I’ve
been standing for way too long
My legs
wobble and itch
For me
to move
  
My next
word shall tell a story
Of how
much I’ve faked
Of how
much I’ve pruned
  
My
father stands aside the altar
My
Husband in touch
Crying
tears of joy
  
How he’s
wanted me to be “normal”
I raise
my chin as I walk forward
I wonder
if my husband knows
  
The white
lacy dress dragging on the floor
The
white roses hiding
Their
thorns under my clasped hands
  
I look
to my right and there she stands
My lover
and bridesmaid
Watching
as I get married to another

You left when I needed you most                                                             ­                                        
   When I was desperate & needed hope                                                             ­                                               
You didn't think that I could cope                                                                   ­                                                 
But I made it & cut those ropes                                                            ­                                        
  Now that you see that I'm free                                                             ­                                                   
You suddenly still love me                                                                       ­                                               
Now who's desperate & pathetic                                                                       ­                            
  How does it feel to be rejected?                                                                        ­                                                 
  I'll do the best that you did for me.                                                                            ­                                                     
It doesn't take much to give nothing.

When the sun welcomed the night, I was sure it would never rise again
The cold crisp air reminded me of the warmth I lacked
Meeting you was like reuniting with an old friend Nostalgic in its familiarity, my soul recognized yours
You guided me to the light, promising I would never be cold again
An undeniable reflection in your eyes, I saw myself warmer than I'd ever been
It was then that I realized morning had arrived after all

After all the **** you put me through                                                          ­                                
                                                                ­                                        
   Claiming all along it's been me not you              
                                                                ­                                    
  You made me feel you were doing me a favor                                                            ­                                        
                                                                ­                                              
  While I gave you all my best behavior                                                                   ­                                
Still, you say I am not good enough                                                                      ­                                                    
   I tell you that I am sorry that my love                                                                   ­                                                
Was something you wanted more of          
                                                                                 
  When I wasn't sure you loved me at all                                                                      ­                                             
    You pushed me away & put up walls                                                                     ­                                                      
  So here we are now, there is no mistaking                                                        ­                                   
                             ­                                                                 ­           
  Loving you was a huge undertaking

We don't even talk anymore                                                          ­                                                                             ­                                                  
No goodbye kisses at the door                                                             ­                                               
  I've got my life & you have yours                                                            ­                                                
                                                                ­                                                  
  We are still together, what for?         
                                                   ­                                                                   
You pretend that you still care                                                             ­       
                                                                ­                                                   
   Your mixed messages aren't fair                                                             ­                                                   
                                                                ­                                                      
I can see through the blank stares                                                           ­                                                                   ­                                          
 You're still here, but you're not there                                                            ­                                         
                       ­                                                                 ­                        
    What the hell have we done to us?                                                                       ­                                             
Broken hearts, broken trust

Special Tribute;  March Women’s Month Moment

This special woman
In her family tree
Had 69 children
How can that be
Let’s do the math
and we shall see

Valentina, Vassilyev is it in the
Guinness world book of record history
for the most children born by a single mother .
How is this possible a true mystery

Between 1725 and 1765 40 years
Through laughter love and tears
A Russian peasant woman thrive
Giving birth to 69 children alive

This special woman
in her family tree she had 69 children.
How can that be?
Let’s do the math and then we’ll see

16 pairs of twins (32)

7 sets of triplets (21)

4 sets of quadruplets (16)

Total pregnancies, 27

Surviving children 67 out of 69 survived infancy

The father Feodor Vassilyev who was said to
Have fathered 87 children 69 with Valentina
And 18 with his second wife.(multiple wives)

Although Guinness Would Record confirmed
Many in the medical world have doubts.
1700s Russia, a period of history
in which data reveals over

a quarter to half of all children died in infancy.
Director of division of reproductive services and women’s health at John Hopkins.sights
lack of records a big hole in their story

Stealing the mother’s triumphant Glory
Honestly they just don’t know the whole story
And there, in lies the seed of suspicions
What about woman’s intrusion

Is this the case of trying to rewrite history?
Forever shroud in myths and mystery
God did say go forth and multiply
It was confirmed so now why is it a lie?

