I do not know what to do anymore
Sometimes you call, sometimes you don't
I think there is something you're not saying
I want you to tell me, but you won't.

I understand you're not good with words
You are bad at expressing how you feel
But what you are concealing with silence
The hands of time will eventually reveal.

I worry you discovered someone else
A girl far more wonderful than me
What else could you have been implying
When you said that you have been "busy"?

Maybe I am overthinking it
Probably jumping to conclusions
I tend to be a little overdramatic
Prone to fantasies and delusions.

I have always believed that you were
Honest but now I am not so sure
Now that you are gone I'm the way that I was
Without you I am weak and insecure.

It is hard for me to trust you again
Prove to me you love me still
Just once want you to fight for me
But I know you never will.

this tick
minus
that
tock
time me in an lesson
bent back lesson
turn me over
spank me
lessons
of
mine
learn me
time me
from
any
me
i
claim to be

question me in between the lines
watch my fingers be drawn as fists
he walked an little closer to me
excuse me miss
that's
what
he
said
the truth on paper they couldn't read
all these shapes have taught me
it was the lines in between
one could suppose
then again
what more could you do
other than
time me
?




















...
..
.

we are all trying so hard
to prove ourselves
to enemies
who will never see
our successes
as successful,
to our family
who tells us
we need to try harder
like our siblings,
to strangers
who could care less
about our achievements,
to the world
who doesn’t care
because we are
little specks
in a gigantic galaxy,
why do we try
to prove ourselves
to such people,
why do we try
to prove our worth
to those who see us
as worthless.