Jn: Favorites

Jan 13 Jn

BipolarBear

You made me a poet my dear;
forever inspired with you near.
Alas, you took it all and left -
my rhyming words your greatest theft.

Jan 5 Jn

B R E A K I T D O W N

Jan 5 Jn

Liana

B R E A K I T D O W N

The smallest things
Seem so overwhelming
Take a shower
Get dressed
Get out of bed
Clean
All of them
Seem so hard to do
They take so much energy

I've learned that the only thing that helps

I s

T o

B r e a k

I t

D o w n

Even with the small things

Wheneverharmonicathingsredpilemicrowaveovereachotherlightbulbitsbalconystartstogetbananacrazy

Sorry if the last part was confusing

(This note was written by someone's autocorrect in their brain malfunctioning a lot. I know many like this.)

Jan 5 Jn

Soldiers Battalion

Jan 5 Jn

Nemusa

Soldiers Battalion

Red poppies bow low,

heads bending in whispered pact,

soldiers in still ranks,

bleeding upon the soft earth,

awaiting the wind’s command—

battlefields of fleeting bloom.

Jan 4 Jn

Indifference

Jan 4 Jn

Moo

Indifference

Every day I die a certain way,
My sky is isn't infinite needless to say,
But under a sky you live,
That's not abandoned and astray,
The stars are for you to perceive,
In the horror of night skies darkness,
In darkness I grieve,
My God is different,
Mine is indifferent,
Not a friend nor a foe.

#god #friend #foe #stars #indifferent

Jan 4 Jn

Venture in my soul

Jan 4 Jn

Moo

Venture in my soul

I beg and churn and oft dream,
I crave and long from all in my being,
All that is scattered all that is seen,
All that is bound to decay,
All to stumble back in your way,
Frivolous being am I to sight,
Everything I am doesn't fit right,
18 years to build this mould,
That replicates what is foretold,
A venture in this soul,
Had me realise it is dead,has no goal,

#dream #soul #dead #goal #decay #beg

Jan 4 Jn

i fear death (trigger warning)

Jan 4 Jn

Zelda

i fear death (trigger warning)

⚠️ Trigger Warning ⚠️

I’m not suicidal,
I fear death.

I think about dying—
it's always a vivid, beautiful, sunny day.

I just want to bleed, cuts under the skin.
I just want to starve, protruding bones.
I just want to disappear, non-existent.

I’m trying to get my affairs in order,
to tend to my responsibilities,
to care for my loved ones
just in case.

I’m not suicidal,
at least, I don’t think I am.

I fear death.

Jan 1 2025
*Trigger warning ⚠️*

#trigger #death #suicide #sunny #starve #mentalhealth #triggerwarning

Jan 3 Jn

Pivot Point

Jan 3 Jn

BipolarBear

Pivot Point

Today I fell out of like with you dear.
Although I still hate not having you near.
I'd rather nothing, than a version of you;
that's neither loving, nor coming through.

For I won't settle - for just attention.
I need unity, in shared direction.
You know I like you, yet you fail to give,
your time and presence - jealousy instead.

I'm not convinced that you know how to love.

Jan 3 Jn

I want a kind person to see me struggling

Jan 3 Jn

Liana

I want a kind person to see me struggling

I want a kind person to see me struggling
Not by me showing them
But by simply observing
And care
And ask if they can help
Sometimes they can
And sometimes they can't
But that itself
Is enough for my heart