I sit,
I wait.
Wait for the darkness to leave.
It will leave someday,
All I have to do is ignore it.

But the darkness just keeps growing,
In my head,
And in my life.
One bad thing after another.

I see a small light,
But it's to far away to reach.
I need help,
I need good.

Will anyone be my good?
The good and light in my life?
I can't reach the light,
But maybe,
Just maybe,
The light can reach me.

In a room inside my head surrounded by black,
The light is reassuring.
Even if I will never join the light,
It helps me cope with my darkness.
Knowing that there are people who have light,
Instead of dark,
Makes it easier to live with myself.

I wish I would just cease to exist
Evaporate into nothingness
I want to become tiny water droplets
To be the moisture in the air

I wish to follow the wind
Over the mountains and fields
I want to be the blue in the ocean
And the green in the trees

I wish to fade into the wet grass
Of being nothing more than a whisper
I want to fade out of your memory
Leaving only an echo of a heartbeat

If you fall in love with a writer
Be prepared for heartbreak.
Those writers, they are hopeless romantic.
They love, not just with heart
But body, and soul; They love
With their words, and all things old.
And yet, they do not know often
How to use those words, unless through a pen.
Their silence will hurt you
Not once, but over and over again.

If you fall in love with a writer
There is no happily ever after.
They'll push and pull away from you
Those writers, they'll run and hide.
Then write about you, for you, only you
And arise; But it's a vicious cycle
And you cannot get by.
For some writers do not know happy,
For others, ever after is a myth.
They know their hearts, but not their minds,
I apologize but it is the bitter truth.

If you fall in love with a writer
Be ready to live forever.
You become their only words
And their words become only you.
Pages after pages of them inked
Maybe, a spoken few.
Whether you will it or not
You're their only truth, all else is a lie.
Because as the saying goes -
*"If a writer falls in love with you,
You can never die."