"Do what I say no matter the cost" I am what they want me to be My feelings are numb My soul is lost It's fine if I'm not whole All they need is my body My bones cry out My skins is a sheet covering the holes I have little energy to even breathe I cry till my lungs have no air I stuff my face in a pillow My jaw aches while I clench my teeth All the oxygen in the room leaves Dark thoughts swarm my head Depression holds me while I heave I could just die I feel worthless, I am nothing I watch as everyone leaves I don't know how long I can do this Got to get away Its not like I'll be missed No one around me cares I'm a breathing corpse I guess its true Life's not fair
I see you're with someone else One of my friends I don't know how to get over you I've tried But I keep coming back There's a much deeper connection Than just friends I feel it No matter how far I run Or how far you push me away I'll always come back Even though you have abandoned me I will never abandon you No matter how many times You have pushed me aside And said you don't care You always say you would care If I died but now I'm not so sure I know your girlfriend would But I'm just an ex I want to be in your life But you always push me out Plus it hurts to see you and her Ever since that day That horrid day I've been lost You could even say that I'm Dead It feels like it Might as well make it true You wouldn't care You could finally be rid of me So maybe I'll say goodbye Forever
Some people are used to feeling everything Others feel nothing I don't feel anything anymore I feel like everyday I force myself just to smile Sometime i find myself happy but it always fades Everything fades I wake up and find everything pointless Music would be my escape Now nothing works anymore My life is pointless
three times one: i sit here on my friend's kitchen floor with a bottle of pills and a throbbing headache 'just take a few they're 200mg each you'll be fine' i smile and nod, she walks out i begin counting '200, 400, 600, 800, 1000...' all the way up to 2600 "what will 2600mg of ibuprofen do to me" i wonder and i down the pills hours later im fine nothing im not hurting just numb once again as always and i eat then like usual, go puke it
~the summer before 7th grade~ just a little more dead inside than before
Half of the world I’ve built is in ruins. My sanctuary is damaged past repair. How can such vibrant feelings, Just disappear into thin air? There is not a single light as I fall, Spiraling into despair.
