Hey, wasn’t that you
That I saw yesterday
Who passed me by?
In the fruit aisle
I was sure you saw me
I was by the green grapes
Where you took a few and ate
Do stolen grapes make you blind?
To the people who are standing nearby
I’ve always been there
Waiting in the background
For you to say hi
Or at least bump me when you walk by
Instead I get nothing
But the satisfaction that comes
From watching you eat
Stolen grapes

Sometimes I wish
That you and I were together
Like this
Because I can not resist
Fulfilling your every wish
And then isn’t this the twist?
That you and I
Could be together
Like the bird and the feather
Or the cold and warm attached to the weather
Being apart like this
Did you know that,
I stare at you from afar?
We weren’t meant to be friends
Or like brother and sister of kin
We were more meant to be
Suddenly like this
Total bliss
It’s what I wish

Try to be impervious
To all the words
Those people say
When my back is turned
But my ears are still there
They wonder why
I speak the way I do
Or why
In their words
I’m just plain strange
So what if I’m different
I wake up as human as them everyday
I just choose not to conform
To me
Conformity equals loss of individuality
Total mediocrity
I say
Different is so much better than average
I choose to be the maverick
So I’m impenetrable
Their words fly by me
I don’t even bother
To say hey

There are so many things in life
That can make you not like yourself very much
If you let them
The problem is
Once you’re at that point
It can be so hard to turn back
Every word
Can start to sound dissembling
Words meant to be esteem builders
Can find a way to tear you down
Once your self esteem has been battered down a bit
It’s hard to smooth out the chinks
In the armor
Sometimes you can build it back up again
But other times the battle has taken so much
That the new material
Is only thread and tissue paper
The façade is so weak
But most of the world does not see
How hard you have to try
To protect all that is underneath
You dig for strength from within
Now you see
Those walls too
Are turning paper thin
Take it a step at a time
Like layers of skin
Building up after a bad abrasion
One layer can’t stand much on its own
When they coalesce however
They can be as strong as wood
It could be a million strikes of an ax
Before all is cut and broken

I’m not ready to stop going steady
I want the warmth
But not the humidity
This is my unpredictable city
Cold hold me tight
But only for a season's worth of nights
I don’t want a full year
Of winters icy frights
Make it as I say
And I truly promise
I will never ever go

Words are my specialty
I control the flow
Fast or slow
Acidic and biting deep
Get rid of them fast
My brain commands my tongue
They’re poison to the body
And those around me
Try to get rid of them
And for a while
They seem to be gone
They’re only hidden
Ready to attack
The fastest way to destroy
People around me
I watch them shrivel
At the same time
It makes me feel stronger
It disgusts me
What have I become?
Sometimes they come out
Not what I meant them to be
I hope they’re not truly me
Don’t let the words consume me
That is not
Not who I want to be

The wrath of too soon
A sweet flower plucked before mid June
A song sung
Before the chorus was written
A child’s hands frostbitten
Without the chance of a mitten

I’m afraid of too soon
I’d rap myself in a cocoon
If that could hide me
From the pain
Of abandoned too soon

But forever would never be
Quite good enough
Never today
Because I will always prefer tomorrow
And tomorrow always becomes today
So my response will always be do not go

Goodbye will never flow easily
Those words always stuck on my lips
Maybe I could write it with a pen
But my fingertips will never save me
Please, don’t leave me

Prayer always saves me
Eases the fear when that seems to be all I’ve got
Don’t know if I can say goodbye
But his peace never runs dry
He’ll be there when
… they die.