you, it will always feel like coming home
Then and now, my heart made its choice and it chose you

When I'm with you, I always forget my problems and sorrows
Only you can make me smile even in my lowest of lows
And only you is proud enough to love and accept me
Right before we became lovers

I knew that we were meant to be together
That you belong with me

I just wanna give the love you never had
I just wanna see you being glad
No more room for loneliness
I hope with me is where you would find your long lost happiness

AC <3 AD (10-15-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

AC <3 AD (10-15-21)

I like it when you smile
I get so happy
When you talk to me
Even just for a while

You remember little details of me
Your Mom was so much closer to me
I wonder how you would feel
That this feeling I feel is real

I have prayed so hard to God
That You would come along my way
I knew it was the will of God
For me to hear you say

Just stay, stay here with me
Even just for today
I want you to see
That you're the only one for me

Your eyes were like stars
Look how they shine so bright
When you look at me
When you stare at me

Your voice is like an angel I long to hear
Right now, I wish you were here
Who knows what I fear?
To slip you away, my dear

It was like my whole world's already in front of me
It was like my answered prayers' already in front of me
You are like a distant star
Look how you shine so bright

Save me, save me from drowning
I'm slowly falling
Falling deep into you
Falling deep into an ocean of love

And I am deeply in love
Deeply in love with you

I'm afraid to lose you
Even though you're not even mine
But I'll be fine
It's just that I am missing you

Every love song reminds me of you
Loving you was like breathing
But never interested enough to stop breathing
Cause every beat of my heart is calling you

Adrian. (11-9-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Adrian. (11-9-21)

I think he already knows
Because I told him so
He just took what I said for granted
I thought I was all that he wanted

Ooh, I lost myself
Chasing after you
I lost myself
Looking for you

But then, you just ignored me
Yet you just seem uninterested in me
Oh, you wanted me to be
I never wanted to be

But I never lose you
You lost me
I never lost you
Cause you just let me

Go, oh, let me go
Oh, Adrian
You just let me go
Oh, Adrian

A face that launched a thousand ships

Eindeinne Moon Mar 27

A face that launched a thousand ships

Cut it, rip it apart—
That is how I want to end you.
You and your "Dora" bangs are quite unpredictable to begin with.
Insult me, and I bite back;
I won't think twice before breaking your wings.

Go easy on me now, or else
You'll never blink twice when your fate ends here.

******, you say—
You're acting like it's happening just now.
Is your radar not working? Maybe you've lost all power to control me.

Look at yourself in the mirror—you see
I am no longer like you, dog.

Careful now, silver tongue. Hold that thought.
Our tongues have no bones—
But they break souls apart,
Like a thousand knives waiting to stab you.

Do you want that to happen to you?
I hope not, because I never even wished for it to happen anyway.

Let karma do its job, and I might clap back after.

I consider you the Helen of our family—
That face of yours launched a thousand ships,
Waiting to devour you.

a$$hole

Eindeinne Moon Apr 6

a$$hole

Don't scare the **** out of me now—Because I might send you back to where you actually came from.

You thought a little kiss and tell would hurt me—Nah. I was never wired for that. I was programmed like I am some kind of robot, but they failed to do so. You see, I am not easily brainwashed by anyone.

You thought I need you, no. You need me. Period. I don't need anything less ******* coming from you, you got something you need from me—and that's it.

A little debt of gratitude can help you get by—but it seems that paying you for a lifetime comes with a price. An unpaid debt doesn't always work like that, honey.

