#complicated poems on Hello Poetry

Jay M Mar 2020

I was always a little
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And have always been  a f r a i d
Of  f a l l i n g  a p a r t
Until I met you

Then I wasn't so scared anymore
That was before
I messed up
You had filled my cup
But now it only has a sip left
There was a theft
I gave you my heart
Now I'm left with only part
But that's okay -

Hey,
I can be patient until things calm down
I might frown
But that's just because I miss you
And I'm wondering if you miss me too

Wrote you a letter
Gonna send it once things get better
But for now
I wonder how
Everything went so wrong
But I'll just work on making things right
As my hope takes flight
That maybe one day
You'll be able (and want) to come back and say
You want me back

For now, Love,
I'm waiting for you
And I will do
Whatever it takes
To be okay
While you are away
And to be myself
Instead of letting it sit on a shelf

Love is fragile
It takes a while
To be steady
And it cracks
But gets patched up
We would lie on our backs
Talk about when we are grown up
Now you've got to go focus
I think I'll grow some crocus
Flowers to admire
I'll sit by the fire
To warm my half-a-heart
While we are apart

Darling, I will wait
This is fate
Right?
For now, there's no one to hold me tight
Memories of your arms around me
All of our memories - they won't leave me be
Because I'm so in love with you
And I really hope you still are too

I'll be here
My dear
Waiting for you
Do what you need to do
Then I hope you'll come find me
And we can be
Just you and me
Once again

- Jay M
March 5th, 2020

He and I...we're not allowed to talk to each other. I'll wait for him as long as it takes, and if he wants me back once everything settles then here I'll be.

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Love, if somehow you read this, know that it's okay and I'll be right here waiting for you if you want me back. For now just focus on school, and everything will be okay. I love you..

#love #delicate #waiting #complicated #school #patience #letter #heart #fire #you

Jane Feb 2020

Forest Green with the Hazel Sun

Forest green, with the hazel sun, I analyse your eyes

"What are you thinking?"

Just how exactly have you changed my norm?

Is it how you make me feel at home, belonging?

Is it how you make me feel in love, yearning?

Is it how you make feel at ease, calming?

The existence of you is perplexing

How can you be so caring?
How can you be so tender?
How can you be so forgiving?
How can you be so thoughtful?

How can you know me so well?

I've built walls, you re-constructed them.
I've been silent, you've read my mind.

Sleeping, is something I’ve preferred alone,
you overcame the comfort of my solitude

You and I are a perfect balance
the pragmatic and the intuitive
the diligent and the ardent

The weight of what I feel for you has it's gravity,
There are times when I say
I love you
I tear up

I'm afraid to think anything bad of you,
Because you bring out everything good in me.

You don't change me, you evolve me
I was so worried I'd make a mistake,
I was blinded to the greatest choice I made.

You,
Thank you,
For You.

My love, My home, My Best Friend

I love you

#love #boyfriend #depth #eyes #calm #complicated

Georgie Feb 2020

Break My Heart

"We're best friends"
You tell me
And a little piece of me
Dies Inside

"I think they're pretty"
You tell me
And a little piece of me
Dies Inside

"I'm sorry we're not more"
You tell me
And a little piece of me
Dies Inside

I'm scared of losing you
Losing my safety
My happiness
My friend

So I'll just let you
Carry on
Breaking my heart

And when there's no heart to break
I'll tape it up
And start all over
Again

Feelings ****

#feelings #friend #complicated #break #heart

Gray Roxanne Feb 2020

as of late

Perhaps
you could imagine
that
you have been on my mind
as of late

a slight plucking
of my second-to-lowest
heart string

you smirked,
you imagined that you were a musician

you bit the eraser on your pencil,
you imagined that you could conduct me

you stared deeply into me from across the room,
and you imagined the possibility of
"us"

a slightly louder plucking
of my second-to-highest
heart string

you diverted your attention to the window,
and you dismissed the thought of "us".

it was not right at that moment

but you feel differently
as of late

the third poem inspired by Yoko Ono's "Grapefruit" for my poetry class

#yoko #ono #prose #poetry #heart #love #manipulation #you #complicated

Patterson Feb 2020

Not her. Anyone but her.

dear heart of mine;
What you desire is something I cannot give,
since her words, her gaze
must never be mine.

To want for nights in her arms
softly composing verse
is futile.
And to wish for her lips
to seek out yours in the dark
is foolish,
beyond hope,
beyond reason.

She cannot be yours.
-will not.
Must not.

Because on a feeble ledge you wait:
her as your counter.
A single step
and surely you will let her fall.
Speak of your affection only to tear apart
the careful stitching of time and fate
that brought you here in the first place.

Be careful foolish heart
not to undo such bonds
for you are not as heroic as you presume.
You would perish
if you were to walk alone again.

So I got a crush on someone I'm not allowed to have. And it's making life hard. Especially because she's one of my roommates, and also my best friend's little sister.
That was about two months ago...

#not #her #anyone #but #crush #infatuation #forbidden #complicated #foolish

ADS Jan 2020

Screaming in Silence

Why chase your ideal view of perfection
You can have a bronze tongue disguised in silver
A bond built on brokenness that is never a whole
All the answers to the questions you view as important
But never have the answers to the questions asked
Hopeful but desperate for a silver lining
Sad but happy with how I am contributing
Not feeling I am doing enough
Complacent.Lost..Happy?

I have just be thinking a lot of who I am and what I am doing and how I just feel lonely in my own self discovery.

#sadness #stressed #depression #lonely #happiness #complicated #love #lust #discovery

Sijal Jan 2020

If I knew the ways

If I knew the ways...
To let you know how I feel, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To get past this pain, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To tell him that its not him, but his BEST FRIEND, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To turn back time and confess it before her, then MAYBE I would.
If I knew the ways...
To make you stop missing her and look at me; once; then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To discipline my heart and learn self control, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To stop this twinge when you call her name, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To filter my thoughts and not think of you, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To not only APPRECIATE but ACCEPT and RECIPROCATE his love, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To fear the rage of the girl you like, in coming to know my feelings for you, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To make you mine in ANY WAY then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To stop this hand to pick the pen and write poems about you, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To not send words to him that were written for you, then I would.
If I knew the ways...
To correct
MYSELF,
MY SITUATION,
MY HEART,
MY BRAIN,
...
YOU,
ME,
HIM,
HER
Oh, I would!
Oh, I would.

Only if I knew...
THE WAYS.

It's difficult trying to let go of someone you love and trying to move on with someone you don't. But you know, what you want can never be yours and what can be yours is something you don't earnestly want. It's complicated but it's my story.

#unrequitedlove #complicated #friendship #longdistance #love #triangle