If this is the last time I see you,                                                             ­             
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please know that you were loved                                                            ­    
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and is you're missing me too                                                              ­                
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then you can look up above                                                            ­                                                
I will always be watching,                                                        ­              
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making sure you're okay,                                                            ­                    
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 even though we aren't touching,                                                        ­          
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I'll be with you each day                                                              ­                    
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  You were my favorite treasure                                                         ­           
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 that I was blessed to have                                                             ­               
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and it was my pleasure                                                         ­                   
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to guide you down life's path                                                             ­     
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  If you ever loved me                                                               ­                 
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keep me in your heart                                                            ­                      
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with your love & memories                                                         ­                   
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I will never part

I am broken into pieces                                                           ­                       
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  No glue will ever mend                                                             ­                     
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Out of anyone's reaches                                                          ­                                
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  I will no longer pretend                                                          ­                              
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I am holding onto ledges,                                                          ­                          
                                                                ­                                                          while defying gravity                                                          ­                          
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with oil on the edges,                                                           ­                                 
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I cannot rescue me                                                               ­                       
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I am walking a fine line,                                                            ­                                                              
wi­th a heavy heart                                                            ­                      
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But I'll say that I'm fine.                                                            ­                      
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so, I don't fall apart                                                            ­                          
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  Inside a war is raging,                                                          ­                        
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  it's me against myself                                                           ­                         
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But I'll keep on staging,                                                         ­                   
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So no one can tell,                                                            ­                                  
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that I am really close to                                                               ­   
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 going straight to hell                                                             ­                       
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No one knows what I go through,                                                         ­             
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  I guess it's just as well

This is my heart broken in two,                                                             ­                                                                      ­                                                      
it can't heal; it still loves you                                                              ­            
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Th­ese are my eyes tearing & blue                                                             ­     
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They can't dry; I still miss you                                                              ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­           
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These are my hands, shaking so bad                                                              ­                                                  
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They just let go of the best I've had                                                            
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 These are my lips cracked & dry                                                          
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Missing your kiss, asking why?                                                             ­                 
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 ­ These are my feet unable to move                                                             ­         
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I can't live here without you                                                              ­                                                                 ­                                     
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This is my life without you in it                                                                     ­                                        
 Missing a piece that only you fit

During the time we were apart,                                                           ­               
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wounds formed scars on my heart                                                            ­        
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Now whenever I close my eyes,                                                            ­            
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I see you & her, I can't deny,                                                            ­          
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when we kiss it isn't the same,                                                            ­                                              
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I feel your mouth say her name                                                             ­         
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then I flashback to where we were,                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­                                           
when I caught you alone with her,                                                             ­       
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I know you want us to move on,                                                          
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but I'm not sure I am that strong                                                           ­             
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It's not easy to forgive & forget,                                                                    ­                         
because I am not over it yet
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Just because it fell through for you,                                                             ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­               
doesn't mean I should go back to you                                                        
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You should have thought about it first                                                      
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 before you decided it was me, you'd hurt                                                      
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I 've been with you through thick & thin                                                             ­     
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and you **** on me again & again                                                            ­                          
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Don't blame me for what you've done,                                                            ­        
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I won't miss you when you are gone                                                             ­ 
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While you were busy replacing me,                                                        
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I was seeing what I couldn't see                                                              ­                    
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Now that I have really opened my eyes,                                                            ­  
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I love you less than I realized                                                         ­                 
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So, thanks for the favor for me                                                               ­                                                                 ­                                          
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Maybe she is still there waiting

