i didn't mourn your death
i didn't cry, didn't scream
didn't **** the world or any god for taking you away

and then i remember
english class, we all had to memorize Atticus's speech
you know, the one in the courtroom where he defended Tom Robinson

and then i remember
that you sang about leaving us before any of us knew you were gone
ziggy stardust, i miss you

and then i remember
i'm 7, maybe 8 years old
you taught me what imagination meant, what i could do, what alternate universes i could create

and then i remember
you loved so much you died with a secret
as i grew, i learned how to understand you

and then i remember
the day purple rain meant a nation mourning in unity

and then i remember
your song was in shrek and i'm sorry but that association from my childhood never left me

and then i remember
the amount of pain you endured

and then i remember
i was 11, my brother was singing along to hotel california, introduced me to your band and pointed you out to me
"that's glenn frey he's the guitarist"

and then i remember
why this year has been such a dark one
so much of the light has vanished with you

and then i remember

i never gave myself a chance to mourn your death

-z.z

Sadly i wont get to meet you
Or touch your skin,
Or hold you and comfort
As loudly you wail and cry,
I wont get to watch you grow,
Into a beautiful human being i know,
But
I can confirm that you wont have to cry,
That you won't have to see the craziness the world brings
You wont have to have your spirit cracked and shaved,
And you wont walk into the train along with the brokenhearted, downtrodden and crazed,

Would you have been a niece or another nephew? That i may not ever know
But I'll see you soon one day,
And i hope you're a happy little angel, playing on the clouds like snow

I've been trying to find the right words to say,
So I'm just writing it here...
I need to write my feelings down somewhere before I explode..
I've been trying so hard to find my way.
With out you im lost, and
I feel like I have no where left to go.
How am I suppose to do this without you,
How will I go on?
Almost nine years together, and now you're just gone.
I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't eat.
I've tried to keep it together, for her, for our daughter.
but when you lose someone so close to you,
You lose a part of yourself.
I have been crying for days, thinking about how she won't get to know the wonderful man you were.
Thinking about how you won't get to see her grow up,
And be there for all the journeys and obstacles.
I'll be sure to tell her but it just won't be the same.
I love you, so much and I miss you dearly.....you're forever in my heart.
Though I don't think it will ever be fixed.
Rest in peace, my love, my soulmate, my bestfriend, and the father to our beautiful 2 year old daughter.

Nothing seems to be okay.
When I read the newspapers,
An imbecile killed gays.

Float like a butterfly and sting like a Bee
THERE AIN'T ANOTHER BROTHER IN THE WORLD AS BAD AS ME
Some of the words spoken by the greatest himself, Muhammad Ali
A man with more speed and skill
Than there are rabbits for hunters to ****
Controversial?
Undoubtedly
But such is the life of a man in a chaotic time
Civil rights movement, the Vietnam War were weighing heavily on the American people's minds.

But the greatest has passed on now, and it truly is a tragedy.

So for one last time, Float like a butterfly, and sting like a bee

What a terrifying day to be alive
What a terrifying week
What a terrifying year

50 lives lost
No a single rainbow is shining down on us today

I cry for the lives of the people i never knew
and i cry because we never know what those souls could have done for our world

Another day older, but i feel so small
Nothing i can do, but mourn and hope for a better tomorrow

Justice went un served for a victim who spoke out,
and the rest of us cry, because we didn't have the courage

Why cant the world see non consensual *** does not exist
There's  only one word for it, and its ****

All the horror going on around me, each tear falling from my eyes is bringing each small ounce of hope and happiness with it

This week i have told myself i don't want to live on this planet,
but that's a slap in the face to everybody who no longer has the chance

Tomorrow i will be a better me, i will honor the lives lost to violence and hate. I will put forth more generosity, kindness, and understanding for the ones around me who lack it. I will not give up. The people committing these horrible acts of violence and intolerance need me to be the best person that i can be.

A symbol of love
Of expression and individuality has passed on today
The purple one has gone on
to that heavenly Astral plane.
So many memories, that so many around the world
Have created including myself to his music, all I can say now is the greatest of thanks

Prince taught me that being different is sometimes what's best for the soul
That music can be blended within and without to break down the walls of culture and the barriers of hatred, brick by brick, hole by hole.

So thank you so much prince, for all that you've given the world.
You're an angel now, jamming with all of the lost ones up above.

One year.
It's been
one year
without you
down here;
One year
full of
sadness and grieving
and tears.
One year of
questions, disbelief
and acceptance.
One year,
and I've learned
to count my blessings.
One year -
I pray that wherever
the afterlife takes us,
well I hope
that's where you are
and I hope
you're happy there,
because we
sure as hell miss you
Here.
One year.