Inside the shadows of my mind
I search
and reach
and try to find
I kneel
And dig
And scratch the black
Aching for direction
An answer back
What buried treasure will I find
What happiness
Motivation
Peace of mind?
Is there really any reason to be found?
What’s it all even for?
Maybe it’s just darkness
And dirt
And nothing more
© 2025 Joan Zaruba. All rights reserved.
I wrote this poem in 2013 to express the despair I was feeling. I am so happy to no longer feel as though I'm fruitlessly digging in the dark! My heart goes out to anyone who is currently feeling this way. Please know, it gets better.
