All this life sought
Was in my feet forward,
Backing into stumble on rocks
With no path, life is an S curve
It hurts to fall hard
Worse yet
Is to not know why
I walked at all
A cool spring morning
In the rain with my canine on lead
Rushes into the glade
Where a doe may rest unaware
Still at old age I know, nothing
Every morning in the dark
My eyes open, for what?
I have lost all meaning of why
Are the next rising suns
Teachers on the green that
Remain after the snow melts
A reason for standing up?
I lost track of my dog in the meadow
As I listen to a poet who says
That tomatoes do not bleed
Is my life a fruit I can eat
Through the spring branches
I see a home below, pale yellow
A white door and a pane of glass
Asking, will I come forward more
An unknown, will I care to find out
Where is the deer and my dog
The door seductively beckons,
Walk this way with strong shoulders
Every day is an opening
For planting new things
Or letting the past burn to ash
Stunned in body and bones my trips to the ground
The knees and hands ******
And worn, as the apple skin
Holds a hole from the worm
I am the fruit as much as the scar that shines, happening now
After you meet your marks, relationships, children, profession all done, no longer needed, just waiting as age wears my body down. What now? When? Once you get here you will know.
