in her eyes i am a blank page
i can flood her with the old twisted ideas of myself
ideas that i no longer want to follow
a past bent to that one sick perspective

instead of dropping the weight on her
i might be able to just built the new

it will reaquire persistance to withstand the silence
but i've grown tired of that story

I was careful so I don't go too far with my assumptions
I am way to vulnerable, I obssess, I am dying for little.

I never accepted that you'd realy be too blind to see.
But as time goes and I get to see more clearly I know you were oh so blind.

Tell me I've grown cold and blind, tell me it was back then when I knew the truth
Wouldn't change much I guess, but you know it breakes me to think it was all in vain

I am glad to be numbed right now.

it was really appealing go along
to go and explore

whatever they say
the truth is they need us

oh so I did and I let myself go
I thought it was the right way

but it turned against me
i was always a tiny bit shaky
so i formed a habit of flooding the place
and then I would always watch it dry
holding on tight

there is no use...

No weight attached,
for some reason you don't matter much.
Yet today you brought me some warmth.
You almost always do.
And there was that night when I really craved for you.
I promise you - I could not sit still.
So I called Her and I made them laugh.
I really couldn't sit still that night, can you believe it?
But there it was, gone.
I never knew what I wanted from you.
And then I did you wrong, do you really feel that way?
I was afraid to hold you so I turned around.
Without a word.
Forgive me, I don't know why
why I couldn't find any love for you.
I mean you really deserved it.
Turns out I'd rather give it up to Someone else.
I am so glad I met you,
and we did have our own moments, but

no weight attached,
for some reason you don't matter much.

don't look for the sweet little peace
it's neither the right time or place

just let go of that, it's okay to go places
it's only fair to get yourself ****** over

there's this image in my head
so full of sentiments that old *****
and you bet I know what's going on up there

but that's not it, *******
i resonated with different part
and now I am so lost

i don't understand anything
and you don't too

ah **** I got work to do
I can't stay there
I don't believe in what's been said
just make it stop
i am tired
i am really tired

what's the use of saying that a hundred times
just
change
the
atitude

i know i won't figure it out
it's not that i want to

it's okay i stay because
there is a limit
there's more to it than that
yeah it's okay i tend to forget too
but as you very well know
you wise one
the effort only makes you get lost