Spicy Digits

Spicy Digits May 30

Radical to care
Radical in passion
Radical non-profit
Misplaced compassion
Radical aesthetics
Radical slowing
Purposeful rejection
Radical self-knowing
Beautiful cadence
Radical restarts
Radical for existing?
Radical, my ****.

Spicy Digits May 27

Midnight Panacea

Tiptoeing past the cemetery
Barefoot and free
The 1am beckoning hour
When I am no longer me

Draped in midnight hues
Unshackling of roles,
My body glides in sacred silence
As a piece of the whole

Leave your lamp on,
String lights, windchimes
My pain will wander quietly through
Returning at half-light

And when everyone wakes
I hold on again til night
And tiptoe past the cemetery
Away from the streetlights.

#pain #trauma #peace #alone #quiet #silence #soul #stillness #night #beauty

Spicy Digits May 23

Pre-excision

I missed her.
I did not mean to lose her.
I barely knew she existed
To begin with.

I remember her curiosity.
What makes people laugh?
Who is lying?
Who is fragile and sad?

She was erased
And I learned to be perfect,
But remained invisible.

I spent years as a husk.
I learned to die
Over and over again.

I barely knew she existed.

Even now, she is only
A faint outline.
But we are in touch
Every so often.

Spicy Digits May 22

Some/day/

I'll see you next someday,
Passive but free,
I'll meet you where the
Clouds turn to trees.

I'll see you next someday,
Wearing naked honesty,
I'll meet you deep in the
Wastelands of tranquility.

Spicy Digits May 22

Here's to the lies

I will not empty myself
For profit
Replace her with a brand,
Digestible,
Instead of root-bound.

I'm not afraid of helping
But of exploiting
The same eating at the table
With salt and sawdust,
Exhausted.

Not afraid of using time
But selling all the hours.
This neutron star,
This storm surge
Bottled on the back shelf.

There is nothing I can do
But fall behind
For my peace
Stitch where I can stitch
And live stubbornly as her.

Spicy Digits Mar 27

Public Servant

I hope this email finds you well
Deep in a pit of
Worthiness, untouched by
Regards and empty thank you's
For all your hard work and
Patience with the devil's detail
Taking things off-line
Touching base with yourself
And what a team, a family!
Trapped in survival,
Disposable and flexible.
As per our last discussion
Please find enclosed
Thinly veiled contempt iced
With platitudes, thumbs up,
Controlled and controlling
Reporting and aligning.

I hope this email finds you.

Spicy Digits Mar 17

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To hold two truths.
Knowing one,
Seeing another.

Feeling their weight.
Stepbrother.

To cry for both
And laugh at it all.

To love you
And retribution.