Lost Child of the Stars*


I feel lost in the galaxy of stars,  
everything shining like an illusion of void.  
I don’t even know who I am  
or what my purpose is.  

I was given a job—a job by God—  
but ny denial I nurtured, nurtured still to growth.  
Drunk with pleasure, relaxation, lust of the world,  
forgetting the job, the purpose meant to guide my path.  

I felt worthless and lost,  
I felt  loss of the world around me.  
Desire filled up my soul.  
Something wants to change inside of me—  
but I keep battling it:  
What if it escapes? Will my virtue leave me?

The more I search for myself,  
the farther away it goes.  
I’m just a child—a child  
who couldn’t even decide for herself.  

A child kept shut for defending herself,  
now lost to the world.  
It controls every day of her soul.  
Her desire cries in tears,  
blood rolling out of her eyes—  
but staring  into those eyes  
was a nightmare  
that must never be brought to life.