The fire is dying and i no
Longer know the face in mirror.
Drained and exhausted batteries its
Day three and i feel nothing.

Can't talk to much.
Can't laugh to loud.
Can't have fun.
Can't do anything.
Tell me what I can do?.

When night falls that's when the worrying thoughts starts.
I am good enough?.
I am trying so hard to open to up
But none listens to me.

I am trying really hard to be normal.
I am trying to man up as they keep
Telling me to do.
Fighting the darkness in my own head.

Waking up to the tired questions.
Whats wrong with you?.
Your too loud.
Your too quite.
Why don't you come round anymore.

Your not smiling enough.
Your not talking enough.
Your not laughing enough.
You not doing it right.

You need to speak up more.
You need to listen.
Your just being selfish now.
Do this so I feel happy.

I am more broken than they think.
Night falls and fear takes over.
My chest tights.
My hearts starts to beat fast.

I am depressed because the ones who are meant to help me.
Are the ones who are hurting me the
Most.

Let me drown in the sea of your
inner beauty.
Let me touch the most broken
part of your heart
Come dance with me in the
warm summer rain.
Touch me under the silver moonlight make me long to taste your kiss.
Let me miss you every time you leave.

Somedays I am happy laughing
And full of jokes.
The life and soul of party.
Other days I want the darkness
Just to take me from the
Misery

The day finally came when your
Name didn't make me smile
Anymore.

Heartless I am not
I just learned to use my mind more and use my heart less.

Wrapped up in waves of emotions.
He shines like the silver midnight
Moon-colder than a marble statue.

His poker-face could device anyone.
Yet every time he looks my way.
My heart beats my body shakes.

Lips softly kissed hearts touched.
Lost in his hungry lustful eyes.
Wishing we could stay in this moment.

My heart healed
When I learn to love and
Not hate.

He was her sinful and twisted fanstay
His siren call, was always answered by her.
She was the dark fairytale he loved to get lost in over and over.
Together they made magic that few people could understand.

I have learned to careless about
What strangers think of me.
You will never make everyone happy
Love me ot hate it.
Put me down and i will get back up
And my life will go.
If i disappoint you thats only because
I won't live up to your expectations.
Never i will become part of this
Fake faceless and hateful society.
When you careless you live happy.

She was dreaming,
Of that time they sat and watched the
Fire slowly die.
Dancing in the warm summer rain
Feeling as if time had stopped.
How they  would always slip into the darkness of the night.
Escaping from all the watching eyes
Longing to feel his touch.
Laying naked in his arms skin to skin
Wishing they could stay together.
Knowing that the one thing they wanted could never be.
She died everyone he said goodbye.

You are the dream I am
Always chasing.

Does goodbye mean letting go?
Does letting go mean forever?.
Because either way a heart breaks.

I don't know...
What love is only because I have
Never been shown it by anyone.

I don't know...
How to trust anyone when its
Been broken so many times.

I don't know...
How where my life is going either
Not every question has an answer.

Yes I'm a dreamer who has been
Lost in many dreams.
But sometimes it is best to be lost
In a dream than have nothing.

In a bowl add

One tablespoon of promises made but never kept.
Two tablespoons of lies.
Five tablespoons tears
Ten tablespoons of emotional pain.

a recipe for breaking hearts

I have rock bottom hard.
Yes I have made mistakes and learn
Many lessons.
To all my readers thank you for the
Kinds words and support.
Never have I treated you like idoits
You have helped me grow.
Not ever poems of mine has been
Good enough to post.
I am not putting the pen down I
May take a break for awhile.
Thank you for making me the poet
That I am.

My mind is numb and my heart
Feels more than one emotion.
I am good acting okay when i falling
Apart inside piece by piece.

I am scared of the night because
That's when the thoughts get me.
My mind has become a twisted maze
I want out of.

I wake up in a cold sweat crying
You can't be dead.
The bible says time heals wounds
But my wounds aren't healing.

Did heaven really need another angel?
Couldn't he have taken someone else?.

The icy cold fingers of sadness
Creep in touching my heart.
Taking me to the point where i feel
Nothing but cold and numb.
I dont want to feel this most of the
Time i am writing to forget.

An unseen telnet.
A light that's never seen.
Words that are never heard
Smiling throught the pain.
Laughing throught the tears.
Learning never to give up.

I knew that he would be a trouble that
Would break my heart.
Taking me to dark places in me that I
Didn't know exist.

I knew that one taste of his venomous lips would be something I'd regret.
But it never stopped me longing for just one taste of a poison kiss.

I knew the longer I stare into his eyes the more lost I would become.
He was a broken beauty that drew me
Into his wicked game.

Writing poem after poem in the hope he read them and say something.
Passing glances feeling angry at myself for allow him in.

I hate myself for loving him and tasting the forbidden fruit I should have just left well alone.

Do you die trying while known
That glory is close?.
What if neither your head or
Your heart are right?.
Is there really an in between or
Does it have to be all or nothing?.

Always Say never...
To the person who says
Don't follow your dreams.

Always say never...
To the one's who try
To change who you are.

Always say never...
To the people who try
To silence you.

Always say never...
To the heart breakers back stabbers
And the story tellers.

They only want to cut you down.

We both wanted that happy ending
That only exists in the movies.
Chasing dreams.
Watching sunsets holding hands.
Sharing sweet kisses.
The highs where high and the lows
Where low.
Missing pieces and shatter dreams.
I wonder where you are now.

I have crossed trouble waters and
Wild oceans.
Hit the ground hard felt alone
Cried in the night.
But everytime i see your smile
It saves me.

Love your self.
Love who you are.
Love your body.
Beauty has no size.

Dreams are my play ground where i
Am far from a cold reality.
Until morning comes.

I once looked at you like the stars looked at the moon.
Feeling as if there was nothing more beautiful than this moment, made with you.
Just as the last of the summer roses died so did you.
Until we meet again I will never give
My heart to anyone

He looked me in the eyes and said
My only fault, was i created a lie
That you believed.
In that moment something died
In the deepest part of my heart.

To some i am nothing more than
A cold heart demon.
To others i am an angel with a heart
Thats as deep as the ocean.