Aking mahal, minamahal at mamahalin (2-11-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Aking mahal, minamahal at mamahalin (2-11-21)

Singkislap ng mga tala ang iyong mga mata
Sa tuwing ikaw ay nakatingin sa akin
Sa tuwing tayo ay magkasama
Anong saya aking nadarama

Di ko maipaliwanag
Sadyang aking mundo’y lumiliwanag
Ibubulong ko na lamang sa hangin
Ang aking nararamdaman na hindi ko maamin

Aking mahal, sana ay ikaw na nga
Ang aking makakasama hanggang sa pagtanda
Sana ay ako lamang ang iyong mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal

Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
At ikaw lamang ang aking mamahalin
Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal, minamahal at mamahalin, sinta
At wala nang iba pa

Hindi man kita kasama araw man o gabi
Walang ibang papalit sa’yo dito sa puso ko
Ikaw lamang ang aking gustong makatabi
At sa iyo lamang umiikot aking mundo

Saksi ang Panginoon sa ating pagmamahalan
Dahil alam niyang sa iyo ako nakalaan
Ito ang iyong pakatatandaan
Na kahit ako ay magkamali man, pangakong hindi kita sasaktan

Singdami nang mga tala ang mga taon
Na gustong tayo ang magkasama hanggang sa huli
Kahit na tayo man ay magkalayo ngayon
Alam kong makakasama’t mahahagkan kitang muli

Sana ay pagbigyan ng panahon
Kahit sa gabi lamang ikaw ay makatabi

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon
Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal
Mula noon hanggang ngayon

Ikaw lamang ang aking mahal
Ang aking minamahal
At aking pipiliing mamahalin
Sana ay ako rin

Aking sinta (11-01-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Aking sinta (11-01-21)

Sa gilid ng aking mga mata
Hinahayaan kitang pagmasdan
Para kang mga tala sa kalangitan
Na lumiliwanag gaya ng iyong mga mata

Wala na palang saysay ang aking pagtingin
Kung hindi naman ako ang hinahanap mo
Kung hindi pala ako ang pinapangarap mo
Mahirap man kasing aminin

Ang matagal ko nang gustong sabihin
Na ikaw lamang ang aking minimithi
Ang aking hinihiling
Puwede bang ako na lang

Tayo na lang
Ako na lang ang piliin mo
Tayo nalang ang magsama
Tayo na lang ang magmahalan, aking sinta

Oh, hindi ko maitanggi
Na ako sa iyo ay may lihim na pagtingin
Kusa kitang hiniling
Sana nga ay ako na ang gusto **** makasama

Mahal na mahal kita
Hindi kita iiwanan
Hindi papabayaan, lagi kang iingatan
Aalagaan, Oh aking sinta

Alam ko (11-11-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Alam ko (11-11-21)

Alam kong hindi ang pangalan ko
Ang unang tatawagin mo,
Ang unang bibigkasin mo,
Ang maaalala mo.

Alam kong hindi ang pangalan ko
Ang unang papasok sa isip mo,
Ang unang maiisip mo
Sa tuwing naririnig mo ito.

Alam kong hindi rin ang pangalan ko
Ang lagi **** bukambibig sa mga kaibigan mo,
Hindi rin ako ang laman ng mga kwento mo, Ang una **** matatakbuhan sa tuwing may problema ka.

Mas lalong hindi ako ang hanap-hanap ng mga mata mo,
Ang kinababaliwan mo,
Ang magiging kabiyak mo sa tamang panahon. Hindi lang ako naglakas ng loob na sabihin sa’yo noon.

Na gusto kita.
Hindi ko naman ginusto na magkagusto sa isang katulad mo,
Hindi ko naman pinilit o para bang ako ay nagpabaya,
Ngunit alam ko, na hindi magiging ako.

Ang una **** tatawagan sa tuwing nag-iisa ka,
Alam kong hindi ang text o tawag ko ang una **** sasagutin.
Hindi rin ito ang laging inaabangan mo,
Alam kong kung paano mo ako tingnan ay iba.

Iba kung paano mo siya tingnan,
Iba kung paano mo siya mahalin,
Kung paano mo siya alagaan,
Alam kong hindi ako ang mundo mo.

Ngunit huwag mo nang pangarapin pa
Na mamahalin ka rin niya,
Ngunit hindi naman pala.
Ngunit, alam ko na hindi na pala ako.

