I want to rip out my heart
So it can never feel you again
I want to **** out my brain
So thoughts of you are gone
I want to pluck out my eyes
So they won't ever gaze in yours
I want to cut off my arms
So they don't remember you inside them
I want to remove my legs
So they can never ever wrap around you
Till all that's left is a ****** rotten corpse
         Because if I have no feeling left,
          Ill never feel anything at all.

I'm completely disgusted with myself
Today, I almost wrote a poem about you
I almost put it under your pillow
So you would randomly find it
And think about me
But I don't want to seem crazy
                     I just want to open up your head
                     See what's inside
                     I wanna love you when your happy
                     Hold you when you cry
                     Kiss you when your leaving
                     Laugh when your mad
                     I want you to feel good
                     And know how wonderful you are
                     I want to know your past
                     I want to see the future
                     I want to paint every feeling glowing inside
                     I want inside jokes
                     Smiling because no one knows that's around
                     I want to tell you secrets
                     Listen about how much you love triangles
                     Your my muse
                     And I love the attention
                     Your eyes are stars
                     And I'm supernova
                     Things make sense when I'm with you
                     Like a game of risk or chess
                     Checkmate
                     I found my king
                     Ill be your queen
                     And we can take over energy
                    
                     Basically,
                                      I like you.
****.
That's what the poem would say
If I wrote it
And slipped it under your pillow
So you'd find it
And not think I was weird
Only cute.
Well, my heads in the clouds.
You probably think I'm crazy.
**** I'm crazy.

Even when I'm feeling down,
Right where you left me.
I still listen to your song,
Thinking about what would happen if you ever forgot me.
I remember the moment.
How happy I was.
How perfect for each other we both were.
I can't help but get lost in that memory.
Your song plays on repeat in my mind.
To the point where I'm driving myself insane in your silence.
Driving myself mad because I know that you could still love me.
The worst part is that I can't figure out if you ever will.
But I'm still listening,
Because you I could never forget.

I'll never change who I am.
Someday someone will understand.
I may have wrote these words for you.
Call me crazy,
I believe it too.

There's no more love left to give
This well has dried up
               Drop your buckets Down
                   Throw in your coins
                        Make a wish
Whatever helps you sleep at night.
I could lie.
                 Tell you its over flowing.
                                                        ­ Tell you that its unconditional.
But this Dreamless sleep is haunting me.
                            Echo...
I'm listening.
                     I'm hearing all that you say.
                     It sounds so sweet and pure,
but I am contaminated.
It's so cold,
                 just like you said it was.
Ravens.
             screaming down at me.
                                                     Black.
                                                          ­     Dark.
                                                           ­              And Broken.
Somehow your still drowning.
Filling me up with your tears.
                  While I'm still crawling down in this thick muck.
                            Digging myself
                                                      Deep­er
                                                              ­  and
                                                      Deepe­r
This is where i work my magic.
Casting spells over you.
                                       You were an easy prey.
Knight, raise your sword and fight!
                                        I like a challenge.
or let this witch control you.
Time has made me as I am.
The path laid out before me.
The sisters are spinning there strands.
                                                        ­     Laughing,
At you.
            You see,
                         The well was never there.
All was an illusion.
                         The water was untrue.
Now the darkness unveils, surrounding my heart.
It was but a guise for these indestructible walls of fortress.
            Brewing in my ***,
Sickness.                             Bubbling over.
            The planets are aligning.
            Our star in the East.
                                             The pang of love is glowing.
As I am growing sharpened teeth.
                                                         You fell in.
It all seemed so real,
                                 Didn't it?
You saw yourself, like a reflection in a mirror.
                                                         ­                   But could never sink beneath the surface.
Your face reflected inside my shining eyes.
My smile brimming at the corners.
Seducing you with words,
This spell was far too easy.
                                            And now you are a frog.
Awaiting for a kiss.
                                But where is your princess?

you walk across my mind
stomping memories fleet through me
pulled in two different directions
inner conflict
you rest in my imagination
just a small figmant of the truth
you bask in my inner light
absorbing all that you can
foreboding dreams await where you laid
restless night
tryign to slowly ease away from memories
thoughs so haunting
filled with your eyes, your smile, your voice
they say time will heal my brain
but i am permanently indented
you've taken over my head
what more can you conquer
oh wondering soldier
why are you so harsh?
did you already forget
have you truly focused on a different thoguht
am i really jsut the remnants of the past
am i tucked securely where i won't be found
i do believe you to be a liar
oh, love of mine.
forcefully broken, spiratically declined.
tell me whats crossing through your head
what way are you flowing
i used to float beside you
in our wildest dreams we didn't see this coming
oh broken heart!
why was she your answer
she is not your medication, just a fabrication of ones imagination.
i will be the retaliation
i willl not release without war
or should i let you slide through my aura
like water through the word work
i feel hallow
bang on my chest
echo
overwhelming emotion bouncing through me
can you feel my hurt?
i would cast it out
if it wasn't burned and etched so deep.
your words, can't forget.
were you even real?
was love ever true?
i'm torturing myself
while you put on a happy fiscade
but i know YOU
oh yes, i know you more than you think.
and someday you'll come back to me
but these arms will be filled
my thoughts, pure.
my heart will have found its cure
you will be remembered
as my self-inflicted inner suicide
and i will be reborn
reincarnated, refreshed, renewed.
you will not be foregotten
althought i wish time would erase you
but instead
something new will take your place
i will shine and glow
i will burn through your darkness
with happiness and new life
rebirth.
you cannot hold down the sky
even if the clouds and rain must fall
so my addiction,
i've put myself in rehab.
each day gets worse.
before it grows easier
but watch as light transcends from my face
down to my fingers, to my toes, gently glowing without a trace.
i shine in glory
for finally finding the truth
i'm sorry lover,
                         my drug,
                                         partner,
                                                      be­st friend.
each moment is a faded memory.

The walls came crashing down
too weak to endure the wind, rain, and thunder
the walls tumbled apart
crumbling into a heaping pile that we called a relationship
a desolate ruin
with a small light that endured through the wreckage
tears fall as we watched what we spent so long building
tear apart
you try to rebuild what you had
with someone new
what you fail to see
you can't rebuild on quicksand
squelching the only light left
it will stand steady for some time
but the rain always pours again
the thunder has not ended
the wind will press harder
and the sand will pull you farther
until all that you've built
is a destroyed reminder
of what had been
forever covered by your selfish desires
unburry my light
and maybe in fate your grass will grow
until you find out for yourself
you'll never know
remain in your makeshift home
only in time will its true colors show