I do raise the suspicion in triplets and quadruplets that would be harder to carry those are typically followed by lower birth rates in a time when babies did not survive. Perhaps her did thrive!

I was told stories of girls getting married age 15-16
Since the age of 18, mothers gave birth 13 months apart that’s a start. I believe this could be true.
Generations had different family values who knew

What do you believe
truth or myth to deceive
What about it?
Yay or Nay

Footnotes
A woman is made for child bearing
Breastfeeding and caring with love
How would you feed 4 hungry babies
20 minute intervals two per side

Anyone who breast-fed knows
it’s a Suppy in demand situation
Her ******* had to be huge
rock, hard full of milk always

If you start to break it down
It would take a village a town
Community’s were closer back then
More the we spoil women can comprehend

You are in the corner you backed me into                                                                   ­                                              
 How does it feel to wear the other shoe?                                                                        ­                             
Tables have turned & I'm not going back                                                                         ­                                                  
 to being the rag doll in your attacks                                                                     ­                                               
Who's wearing your pants right now.              
                                                                ­                                               
Who's mouthing off, feeling **** proud?                                                                       ­                                              
Don't you just want to take control?                                                         ­                                                                 ­             
                                                   ­                                                               
 See how really deep you dug your hole?                                                                   ­                                        
I'm sure you don't know what this is                                                                    ­                                                      
  I always sat there & took your ****                                                                        ­                                                       
I think it's about time that you & me                                                                      ­                                       
Changed our shoe's permanently

Wholeness and suicide
Straight from misery
The salute of comparison, to pride...
And it's stare at a simple wivery

Fruit's of the future, in league
With a solemn taste to essentialize
A running chaste, with silence for egis...
Seem the tradition, seek the dance of the wise

Fires of tomorrow, if not its humanity
Shown to worth, the past of sincerity
Days share, a dream of paces duality
Both form love? the rose of mercy and virginity...

Character's to haste, a harmony...?
In the defense of prestige, a capable sensitivity
Adding the now, is need ours for longing?
A hatred in lore, to establish a realer nativity?

Call of a waiting husband
Through the smile we keep for austerity, a shame
Is a requiem to adjust to a shadow in the sun?
When tired eyes example a change of season's, a name...

Right, the voice of curiosity with a patience's problem
About, a hill of deference, an act of powers that is kind
Majesty, to the rage of summation that is a weary living
Meant, and met in the fame of substitution of chance's mind

Money, the odd ordeal of liberty...
To which, in the voice of introspection
A callous ghost or curious host, has me by the simplicity
Of worldly asking and fating, an inheritance of how's intuition?

A beautiful friend, you are
Polite to the core
And at the same time, seldom not upfront
You possess a lot of grit
Not to mention, are you a gem of a colleague
Your heart is really big
And you are extremely helpful
Way to go, girl!

A beautiful friend, you are
Riddham and you are such a sweet pair
You are a wonderful character
Always smiling from ear to ear
So brilliant at work
In you, what's not to like?

A beautiful friend, you are
A lot of difficulties, have you often had to bear
However, you are quite strong
And rarely do you go wrong!!

A beautiful friend, you are
You and Riddham are totally made for each other
One of the most romantic couples
You put each other completely at ease!!

A beautiful friend, you are
And an even better wife, you sure are
Managing office work as well as house work
Never, do you go blank
Well, you are a remarkable woman
Having you around is such a boon!!

A beautiful friend, you are
With me, patient have you been forever
In spite of various mistakes from my side
You are seriously too good!!

A beautiful friend, you are
Forget you I will, never
Here's hoping we catch up soon
Take care and have loads of fun!!