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undefined Jun 3
The call to Oblivion
gets harder to resist
A desire to be numb
so obviously persists
I changed "temptation" to "Itch" because, while it may seem more crass a word to use, I believe that it is much better suited
Sadie S Jun 6
Part of me wants to give up.
Part of me wants to stay and fight.
What would I be fighting for?
Us? Our family? Or To continue to being hurt ?

I express my feelings.
I felt ignored.

We’re married.
We’re suppose be a team.
Wheres the support?

I feel alone.
Your never there.
I needed you.
You still weren’t there.

At times maybe you were physically there but mentally not.
You didn’t see my pain.
When I needed you to be my rock.

You didn’t see my pain.
When you hurt me.
I didn’t see the damage it caused me.

The flashbacks.
The anger.
The fainting.
The triggers.
The assumptions.

I asked you to stop.
I told you I would leave.
You didn’t listen.

Your too busy on your phone.
Searching all these woman.
They were more important to you.
You started losing me.

Now here we are.
On the border of divorce.
apricot Jun 5
you can't swim to save someone
who wants to drown.
Mimi Jun 3
Everyone's addicted to something
caffeine
drinking
smoking
toxicity
hate
some will let their pain consume them so no one
has to deal with their problems but they keep
growing as they try to fix everyone else's
im addicted to the rush
of what?
everything i could do and don't do
just wanted to write something
Hawley Anne Aug 2022
There's a city where people are asleep on the streets,
with nothing to eat,
some of them even lack shoes on their feet.
A city where overdose deaths are the "norm"
People are fighting for the doorways at night to keep warm.
Fentynal is everywhere and the addicts need help.
But with all of the stigma,
they're to ashamed of themselves.
In this city where people smoke drugs on the street,
and burn hand sanitizer at night for the heat.
Where the rents are to high and income assistance to low.
If you can manage the rent here,
there'll be no food in your home.
Moneys not spent on saving their lives,
no its spent on public art and yet another high-rise.
Tourist attractions and random art pieces,
are great when the overdose deaths AREN'T  INCREASING.
We need social programing and addiction resources,  
some good low cost housing or more food supports.
In a city like this what are the addicts to do,
just stay out of your sight,
as to not offend you?
Cops do Illegal searches and seizes,
and your friends tell you about,
the POLICE LEAD Stanley Park BEATINGS.
In the mornings on Hastings Street the city workers come through,
now destruction of peoples belongings ensues.
They can't even protest this or put up a fight,
because the City Workers come armed with VPD by their side.
This city treats homelessness as if it was a crime,
they are treated like **** that is not worth your time.
If you're homeless here dont  expect any respect,
in fact your human rights don't even have an effect.
This city is sick and its priorities need help.
Vancouver B.C you should be ashamed of yourself.
Stephen Knox Jun 2
This path shown by others, she then stepped to go.
Quickly moving past them, if ever so slow.

She watched them all cave in, and fall in the mud.
Death won't approach those, with dragon fire blood.

Drudging much deeper, than any can go.
Only seeing daylight, by tipsiest of toe.

No one around her, with nothing to say.
Walking past people, that got in her way.

Once in a while, she'll climb up the side.
The taste of fresh air, has her worlds then collide.

Stumbling down further, knees on the floor.
Never once able, to pry open death's door.

This life digs in deeper, for those that won't die.
Giving them obstacles, right on the fly.

All she must feel through, from end to the start.
Knowing the pain of the world, is her part.
In a dusty magic orchard, my soul lost its worth.
Where a garden of poison fruit called from the Earth.
There, a tree stood, it was beautiful and dark.
But when the glare from the moon revealed me to its bark,

Its branches took hold. I knew I was ensnared.
Ripped out my intentions, as dust filled the air.
Its trunk overtook me, no matter my strain.
I was trapped in a euphoria, divine and insane…

Beyond the veil of roses, we know of the thorns.
That omnipresent sting of need, that slowly adorns.
All beauty seen, only masked an ugly face.
In a statuette state, watched my world shift its shape.

Each petal a facade, each leaf was a lie.
This enchanted tree, has now silenced my cry.
My soul, now ensnared to its beautiful spell,
My search in desperation, formed a path straight to hell.

Deep In this garden, I remain without vision.
Controlled at its will, my roots bound in addiction.
Only one tale unfolds for my soul. I’m too deep,
As my cries become screams, I’m as silent as sleep

Adore not this garden. oh sad, starving heart.
For this magical garden will tear you apart.
Never eat from her harvest. Never mask your own dread.
Run far from this soil feeding my life to the dead.
Kalmia lilies May 31
have i ever wanted this as bad as i do now?
as bad as i feel after obtaining it ?
I give in as i plan my own demise , my one damnation
waking up from a mystical dream
compelling myself to forget the deed
As i keep to myself as I'm only to blame
blamed for executing my dying will.
will the guilt be so lethal i could ****
**** myself to start over do it again
how could something hurt but hurt so good ?
so good that it gives it's place to this.
feeling.
leaving no room for healing
Already done that bruv
gone through the whole gamut
got fed up
and stopped.

what you do
is not up to me
it's up to you

but it'll **** ya
take the luck from ya
and put ya down.

just saying bruv
it's a hard time
coming back.
Drugs are not what they're cracked up to be.
Izan Almira May 30
It doesn’t even feel good anymore;
there is no reason, nothing that makes it worth it.
There is nothing new in the feeling. In the action.
But like air, I still need it. I still do it.
Do it on repeat like a song on a CD-player that has already grown old
but got stuck months ago.

When I do it, I feel disgusted. Disgusted with myself.
Disgusted with my life.
But know what? It’s better than not doing it—
than letting the thoughts invade my heart;
than letting the thoughts take hold of my arms,
make them move without my permission.
I prefer this numbness— this disgust—
over living in my own body; the shed it has become.
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