I have finally realized why I have never felt pretty.
It is because, because...
I have dated several people who have called me beautiful.
But I could never understand why they would say that.
I assumed it was a formality.
For years, and years, some people have been attracted to me.
And I didn't know why.
Now that I am finally living in my correct sexuality.
With a fiance soon to be wife.
I am starting to understand.
She calls me beautiful, and pretty.
And doesn't under stand why I don't agree.
And it's because I never see anyone who looks like me.
So mixed, mixed salad.
Darkish skin, asian eyes, trini lips trini hips, white something? I don't know.
I look like nothing anyone has ever known.
My hair is both Trini, white, asian, and whatever else is peppered into who I am.
I am an almost complete puzzle of races.
I think only I can fully grasp that.