Ang unang iikot at tatakbo sa isipan mo araw-araw,
Alam kong hindi ako ang iniisip mo araw-araw. Alam kong kaibigan lang ang tingin mo sa akin, Alam kong parang kapatid lang ang pagtrato mo sa akin.

Alam kong hindi ang kamay ko ang unang hahawakan mo,
Alam kong hindi ako ang unang lalapitan mo At unang hahanapin mo pagkadilat ng mga mata mo.
Alam kong hindi ako ang unang yayakapin mo.

Alam kong hindi ako ang una o kahuli-hulihan na liligawan mo.
Alam kong hindi ako—oo,
Noong una pa lang alam ko na,
Na hindi ako ang tinitibok ng puso mo.

Ang iyong unang sinisinta,
Alam ko noong una pa lang
Tinatak ko na sa isipan ko
Na wala akong puwang ni minsan man diyan sa puso mo.

Alam kong ang bawat pagtingin mo sa akin
Ay iba sa kung paano mo siya tingnan.
Siguro, naisip mo rin na habang tinitingnan mo ako,
Ay siya ang naiisip mo.

Kung paano mo siya kausapin,
Kung paano ka magmalasakit sa kanya,
Kung paano mo siya tratuhin—
Ay iba sa lahat,
nabubukod-tangi nga ba sa iba.

Ni minsan hindi ko inisip o hiniling
Na ibalik mo sa akin ang pagmamahal na ipinaramdam ko sa’yo.
Ni minsan hindi ako nagdalawang-isip na katukin yang puso mo.

Baka sakali lang matanggap at mahalin mo rin ako.
Baka sakali maisip mo rin na bigyan ako ng pagkakataon.
Ni minsan hindi ako humingi ng kahit anong kapalit.
Ni minsan hindi ko inisip na habulin ka.

Na lumuhod sa harap mo at magmakaawa, Dasal lang ang kakampi ko.
Na sana huwag kang magmahal ng iba,
Na sana walang ibang naghihintay sa’yo.

Na sana ako na lang ang mamahalin mo,
Na sana dinggin na ng Panginoon ang hiling ko. Alam ko na hindi ako ang gusto mo.
Noong una pa lang alam ko na.

Kahit hindi mo sabihin,
Ramdam ko naman Ang mga panlalamig na trato mo sa akin,
Ang pagbabalewala mo sa akin.

Alam kong kahit kailan wala akong laban sa kanya,
Kahit kailan hindi kita magawang pilitin.
Ayaw kong ipilit sa’yo na ako ang piliin
Dahil alam kong siya ang gusto mo.

Alam kong hindi para sa akin ang mga ngiti mo,
Alam kong hindi ako ang gustong makausap mo,
Alam kong hindi ako ang gusto **** makasama,
Ang gusto **** makitang tumawa.

Kahit kailan hindi ako magiging siya,
Kahit kailan hindi ko kayang palitan siya
Diyan sa puso mo.
Kahit kailan hindi ko magawang turuan ang puso mo

Na ako ang mahalin mo,
Na ako ang pipiliin mo.
Kahit kailan hindi ako ang nakikita mo
Sa tuwing magkasama tayo.

Hiniling mo na sana siya na lang ang kasama mo,
Na sana siya na lang ang nakausap mo
At ang nakakaintindi at nakikinig sa’yo.
Kailanman magkaiba kami.

At kahit bali-baliktarin man natin ang mundo, Kahit ikumpara mo man ako,
Hindi siya magiging ako
At hindi rin ako magiging siya.

Update: Hindi naging sila kasi iba ang nagustuhan ni girl while wala na akong update kay guy if may girlfriend na ba sya.

