I’m getting greys
at an alarming rate,
I already pulled at my hair.
“It’s normal” he says
I swear just to debate,
cause he doesn’t seem to care.

And I’m bleeding through
my scar tissued skin,
the layers only grew
still I find a way in.

I’m getting greys
at an alarming rate,
I’ll be down to the last strand.
Check or fold the plays,
the cards aren’t that great
I’ll be down the my last hand.

And I’m bleeding through
my thick nice sweater.
It’s a shame as it’s new
and we’re reaching the cold weather.
It will stain the soft fabric
I may just grab the bleach,
but I always made it a habit
to always keep it just out of reach.

I’m getting greys
at an alarming rate
pretty soon I’ll be bald.
On hot coals she stays,
though she shifts her weight
and watches her soles scald.

And I’m bleeding through
my clogged and blocked pores,
and the remaining few
are becoming septic sores.
I’ll shed another layer
of a non-protective bubble,
and my hair will continue to get greyer,
I think I’m now in some trouble.

I found him late;
beautiful voice,
handsome face,
every sound I ever wanted
already sung.

He seemed kind.
Alive.

Then I read the ending.
So young.
So long ago.

And I just sat there,
stupid,
like it still mattered.

Bright moon above me
Ocean waves wash tears away
Warm breeze blankets me

Changes in a sky and below,
I may be an artist of a painter,
I never learned to love myself
and these crayons, I discover,
are of grey and black, forever
of this system I have lived,
If I could just make one wish,
It would be to care for myself.

I am so good at squishing down my anger
Into a tiny ball of nothingness
That I don't notice myself
Squishing it down
All the time

And it's swallowed
And transformed
By fear and guilt and shame

Little interactions- they are my fault
Tension and frustration- they are mine
Poor situations, bad decisions, the mess
I'm in-
I am both the victim and the perpetrator.

The anger-shame burns my body
Inside out
Muscles are tense
Arms are tense
Panic floods
As it all bursts forward
In an outward force

god, i'm so sorry
last time was really close
i'm doing better now
i promise

just don't look under my sleeve
and it'll all be okay

I'm drowning,
I'm dying.
Everything around my is falling apart,
And the wounds on my legs grow bigger.

Please help me,
Cause' I am dying,
And I won't be here for long.

a fish bone
stuck in your throat
that you have to get along with it

Black is all I see ,
For the world is made up of other colours,
Red , yellow, blue and green
But yet
All I see
Is the darkest shade of noir.
No matter how much I beleive
The world will always be black

GOD-
A POEM

(NOTE: TOPIC BASED OFF RELIGION)

——————
You ruined my life
I called you my savior
You didn’t help me when I needed it
You could’ve saved me but you didn’t
I was hurt
You ignored me
I was crying
You never saved me
You didn’t give me a sign you were there
You never helped me
You left me in despair
I hate you god
You left me on this path to die
You ignored my screams and cries
You left me in the dust
Smoke filling my eyes
Now Im blind to kindness
I almost didn’t survive
I’m not going to heaven
And I don’t care about hell
You are an idiot for thinking you are better than them all
You ruined my life
Yeah
That’s for sure
You ruined my life
You left me for dead
You didn’t save me when I needed you
You hurt me in strife
You never gave me a sign
It’s all your fault
You didn’t give them consequences  
You never gave me revenge
I can’t believe
You left me for dead
It’s all your fault god
Thanks for nothing
You ruined my life
Thanks..
For leaving
Me in strife
Because
I've found myself
Ive build myself back up
When you let them break me down
Now I hate you
So
I don’t thank you
God

you'll understand when
you're a parent — is a bad
way of parenting

Never was she the type to chase
For if she moved an inch
Failure would take her place.

Her footprints have molded the soil
Marking where she always waits
An illustration of her mortal foil.

To leave would mean to miss
What could finally be coming
To bring eternal bliss.

There she will wait
Until the earth swallows her whole
Where she sealed her fate.

They say when loneliness eats away at the heart,
Demons let themselves in,
They'll break apart,
Then send you to your coffin.

I try to resist them, I know I have to,
I don't want to accept the Devil's wager,
But it's difficult, when people hurt you,
They use you, tear you up, and they crush you and throw you away like a piece of paper.

There's no where to go,
No helping hand at offer,
All I have, is a silent voice I hear when the wind blows,
"Endure a while longer, I promise I'll make you burn brighter than the summer".

I’m in the produce
aisle and the local
fortune teller is

hurling strawberries
at me, as she yells,
Wake up, we’re in for

a wild ride and we
won’t be the same
when it’s over! Then

she charges toward
me, nearly knocks me
over and gives me an

electrified kiss. This
is the time when
peasants harvested

wild strawberries, she
says, then laughs like
a broken church bell.

I light a candle with your name in it.
All the quiet sorrow sits beside me, where no voice lives.
I remember the whispering birds—the hush before words.
Let the rain bear witness
to what hearts have sworn.

I don’t want to die,
I want to cease to exist.
To never have been born
And never have lived
For my soul and body to disappear
For any memory of me to be gone
To dissolve into nothingness and
Never have been anything at all

We are one laugh
From many tears.

Reminded Of My Place

     Well I took a vacation
It was good for this heart of mine
Came home did some work on the place
I was proud and on cloud nine

I hadn’t felt like this in a long while
Let it be my true confession
Hadn’t felt much like entertaining
I was in a state of depression

My daughter and Son in Law gave me
Their gently used Blackstone grill
It gave me some new inspiration
Changed my view and my will

I swept the Deck gonna have it
Professionally washed as well
Things were looking pretty good
Raised my spirits you could tell

So I washed and cleaned the old chairs
Even swept and gave the carpet a shampoo
I was on a roll and we went to buy a
Patio set a table and chairs brand new

Got a new umbrella and I was excited
Got some utensils for the grill so great
Told friends and family invitations
Are going to be sent and I can’t wait

Today was my first day back to work
I had my reality I needed to face
And as sure as this good heart still beats
I was quickly Reminded Of My Place

Written By:Charles Kean
06/10/2025
There’s nothing like getting brought
Back down to Earth.
God Bless!!!

If I could gather all my energy , like a lightning bolt, one thousand degrees                                                          ­                                                         I'd send it your way ASAP, then I'd pull you right into me                                                               ­                                                        Light a million fires till you say, a real I love you, everyday                                                         ­                                                     make you look me in the eyes ,look into my soul                                                             ­                                                            warm up your heart that has grown cold

Time flies by,
Everything fades away,
Like a candle burning out,
Watching it decay.
Chasing the light,
Losing the day.
Life and dreams
Fading away.

Standing face to face
Our eyes
we just stare,
No more words
No more tears
Sometimes life
Ain’t fair,
Hand in hand
Dressed in black
Life and death
Go back to back.
We left the cemetery
In single file
It’s hard to take
The loss of a child.

after days
of rain

the sky
now blue
and bladed

drapes
and unbraids

with pop
and blossom

green shakes free
unfolds in a new geometry

this is the unchanging continuum
the fragile piece of string

infinite at both ends
and here we are

our brief blink
of it
in it
on it

you werent wrong to believe in love
you were just wrong to believe it had no teeth

a girl with books
wobbling as she tries to balance them
she cant be older than seven

A boy in the adult mystery section
repeating to himself
"I need a boys book not a girls book"

A mother with her two children
following her like ducklings
leaving havoc as they pass

A girl and her mom
reading aloud
in the middle of the cooking isle

the birds chirp in the distance
the sun glows bright
in the cerulean sky
no clouds in sight
just sunshine
beating down on your skin
sweat trickles down your brow
a slight breeze
sways the grass
around your ankles