What words do you say to your only son,                                                             ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­                                         
When he's going to jail on a ****** one?                                                             ­                                                                 ­                                        
Do you tell him to be brave & strong?                                                          ­    
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Do you confront him on being wrong?                                                           ­ 
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Do you hug him knowing his life is through?                                              
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Remind him of what he's done to you?                                                      
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  Do you smile & put on a brave face,                                                   
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  knowing he'll spend life in a hellish
place?                                                        
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Do you promise to visit him frequently,                                                      ­      
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Knowing he'll serve his life lonely?                                                          ­                                                                 ­                                                                       ­                       
What do you say to your only son,                                                             ­   
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When you know he's guilty on a ****** one?                                          
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Do you support him as best as you can?                                                          
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Do you tell him to be the better man?                                                          
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Do you tell him to tell the whole truth?                                                           ­ 
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Knowing exactly what it's going to do?                                              
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Do you blame him or blame yourself?                                                        ­                                                                 ­               
You didn't load the shotgun shells                                                           ­             
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Do you throw your hands in the air?                                                            
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Cry out to God in your despair?                                                         ­                 
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Do you fall to your knees & pray?                                                          
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Do you let him find his own way?                                                             ­     
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Do you cry & break down
inside?                                                          ­            
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 Tell him there's no reason to
lie?                                                             ­         
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What do you tell your only son,                                                             ­               
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Whe­n he's going to die for a ****** one.

Sixteen years ago, on this same date                                                                      ­                                                    
 I was in such a different headspace                                                        ­              
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Hopele­ss & thought that nobody cared                                                            ­    
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I convinced myself to not be scared                                                           ­     
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I gathered up all the medications                                                      ­                
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More than enough for relaxation                                                       ­                     
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Laid down on the couch like I had                                                              ­  
                                                                ­                                                           always done before when I felt bad                                                      
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I had spent so much time lately                                                  
        ­                                                                 ­                               
Planning & plotting ******* me                                                               ­ 
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  That night I couldn't take it anymore,                                                         ­ 
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  I had pain inside of my inner core                                                            
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I put my faith in the whole amount,                                                          ­        
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A handful of courage, I drank them down                                                    
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All of this dialogue in my head                                                             ­ 
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   would soon be silenced, would be dead                                                          
  ­                                                                 ­                                               
But God had other plans for me                                                               ­                                                                 ­                        
                                        ­                                                                 ­       
  sent an angel and his mercy                                                            ­              
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Now I am feeling so differently,                                                     ­               
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I thank God for loving me

There is an ocean deep inside of me                                                              
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and lately I've gone deep sea diving                                                           ­         
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I'm doing a little bit of self-reflection                                                  ­                      
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Making sure I'm headed in the right direction                                                    
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Trusting my intuition, no second guess                                                            ­  
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It's working pretty well, no problems yet                                                    
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Walking in the path that's right for me                                                            
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Standing tall in the face of adversity                                                        ­        
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Saying what I believe is the real truth                                                           
Even if it's not hitting your sweet  
tooth                                                    ­                
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Hold my head up & walk through the crowd                                                  
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This is me being me, me being proud

So, while I'm here broken & ******                                                           ­                     
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Mascara smeared; she still looks pretty                                                           ­ 
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Even with that smile in her eyes                                                            
­                                                                 ­                                                
  That ***** is the devil in disguise                                                         ­         
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She took my love & my pride                                                            ­                      
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Now every day, I die inside                                                           ­               
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Puffy faced & pouting mouth                                                            ­              
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She shows you what love's about                                                            ­
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She was a habit you couldn't quit                                                            
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  It was me you chose to forget

Unblinking eyes, plastic smiles                                                                       ­    
Not seeing me, this thing defiled                                                                      ­ 
No friends, many enemies                                                          ­                                                                 ­                                             
No one cares about me                                                                          ­                                        
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 Shunned kids at school                                                           ­     
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Not good enough, too uncool                                                                      ­                                           
 Taking me to my limit
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I just kept on taking it                                                                  ­                                        
Pushing it down deep inside                                                           ­             
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Shows itself as I hide                                                             ­                               
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A target, bullied every day                                                              ­            
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I die a little more each day                                                              ­            
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Collapsing inside, heart first                                                            ­          
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Don't they how much it hurts?                                                           ­   
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In private, hot tears slide                                                            ­                  
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Won't let them take my pride                                                            ­      
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I pretend that I don't care                                                             ­                                               
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Don't return their cold stares                                                           ­             
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Rush back home to get away                                                             ­       
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Don't want to be bullied today