In the past
I only saw what I hated

Later I saw
Qualities in me that I loved

Now I see only
Someone who is loved

Now I realize they are too different things
To be lovely and to be loved

And I'd rather be the latter

Did I ever really love you?

Or did I just want to make sure that someone loved you?

Did you ever really love me?

Or did you just love the idea of me?

My heart
                  dropped

When I saw how of me
Was my fear...

Until I realized the rest of me
Was how I fought it

And I decided that all of my future
Will be how I beat it

A cliffhanger without a conclusion

So many plot holes left hollow

No dandelion wishes can fix this

Because the storm that blew through
took them and you too

And as loyal as you were, you had to leave first

How many of your ripples of change remain?

What of all the loose ends you left behind my friend?

So many questions and no answers to mention

But among all that I don't know, this I do

That for as long as I live, the world won't forget you

I came back to my genesis
Back to hazy house of my past
Where my family still grows
And mem'ries still flow
Many strong and fast

But something's just not right
In this place I should belong
Every "familiar" feels so different
Like hollow, empty imprints
And on top of all the wrong

Here I feel claustrophobic.

You will never find a simple person
They simply don't exist
Everything you learn
Adds another turn
To the maze of their subconscious

You can never adore a simple person
For contrast is reality
It's the victories they've squandered
And the way they've pushed onward
That makes them truly lovely

What a sad thing
That she fears compliments from men
Because one or more of them
Made her feel unsafe
For all they said she was

He wanted to prove his love
So he shot down a star for me
But it must have fallen far away
Because I waited a long time
In the darkness he left behind
And now? I only wish he'd come back.

Sometimes

Questions clog the air
Suffocating hard truths

While

Silences waits for you
To be ready to speak your mind

Yellow coats and squeaky shoes
Butterfly nets and umbrellas blue
These are best for hunting frogs

Quiet giggles and smiling friends
Tall water reeds and river bends
These are best for finding frogs

Slippery mud and misty rain
Grassy tumbles and many stains
These are best for catching frogs

Slimey fingers and careful grips
Awed, sweet glances and grinning lips
These are best for holding frogs

Happy tears and soft goodbyes
Brand new name and darkened sky
These are best for freeing frogs

I wonder if you realize

That the nose you wish to change
Was your grandfather's

That the mouth you wish was fuller
Is just like your aunt's

And your entirely unmanageable hair
Is from your father

That you are carrying your mother with you
Every time you laugh

And your beautiful little sister and you
Will lose your last name but not that freckle on your left hand

You're a mosaic of everything that has been loved before
And will be loved again in you

Why are you hollow
If you love me?
                                              
                          Because you'll never        
                             love me equally

Why leave if you
really want to stay?

                          Because I need you to    
                                fade back to 2D

Why do you not
want our reality?

                           Because you're just    
                                  a beautiful
                                     fantasy.

.....Do you really
think this will work?

                             .....I don't know,
                              but I have to try  
                                   something

You called for me, asked me to find you

and I looked

But I never found you

Because I was looking for the man
you told me you were

Too bad he doesn't exist

I remember when we were both small

You grew up first, but I more tall

You come and go like the tide

I'm steady always waiting to be by your side

I wasn't big enough to hold you back then

But now I'm strong, sturdy, and trim

So build a house with me

One in which your kids can dream

Love,

Your Tree

Oh how, how can I help you see?

That you were never a bucket full of holes
But a watering can

That you never dragged me down
You were my anchor

That you weren't spinning out of control
You were a compass

That you didn't fail because you fell
You were a shooting star

And you were everything I wished for

This moment I wouldn't change,
Is worth all the moments I would change
And I'd keep every one of them
And live the awful all over again
For just one more moment like this

I don't know what to write today
I didn't do anything

Well, then go do something
That's worth writing about

So I lived a life
Worth remembering

Crazy     Sick
Struck   Blind     
Madly   Falling

Terrible to imagine until we look again
Through rose-colored glasses

I have to stay awake


While my eyes stay open

I am in control

But when my eyes close

My memory is maestero


Right now she's in a rage

Drowning in the sorrow

Burning in injustice

Unwilling to wait 'til tomorrow


But I have to wait because

Right now if these memories play

My demons will win

And I'll waste away


So I have to stay awake

Death is like the wind

Unexpected, shocking every time
Cold to the bone, affecting every life
Quick as a flash or slow as a sigh
Brings tears to stinging eyes
Always there in the fall
Bound, in the end, to freeze us all

Kindness silences suffering
It binds up the untrusting heart
And sings hope back into life

What are you waiting for?
Life changers, society shakers
Don't need to wait for something more

Strike that match and start a fire
One that catches in everyone's hearts
One that lives to inspire

Don't wonder any longer
Just jump and ***** the warning label
You were ALWAYS stronger

Bold colors fade, not disappear
Bright lights go out,
Long before their glow clears

Let the next generation
Grow up in a world where they
Never knew the absence of your creation

You must be an angel or a miracle

'Cause you're always there when I need you

You don't know how loved that makes me feel

He had the sun in his smile
And a black hole in his heart
And you never knew which would win

He wore the stars like a sweater
And their heat kept him warm
In place of all the people he never let in

He laughed with the northern lights
And sung as they danced
While you thought him again

Phasing through life like the moon
Waxing, wanning, full, and new
With a cratered mind within, because

Loving him is like a shooting star
You wish with hope for a chance
Knowing you'll fall and burn up in the end

A woman sat here,
To ponder radiation

A priest sat here,
In prayer for his congregation

A soldier sat here,
Cradling ammo and gun

A knight sat here,
His maiden's hand finally won

A Roman sat here, proud
Of building this wall

And I sit here, watching
Past and present revolve

Pondering how this wall
Stood here in every story
As a silent sentinel

I drank the ocean,
Down to the very last drop
But I still feel empty

I stand on the sun
Blind and burning
But the shadows inside remain

I watch the stars turn
In the black of the night
And see my heart reflected

I know I'm not far
From the beginning of my road

But in everything I'll still see
For everything I will still be
In all the breaths I'll still breathe
I'll do it without a part of me

Because I gave it to you
The day you made me believe
That love wasn't a wish or a dream
That is was more than make believe

You changed everything

I know you're hurting
I'll take it all, tell me everything
Every scar, every terror
And we'll cry together
For every bleeding wound

You worry of ruining my life
By pulling me into the night
But I walk in willingly!!
For the world without you (truly)
Would be one of shadows anyway

You said, "I love what you wrote"
But they were more than words

They were my apart of my soul made visible
A corner of my mind made accessible

So I heard, "I love your soul"
And my heart felt full

if every moment is a chance to create
a time to grow, a moment to make
then why do I wait for another time
to make the dream me truly mine

Can you feel it?
Your soul crawl under your skin
As you pretend to be everything
They want you to be

Can you see it?
In your mind's eye
How their faces would twist
From happy to hateful

Can you hear it?
Your own words as
They writhe into one more story
And choke you

Can you know it?
No, this is how you test
The love that entwined you and them
Because maybe honesty means freedom

Ready player one?
Hit start, the game has begun
Taking every shot
Anxiety on the rocks

Getting tired of beginning
Favorites are boring
Color, season
Music, the reason

Until that lucky jump
Finally leveling up!
And then talks get deep
And every fall is steep

Every tiny victory
Building false security
Three lives left, failure far
Talking of houses, kids, and cars

Standing at the threshold
At the final stronghold
Armed with a ring
Fearing nothing

Then he pulls the cord
The connection felt goes cold
Hope without substance
It's just you and the ashes

Robbed of even a game over
You restore the game's power
As a level one encore
That still dreams of the highest score