There’s a post that mentions something along the lines of normal people say “I love you”and poets say
-I will adore every particle that’s ever been near your body and breath, because they are closer than even my hands could touch.
And it’s true, but that’s because sometimes I love you just doesn’t come close to the feeling I get in my chest when you touch me
Your fingers spread a wildfire through my veins with even the slightest brush
Your lips give fireworks in my heart that I can’t ever put out
When you look at me, the anxiety of wanting you so deeply feels like my stomach is the sea on its roughest day,
And its angelic to feel,
Your love it’s unlike anything I’ve ever known,
and sometimes even poetry isn’t enough

I never thought I’d have this life
Brought up on a broken council estate
I was never meant to have this nuclear family
When I look back at my life
And where I came from
To looking at what I have
And where my future is headed
It feels surreal
I’m not meant to have this much promise in my life
I don’t know how to handle it
I’ve got survivors guilt
Because of who I left behind
The past version of me
And the people I cut off along the way
I hope I can forgive past me for sabotaging myself
Because she almost broke the woman I am today

Fate is such a weird thing
Two people
two completely different lives
Find each other
Simply when the universe decides
I was young and lost
You were older and the same
I was stuck in a cycle of toxicity
Unable to break free of the chains
Until that fateful day
When we went out for that drive
And I fell in love so quickly
For once I wasn’t blind
Fate brought you to me
And nothing will ever change my mind

I hope to god that I go first
Because I wouldn’t know what to do without you
Because the thought of being without you is genuinely too painful
And a lifetime with you simply wouldn’t be enough
So I hope I go first
Because I know you’d be strong for our girls
Because I know that you’d be okay without me until I could see you again
Because I know that you’re a stronger person than me
But then
I hope you’re not far behind
Because you’ve told me you don’t want to be alone
Because I know how much you secretly love affection
Because I know that when the beds empty you get confused as to why I’m not there stealing the quilt or snoring
But if you do go first
Know that
I’d be counting the days until I saw you again
I’d get a dog to keep your side of the bed warm and wake me up with snores
I’d re watch supernatural to fall asleep to re live our memories
And I’d make sure that I’d stay strong for these girls