Anecito (7-28-2023)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Anecito (7-28-2023)

You met me at a perfect time
But we both fed up in such a worst crime
Sadly, there is no more words to rhyme
Losing you is much better than losing myself for a lifetime

Been bruised, been scarred for life
Got pointed with a gun and knife
Thank God, I barely made it out alive
Barely kicking just to survive

I thought there seems to be no life after you
Seeing myself miserable over you
For a long time, I hated you
Forgetting everything about you

When it seems that life is just a ride or die
You can’t even look me in the eye
How come you always lie
Everything is already said and done, goodbye

Stop trying so hard for things to work out for me
For the both of us, for you and me
You said you loved me
But time never lead you back to me

Two hearts still beat on with different rhythms
Collated on the different sides of every prism
Like the fragments of my broken heart
Everything fell apart

I hope we should let it go now
Letting go of all the hurts and pains now
I poured my whole heart out for you
But you hated yourself for letting me go

You gave me only a 3-month trial
Hopeful enough we would reconcile
Time was never on our side
Hope you float on it, life is a tide

Love seems too splendid
Then, like a call you left me unattended
But I don’t mind
Time alone cannot erase the memory you left behind

Hour glasses and stopwatches are all useless
Hoping for you ‘fess up, I’m breathless
Asking myself why’d you run away?
Runaway far away from today

Maybe you changed your mind approaching me
Instead, you chased and approached other girls
Why would I bother force you to stay with me?
I know my worth is weighed in gold and pearls

But you played me like a doll
Bounced me back like a ball
Guessed me like a mind game
Whispered in your name

Angel of mine (2-22-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Angel of mine (2-22-21)

I was meant to be yours before we met
It's your face I don't want to forget
I have felt your presence everywhere
As I have looked for you in everything

It's your voice I long to hear
There's nothing left to fear
And you never left me cause you're always there
And this is such an unexpected meeting

The butterflies I have felt inside my stomach
Oh, I have loved you from the moon to the stars and back
From the time I wake up, it's you I always think of
Up to the time I go to sleep, you're the last person I'm praying for

It's you I always dream of
To be with forevermore
No matter what I do
No matter where I go

There's a smile drawn on my face
There's a constant happiness painted in my gaze

You are and will always be my angel
You are and will always be my only love
You are and will always be my priority
You are and will always be my only choice

How you loved to see me in the best angle
I can see it in your eyes, love
That I am more than a fantasy
That explains why I became your first choice

Angel of mine, Angel of mine
I love you; I miss you
Angel of mine, Angel of mine

Distance is just a matter of challenge we face
But always remember that my heart only belongs to you
From the time I met you up to the time that you're already mine
Cause I knew this feeling is real the second I saw you

And everything fell in its place
The way our souls intertwine
I can't promise to solve all your problems
But you won't have to face them all alone

Even if your life has hit rock bottom
You'll never be alone

I can't wait to wake up next to you every day
Be with you every single day
Please don't forget how much I love you so
I just had to let you know

Even if I never let it show
I hate to see you go
I was meant to be yours even before we met
And you were an angel of mine I’ll never forget

Angel pt. I (4-24-22)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Angel pt. I (4-24-22)

Boy, you keep me sane all the time
How you made me feel relaxed and calm all the time
Your voice sounds like a symphony in my ears
That I always yearn and long to hear

Your voice is like an angel
It sounds so sweet and beautiful
Rest assured, you are my one and only angel, baby
All rights reserved, you’re mine and I’m yours only

Forever I am yours
For all eternity
Together, we will be as one
This love and moment are ours
Since I know you’re the right one
You are mine faithfully

No one in this world is all I could ever compare
You stand alone, you are rare
There’s a couple billion people in this planet
But you are all I ever wanted

Started giving up on the word “forever”
Always holding back with commitment
But to me, you are Heaven-sent
That’s why I wanted us to be together

We deserve each other
So don’t worry, there’s no other
It’s you, the only one I adore
I never felt this way before

There’s no heart for me like yours
But I was convinced that my heart knew
It belonged to you long before I met you
Yet, I was always yours

Whenever I hear your name, I start smiling
Whenever I remember you, I start thinking
Do you miss me too the way I missed you?
Do I ever cross your mind all the time?

