Nolite te bastardes carborundorum
waking up every night

I wake up at 3
feeling you too close to me
your hands touched places

I try to get some sleep

I wake up at 5
They say the body keeps the score
Adrenaline
Fight or ..

Freeze
I wake up at 7
I cannot do this any longer

'You look tired'
Yeahh I know, it's just them pills
They cause my nightmares
Haha yeah just some odd dreams, I'll try to get some sleep tonight, thanks

I honestly thought I would be over it by now
How foolish of me
To think the marks you left on my body, could ever leave my mind

I cannot even get some ******* sleep
It's been three **** years
But boys will be boys
And yes means yes
And no means yes too