I hate to admit that,
Even if I hate you right now,
To the degree that spells out,
"So much,"
I can't deny that,
I am still,
Inevitably still,
In love with,
You.

I know I’m just another window
An open and shut case
I could never be the hero
I suppose all I can do is embrace
How can you? When your an absolute zero...
You must think I’m a complete ******

I think I’m funny and smart.
Still miserable
No one else can see that

When you're invisible

i've been up since five last night
drinking in suicide
all of these empty cans lying by my bed side
and it is 6:47 in the morning
i watched the sun rise up with agony
it's the mark of a new day
where i am still here
i didn't open that bottle of pills
it's sitting on the counter, feeling forgotten
i dialed your number on my phone
it's still sitting there on the screen, jumping at me
the big green call button staring at me
it's seven
the daylight is unfriendly towards me
i'll close my eyes again until five tonight
repeating this same old feeling

god, how much i miss my life

Give me something to numb the pain.                                            
Sinking in quick sand.
Slowly driving me insane.
Been strung out on painkillers all day.
Just had a pillow fight with a genie, but she left so quickly,
I couldn’t catch her name.
The room is spinning.
I feel so strange.
God give me strength.
Everything is so heavy.
It’s all a distraction.
Nothing really takes away the shame.
Been sleepwalking for weeks on end.
No drug on earth can take away this curse.
You all tell me the same **** thing.
No one can take away this misery.
The Mayhem of misery is my curse.
I’m so tired. So tired of living.
But I can’t give in.
There’s no one to help me…
Excuse me I have a prior engagement.
Deep down its nothing but a lie.
Am I only here for your mere entertainment?
They never seem to make the effort to try.
I can’t take it anymore.

Everyone says you don't deserve me,
That ill find someone new,
But how can i look for that person,
When I can't get over you?

I guess friends are right when they tell me,
Youre the one who is wrong,
but time has passed so quickly,
and i had wanted this for so long.

I know i should be done with this,
A week has been spent in tears,
and if you saw me miserable,
Youd think we were together for years.

Goodbye is a word i have always hated,
It hurts just like it did before,
And every time i hear it spoken,
It makes me miss you more.

Darling,
You’re drinking away,

all that’s left of you.

You’re smoking away,

every youth of your life.

Won’t you please stop?

Oh, if only you could see
what’s 
under those weight you carry with you;
Is a beautiful, young and strong lady.

A tender, loving and careful soul.

You are,
A lady destined for greater things.
Just sadly born into a life,
With everything to lose.

oh, What a shame.

I even dont know myself what I want from you
Your love
Or
Your friendship