A part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything
How you walked into my life like you had always lived there
Oh, I would do everything, love you, give you my time, my attention, my everything
So just stay there, stay there

Like my heart was a home built just for you
You can treat me like a home
Where you can come and go home
Rest your worries and fears to me

I would do anything just to keep you
No need to worry about me

Angel Pt. II (4-24-22)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Angel Pt. II (4-24-22)

I’ve always been yours
And I cannot find another this heart will beat for
You walk in and my heart beats different
I can still remember how our first conversation went

First you made my heart beat, We will never fall apart
It won’t stop beating right from the start
But when it breaks and heals again
Due to the pain, it remains

My heart will always beat for you
And my heart will still beat for you

I lost my way all the way to you
And it’s you I found all the way back to me
Maybe we were meant for each other
Maybe the heaven wants us to be together

I lost my way upon going to meet you
But you led the way just to see me

It’s here in my thoughts that you’re perfect
I always thought that you’re worth it
You’re worth the wait
And it’s here in my mind that your mine
And I think about you all the time

There will always be room for your hand in mine
But I see the way we shine
Because I love you for all that you are, for all that you have been and for all that you will be
I love you just the way you are, for all that I have witnessed and seen and for all that you wanted to be.

An honest open letter from Ate

Eindeinne Moon Apr 15

An honest open letter from Ate

Hindi ko talaga alam kung saan ako magsisimula.
Hindi ko alam kung alin sa mga bumabagabag sa isipan ko ang dapat kong unahin. Pero isa lang ang sigurado ako ngayon—kailangan ko itong himayin.

Magsisimula ako sa tanong na:
“Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi?”

Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi ang mag-a-adjust?
Ang utusan sa pamilyang ito?
Kesyo ganito, kesyo ganyan—mga rason na hindi ko na alam kung valid pa ba o hindi. Pero sige na nga, i-aagree ko na lang. Para matapos na ang usapan. Para hindi na humaba pa ang diskusyon.

Si Ate na lang ba talaga palagi ang magsasakripisyo para sa pamilya?
Si Ate na lang ba ang mag-iisip kung paano magtitipid, kung anong dapat unahin—hindi ang luho, hindi ang sariling kapakanan—kundi kayo?
Kayo na lang muna. Ako, mamaya na lang.

Si Ate rin ba palagi ang kailangang magpakumbaba at magpatawad?
Ang aako ng responsibilidad, ang gagawa ng gawaing bahay?
Alam ko naman—may mga kapatid ako. Pero ako na lang ba palagi ang kikilos?
Ako na lang ba ang laging may kusa?
Ako na lang ba ang mag-iisip kung anong ulam ang lulutuin?
Maglalaba, maghuhugas ng pinggan, maglilinis ng bahay?

Kabisado ko na lahat ’yan. Hindi niyo na ako kailangang pagsabihan. Hindi ko na kailangan ng utos.
Pero paano kayo?
Paano kung wala na tayong mga magulang?
Paano kung ako na lang ang natira?

Si Ate na lang din ba ang laging magtuturo at magdidisiplina?
Noong ka-edad ko pa lang kayo, namulat na ako sa responsibilidad.
Pero ngayon, anong nangyari?
Halos lamunin na kayo ng cellphone. Wala nang kusa. Wala nang malasakit sa paligid.

Baka nakakalimutan ninyo—tao rin si Ate.
Hindi ako robot. Hindi ako ginawa para lang sumunod sa utos.
Marunong din akong mapagod. Marunong din akong masaktan.
May damdamin din ako.

Sana maintindihan ninyo ’yan. Na may sarili rin akong buhay na kailangang atupagin. Hindi ako utusan na sunod-sunuran lang. Hindi ako kailangan bigyan ng sahod para gawin ang iniutos ninyo, walang barya o walang pahinga ang makakapagbigay sa akin ng pahinga na hinahanap ko.

Pagod? kaya kong tiisin, kaya kong matulog nang ilang oras lang, kaya kong pagsabayin ang trabaho ngunit anong nangyari sa akin? nagkasakit ako in return. Walang halaga ang bawat barya na binibigay ninyo sa akin, kapalit ng nawala kong adrenal gland.

