I miss you more than you can imagine
I love you, unconditionally
You are the rock and the ground that I stand on
Without you I know I'll fall down
Please don't give up
Don't call it the end
You are my best friend
I need you through the downfalls
I know I don't know
Much about this life
But I know you
And that is enough for me

I am distracted from sadness,
but it is still there,
always.
I want to be with other people
to take away the physical hurt I feel
from not being with you.
It's a crushing feeling,
feeling you gone.
I don't want it to be like this.
But I also know what I deserve,
and I know you cannot give that to me.
I am not sure that anyone can.
All my life I have been
a hopeless romantic,
always seeing the beautiful sides of things
and ignoring the ugly.
But maybe there's just
too much ugly,
and there's no way I can
avoid or escape it anymore.
I want to be with you,
forever,
even still.
I miss the darkness.
Maybe I am not destined to be happy,
to be satisfied.
I still know that I am meant
to be with you,
and I long for you to be next to me.
I think I should call you.
I think I shouldn't,
I think I will.

in the same way the sky speaks to you,
so the earth gave me these songs to sing to.

I was released from your hold
and at the same second
I longed for the chains
that kept us together
I miss the sweet laughter
the sadness you bring
hidden behind little promise rings
oh, the drag of the day keeps me down
and the pull of the night makes me wish to come home
alone, in the ground
I am living through these puppet eyes

Remember the arguments
I love watching you cry
I've wanted to touch you, oh, I'd never try
Impulse to cause pain, I cannot deny
All these loving chemicals
Recording a slow dive
I bought death at a carnival stand
I cannot wait to die

how do you imagine a non-material reality?

nourishing care

attend to your habits, little one

with metaphorical abundance

it's challenging, even provocative

encounter me, but move past.

we're part of this formless void

so be responsive to me

ex nihilo

I'm tied into you

and the outskirts of this substantial world

radical transcendence

a recount of divinity

DEITY

I am still bound by limitations

am I nonsense,

or just transcending transcendence?

You're stepping on the definite line
That separates the realms of my consciousness

What would it be,
If I had love for me?
I can't ever leave,
I will never flee,
I would never want to.
Although I am not a treasure,
In your eyes or mine
To stay is better than for me to be free . . .