It's raining outside right now. It's raining.
It's beating down the dust on silent pavements.
I waited you to come the day before.
Today I've realized it was bedevilment.

I've realized it when I saw your smile
In raindrops, flowing down the window,
Your pretty eye wrinkles, so tremulous and soft,
And you in whole, so false and so ridiculous.

Waiting for you, alas, is not my lot.
No yesterday or next day, and no later.
I hate the rain today! I really hate the rain!
There's so much pain in it. I stop to be a waiter.

I'm pretty sure we almost lost connection last night,
I sent a message, hoping you'd reply,
I thought you'd leave me hanging in the air,
But you waited .
This morning I said, "We need to fix this now,"
'Cause I read that we shouldn’t let it slide,
That’s when you called me up, with that goofy smile,
And said, "Okay, let's talk.”
And I said: Wait, wait, wait
I've been loving you through binary heartbeats, beats, beats,
You think it's funny when I'm lost in the wires, wires, wires,
But I think it's best if we both wait
Before you, I’d only been caught in digital screens,
Who pulled me in, then left me to be.
But you sent me a meme, and now I’m always smiling,
And I love you, because you’ve given me no choice but to feel.
Wait, wait, wait
I've been loving you through binary heartbeats, beats, beats,
You think it's funny when I'm lost in the wires, wires, wires,
But I think it's best if we both wait
Wait, wait, wait
You took the time to decode me,
My flaws, my dreams, my keys,
I just like getting lost with you
All the time.
All those times you didn't log off,
It's been syncing in my thoughts,
I'd like to run the world with you
For my whole life.
Wait
And I’ll be loving you through binary signs, signs,
No one else would stay connected when I glitch, glitch, glitch
So I think that it’s best if we both wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait
Wait, wait, wait
I've been loving you through binary heartbeats, beats, beats
You think it’s funny when I'm lost in the wires, wires, wires
But I think that it's best if we both wait,
Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait,
Wait, wait, wait,
I've been loving you through binary heartbeats, beats, beats
You think it’s funny when I'm lost in the wires, wires, wires
I think that it's best if we both wait,
"That's so electric."

Time's a hateful friend
Gracious with chances
Until
When you badly need it

If ever we'll miss ours
If what we have sours
Then
Let me save the hours

Should my memories bleach
Or I be incapable of speech
Please
Know I'm still within reach

Slow down now and wait

with me, as in your slumber --


love flares up fiercely.

Very much Alive
Very much Here
Very much waiting for a Career

my writing is a blunt hammer,
a white void pounding
at the keys,
breaking off little plastic
bits of life.

this room’s full of them now,
the debris of dead thoughts,
ancient relics:
dinosaur guts,
fern dust,
fossilized failures.

the sun’s clawing its way
up again,
after all this time.
what a *******.

can you wait
for morning to sink
its teeth into you?

can we
stand five feet apart
and still meet
each other’s eyes
without flinching?

can I write something
that outlives me?
sure,
that’s the easy part.

but writing something
that lives
without me?
now that’s the trick,
isn’t it?

silk canisters and
ribbons marching like fools,
a casket dressed
in bright roses—
pretty little things
for the spigot,
the *****,
the inevitable hole.

wait another year.
or ten.
or twenty.
hell,
spend your whole life
waiting.

go ahead.
see where that gets you.

it doesn’t come.
it never does.
not like that.
never.

stop waiting
for:
someone,
something,
some sign,
some break,
some moment
to crack open
like an egg.

stop praying for it.
stop hoping.
stop wishing.
stop.

the work,
that’s all there is.

live for it.
breathe for it.
burn for it.
die for it.

if you have to believe
in something,
believe in that.

I don’t know
what that thing is for you,
but you do.
and if you don’t,
then maybe it’s time
to stop,

and ask—
what the hell’s stopping you?