Puyat at pagod, ipagsabay mo. Instant noodles at walang masustansyang pagkain ang makakapatay sa akin. Coke at kape na ginawang tubig. Pagbantay sa lola kong maysakit ang naging libangan.

Hindi sa hindi ako marunong magpasalamat o baka isipin ninyo hindi ako grateful at wala akong utang na loob sa ginawa niyo para sa akin. Ang utang na loob na habangbuhay kong pagbabayaran ay hindi katumbas nang pilak at ginto o salapi, kundi habangbuhay na karangalan at respeto ang ibibigay ko sa inyo sa pagsilang sa akin sa mundong ito at dahil binuhay niyo ako at hindi pinabayaan.

Hindi niyo ako narining na nagrereklamo, hindi niyo ako nakikita na nagmamaktol, hindi niyo ako naririnig na nagpapaliwanag at nagrarason dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na sarado ang isipan at taenga ninyo kung sakali man na ako ay magpapahiwatig nang aking saloobin sa inyo.

Alam ko, naiinitindihan ko na napapagod rin kayo, iba rin ang pagod na nararamdaman ko. Hindi kumpletong tulog, hindi unan at kama ang lunas nito, dahil kung minsan kung ako ay tulog na ay sadyang nag-iingay rin ang aking isip. Ang tanging lunas na gusto ko sa pangungulila ko sa pahinga ay kapayapaan, katahimikan at dalampasigan. Iyon lamang.

Hanggang dito nalang,

Nagmamahal,
Ate :)

An honest open letter from Ate [English Version]

Eindeinne Moon Apr 15

An honest open letter from Ate [English Version]

I honestly don’t know where to start.
I don’t know which of the many thoughts troubling my mind I should talk about first. But there’s one thing I’m sure of—I need to lay this all out.

Let me begin with a question:
“Is it always going to be Ate?”

Is it always going to be Ate who has to adjust?
The one who’s always given the chores in this family?
This and that—reasons I no longer know if they’re even valid. But sure, fine, I’ll agree. Just to end the conversation. So we don’t have to drag it out any longer.

Is it always going to be Ate who sacrifices for the family?
Is Ate the only one who thinks of how to save money, how to prioritize what’s important—not luxuries, not personal wants, but you?
You first. I’ll be the last.

Is it always Ate who has to be the one to forgive and humble herself?
The one who takes on the responsibility, who does all the housework?
I know—I have siblings. But why does it always have to be me who moves first?
Why am I the only one who will take the initiative?
The one who thinks of what to cook?
Who does the laundry, washes the dishes, cleans the house?

I know it all by heart. You don’t even need to remind me. I don’t need to be told.
But what about you?
What happens if one day, our parents are no longer here?
What if we, siblings, were the only one left?

Will Ate still be the one who teaches and disciplines you?
Back when I was your age, I was already aware of my responsibilities.
But now, what’s happened?
It’s like you’re being swallowed whole by your screens. There’s no initiative. No concern for your surroundings.

Maybe you’ve forgotten—Ate is human, too.
I’m not a robot. I wasn’t made just to follow orders.
I get tired. I get hurt.
I have feelings, too.

I hope you understand that.
That I also have my own life to attend to.
I’m not a servant who exists to follow commands.
I don’t need to be paid to do what you ask, because no amount of coins or rest will ever truly give me the break I’ve been longing for.

Tired? I can endure that. I can survive with only a few hours of sleep. I can juggle work. But what did I get in return? I got sick. I lost an adrenal gland, and no amount of money you hand to me can make up for that.

Exhaustion and sleep deprivation? I had to deal with both. Instant noodles and barely any nutritious food—that’s what nearly killed me. Coke and coffee replaced my water. Watching over our sick grandmother became my daily routine.

