It's suffocating to force yourself to fit in,
It's as good as the shadow struggling to become the light.
Because deep down you know that you don't belong,
And there's no helping it.

Where did you go?
I missed the times
Those times
Where you greeted me
As soon as you woke up

Where are you now?
You are nowhere to be seen
You didn't reply
To any of my messages
Even though it was marked
As seen

I'm worried
It's suffocating
Am I not good enough?
I want to be there
For you always

But I guess
I can never embrace you
I guess I am never worthy
Because all along
I am filled with nothing but
Selfishness.

Do you remember how the time ticks
How the time flows
How everything just flew by
Within a matter of seconds?

Can you see the sorrow hidden
Behind her blue beady eyes
With a glimmer of hope shimmering
Wishing that you were here

Do you realize
How much you led her on
And then broke her heart
At the very next second?

She hoped you could save her
She hoped that she could smile
She placed all her trust in you
But what did you do?

You made her stopped believing
You made her cry
You broke her over time
That she could never function again

Once lost; remains non-existent.
The perfect paint; nothing but a patch of grey.
Darkness lingers; colors fades.