Our whole life is spent discovering
Discovering who we were
Discovering who we are
Discovering who we will become

The past is the anchor that holds us
And reminds us who we are
The present is the canvas on which we create
Who we are to become
The future is the wings
On which all of our hopes and dreams will soar

Our perspective on life is constantly in motion
when we gaze into the past
We gain an understanding
An understanding that was not possible when the past was the present

As we live in the present
We base all of our decisions on the knowledge
That we gained from the past
And from on our desires as we gaze into the future

As we look towards the future
It is a blank canvas on which all of our hopes
Our dreams
And our desires
Have the potential to become our present.

As I lay here watching you,
I begin to realise
Just how much I am falling in love with you

I say the words
Over and over in my mind
But I'm too scared to say them out loud

Everything is perfect when we are together
Almost too good to be true
You came into my life
At a time that I wasn't searching for love
But love found me

I've crashed and burned before
But when I'm with you
I have this undeniable feeling
That I'll never crash or burn again

With you I am complete
With you my search is over
I finally have my ever after
And there is no doubt that I have fallen
Completely and totally
In love with you

I scream inside

But I cannot die

I have promises to keep

and volumes to write

but this feeling inside

is drowning me from within

My world of dreams

So beautifully constructed

So perfect and blissful

Now only bring pain

My dreams are so bright

My life so bleak

No paths leading ahead

no bridges leading back

Stuck in a loop

I cannot break

I can feel the cracks

As they spread throughout

my heart and my soul

How long can I live

with a fractured soul

How long can I survive

when all hope feels lost

Lilies fall into the sea
Oceans flow along the abyss
Stars fly across the sky
Falling
Flowing
Flying
The universe abounds full circle

As I sit and gaze upon the date

A wave of sadness washes over me

I realise now, though it's too late,

Just how much, you meant to me

All those years, those 18 years

You could have been mine, I could have been yours

But instead I am here, and you are there

And time just keeps on, ticking by

Pulling us further with each hour

I have only myself to blame, for not realising sooner

For not seeing what we could have been

For not believing in you, for not believing in us

You were the one, and I was a fool

I'll never forget, those times we shared

the fair, the fudge, the midnight rides

You loved me true, like no other could

But I was shallow and I made mistakes

the bridges burned, the past is gone

I hope you're happy, you deserve the world

You deserve someone, someone to love you like you loved me

It's hard to believe 18 years have passed

since that day I chassed you for the fudge

You've always been my knight, my star, my one true love

But I was a fool, and I pushed you away

The price I pay, for my foolish ways

I lost you, I lost my heart, I lost my love

When life is grey
I escape into a world of colour
When my heart feels only black
I escape into a world full of passion and love
When my soul feels only torment
I escape into a world where my soul flies free

I close my eyes and into my dreams I escape
I escape to a world that only I control
A place where my heart can truly soar
I find you there
Alone and free
Seeking the same solace as me

I melt into your warm embrace
And for a brief moment in time
The storms without can not find me
They can not lash me with their bitter unrelenting blows
Here there are no tears
No hurtful words that tear at the heart of my fragile soul

But it can not last, this world I built
The dreams must end
My eyes must open
The world moves on, and demands my attention
Tearing me apart from this peaceful place I built
Tearing me away from your comforting touch

The colours return to grey
My heart returns to black
My soul returns to it's cage of torment
Patiently I must wait
To once again close my eyes
And find you there waiting
Only in my dreams.....