And sometimes I take baths at six in the morning in tubs that aren't my own.
And sometimes I drink too much whiskey and tell people that they’ll never actually understand anything. And when authority figures talk to me I can’t help but to rebel. And yesterday was my 22nd birthday, but I asked you not to call. And as I blow out candles on a cake you’ll never make me again I wish for a time when I thought you truly cared. And as I look around the room at those smiling faces who chose me, I am reminded that blood is no thicker than water when you have parents too ashamed to look at their daughter.

I believe that watching the sun set restores a portion to every man's soul.
I believe that all people have a right to feel listened to.

And I know that I will see better days soon where I can breathe more easily.
I can't say how my future will go. Yet I have faith in myself and know I will persevere.

Times will come when no matter how hard you try to fix all the holes in the roof of your life, rain will still get through.
There will even be times when you can hear the rain hitting harder and harder, and more and more water will slip in, and then you'll really feel ******.

Someone once told me it's impossible to eat a whole elephant all at once.
You have to take it bite by bite.
I think it's all the same, though.
You can't patch up every hole that's letting in water all at once.
Sometimes you just have to put a bucket down beneath and move to the next leak.

You may even face times when you have exhausted yourself trying to patch all your leaks that keep springing loose.
You will have run out of buckets and pans both, and you're slowly sinking.
That's when it's okay to ask for help from the people you know love you.

I hope, too that you will see days when you don't mind falling in love with life
despite how ****** she may be.
On these days, may you ditch the effort to fix those leaks and go outside and play in the rain.

There are days when you wake up and your body is not your own.
And if you could just peel off your skin for a second, you would surely find a hollowness that doesn't end.
And you don't know what's right or if you're on the right track, and even the things you love feel far away.

You may not feel worthy enough to take comfort. But that's okay. Tomorrow will be better.
And if not, the next day has to be.

And somedays you wake up and you're on.
I mean, you know exactly who the ******* are. And you feel unstoppable.

And your mind doesn't feel so treacherous.
And the blood in your veins no longer feels venemous.

And if you peel back your skin for just a second, you would find you who are,
and were once before, and will eventually be.

If I tell you infinite nothingness awaits us all
but that I'd still like to see you tomorrow,
and that even though everything is destined to end,
and the road to Hell is paved with people
who thought otherwise,
I never feel more at ease
than when I'm by your side

If I tell you my heart can't be thawed
but still invite you in tonight,
what I really mean is that
you are my ******* savior.
You brought me back to life
when you entered into mine

In the morning light I think of you.
Your face stares up at me in the reflection
of the black coffee I drink.
If I tell you my body misses the feeling of yours
when not beside mine,
what I mean is the energy that pours out of you
wakes me up when you enter the room.

If I tell you I am filled with sorrow
but wont tell you from which part of me it comes,
I only mean to protect you.
But I promise that sadness only leaves
when you're around.

As you can see I may be
rough around the edges.
When I tell you not to leave just yet,
what it means is that I soften at your touch.
If I tell you we were doomed from the start,
what I mean is it's actually okay if
you end up breaking my heart.