It’s not that I don’t know how to be thankful.
It’s not that I’m ungrateful or that I don’t have a sense of debt for what you’ve done for me.
The debt I carry in my heart for a lifetime can’t be repaid with silver, gold, or money—
But with lifelong honor and respect, for bringing me into this world and for raising me. For never abandoning me.

You never heard me complain.
You never saw me throw a tantrum.
You never heard me explain or reason out—because deep down, I know your minds and ears are closed if ever I try to express how I feel.

I understand. I know you get tired too.
But my exhaustion is different.
No amount of sleep, pillows, or beds can fix this.
Because sometimes, even in sleep, my mind is still noisy.
The only cure I long for in my aching solitude is peace, silence, and the shore. That’s all I want.

That’s all for now.

With love,
Ate :)

apologies

Eindeinne Moon Apr 23

apologies

The sincerest apologies are not spoken in words
but felt in the quiet descent of tears.

Maybe because we do not want someone to let us go,
or maybe because it is too hard to put those feelings into words.

a traveler

Eindeinne Moon Mar 29

a traveler

I am nothing but a lost traveler, yet I chose the path less traveled by.
I trusted the process, and it led me to the road not taken.

Life’s journey offers no shortcuts—each road we take comes with its own imperfections:
a bumpy one, a straight one, a winding one, or perhaps one shrouded in uncertainty.

awts gege.

Eindeinne Moon Dec 2024

awts gege.

There are stories too painful to turn into poems.
Sometimes, they remain just stories,
until they become mere memories
and are gradually forgotten.

peyn.

Babalik-balikan (6-29-21)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

Babalik-balikan (6-29-21)

Hihiwalayan, babalikan
Bibitawan, Hahabulin
Hihilingin ka ulit na mapasa’kin
Hihintayin ka ulit na babalik sa akin

Hihintayin, Papatawarin
Tatanggapin, Mamahalin sa uulitin
Wag kang mag-alala
Huwag kang mangamba

Ikaw ay tatanggapin pa rin
Ang aking paulit-ulit na hihilingin
Kahit na isang saglit
Kahit na masakit

Dahil ikaw pa rin ay aking mahal
Kahit gaano man ka-tagal
Hihintayin kitang bumalik
Sa iyo pa rin ako ay nananabik

Ikaw pa rin ang babalik-balikan
Oh, ang aking babalik-balikan

Naghihintay sa wala
Umaasa pa rin sa wala
Di alam kung may pag-asa pa
Kung kailan mo ako babalikan

Ako ang naghabol kahit hindi naman ako Ang nang-iwan
Basta’t alam ko
Na hindi ako ang lugi sa dulo

At least hindi ako naging sakit sa ulo
Binigay ko man lahat
Kulang man o sapat
Sa aking piling naman ay
Nakita kitang sumaya

Bakit kinailangan pa na maghiwalay ?
Sana nga ay bumalik ka na

Naging masaya naman ako nang wala ka na
Nabuo ko naman sarili ko
Ng wala ang tulong mo
Pagkat mayroong puwang dito sa puso ko

Na ikaw lamang ang makaka-puna
Dahil ikaw lang langga ay sapat na

Nagbago man ang lahat sa akin
Ngunit ang nararamdaman ko sa’yo
Ay mananatili at hindi magbabago kailanman
Hindi ko na kailangang sabihin:

Na babalikan mo ako o huwag na
Basta’t hindi kita susukuan

bad habits. (10-25-2022)

Eindeinne Moon Aug 2023

bad habits. (10-25-2022)

I didn’t know why you got me so addicted to you
Your presence is all I ever yearned for
I’m not like this before
I was so in love with you

You made me feel like this
Crazier with you
You made me love you like this
Head over heels for you

You are my bad habit to break
You are both good and bad for my health
Your love is my wealth
You’re the best choice I make

You got me drunk in your love
It got me so in love
You got me intoxicated in your presence
It made me sad feeling your absence

It made me never wanna leave your side
Please make me your bride
I’d do anything to keep you mine forever
At least we’d be together

Got me addicted to you like a drug
Baby, your love is like a drug