Last night you got high Had a shot to **** the pain And you live your life in misery From the mistakes and pouring rain
Were pulling you to darkness Today wake feeling groggy Regretting the same moonlit decisions You like it better when head's foggy
You are not the only one who likes to get high Yet plenty of others abstain Must decide what matters more Your life or influence over your brain
Clear you can't have both though you try Juggling problems, they fall out of the air Watching what you love swirl down the drain Losing your life, why don't you care?
I wanna see the blood I wanna see the pain I wanna prove that my body Is nothing more than a frame My mind is screaming Parts of it beg me to bleed The others demonize those pleas I just don't want to feel this way anymore And I suppose it's my own fault I know how I get When I start drinking then stop Maybe that's why I always overdo it Because then I can get sick and sleep Before this depression takes its hold And sets my demons free Digging and clawing at my mind Until I do the same to my own skin
I am very healthy, In perfect health, For both of us, and, Our future children too. This 'Mayonnaise' here, It's only for you, and, Only you will use it, Your health will only improve.
i forcefully chew the xanax into pieces, letting the bitter taste coat my mouth as it reminds me of what will soon be in my system. i let it calm me down as i contemplate more, deciding on acid instead. god i’m ******* up my body. five trips in two and a half months and i feel like this is never going to end. i’m going to keep buying xanax and i’m going to keep taking it and it might even ruin my life but i don’t give a ****. take my fifty and hand me a dozen bars and i’ll tell you i’m in love. the other night i took some and drank and my mom was worried but she figured it was just my medication. i owe you neurotin, i contemplate my new bruises just as colors start to dance. i want my love back but in the meantime, this artificial intrigue will just have to do. hopefully i live long enough to see my darling again.
